Ayelet {{ }} We've just had a harsh deep intense and depressing full moon. Other gnarlies too. There's been a combination of feeling really bright-ish, then the rolling wave down to feelings, and loneliness. With the people you work with, you know, this is affecting them that way too-- maybe more. I know I've been in some swirls.There are people who are remembering things from their childhood, abuse etc. (I know that you didn't have this?.. but again, you work with a population who are and DO get affected... This places an 'extra pull' on YOUR energies too... maybe even a bit triggering of other things.
My creepy asteroids in your chart show that you could be having a bout with some melancholia. (These will move along..)
That's just 'the rocks' separate from what we 'know' about full moons with gnarly oppositions.
AND !!!!!!! Perhaps some PRE-Birthday instrospection going on. Something about 'birthdays' can evoke a 'life-review'.
(ref Your sense of looking objectively at the whole picture.)
{pssst-- hey everyone? It's on July 20th!!! *Heart*}
Your Progressed Moon has been Libra... and it's finishing off there by end of September.
Your 'feelings' might feel the shift once we get to October.
Will change into a Progressed Scorpio Moon .
This might give you the sense that you just went EXTRA deep down into feelings. ... When that happens, it might bring back a sense of waters and ability to get back down into satisfactory ground for writing from your Heart and guts.
I haven't gone as super thoroughly through your chart as I could. ...
You've passed some transits that were more-testing.
And, you'll be on your way to others that will challenge you a different way...
These have a slow onset, so, the change may not be 'felt' as abrupt, but things in the outside world (that we can't control or foresee) may shift some perspectives. (That's FAR away though... we can talk about that after New Year.)
Jupiter will arrive at your Midheaven (Career zone) around mid-October. That will also have a different watery feel to it.
Can also bring goodluck and fortune in area of career? May make you more seen and 'public'.. as will your P'Moon entering Scorpio (your natal 10th).
Write some things..... consider what you'd want to publish someday?
(If you were my close-by geog friend, I'd sit down with you and do some brainstorming of ideas. Especially if you already have some general stuff started.... At least, I hope the 'thought' counts!! *sending it over the telepathic waves ~~~~~~~* )
More to the Dream now ..............
Male and female creative (painters) energies. (YOU! lol)
... Male is studying now. ...
Taking care of needful activities, establishing self with greater potential by learning a kind of trade.
... The female is (blind)and not capable of doing quite the same thing the male does... but... this a couple, and they do things for each other. One enhances the other... She is 'being there' (resting, holding) for him. She is the Presence.
... The male is providing at this time, some outside-world kind of leadership, taking priority, being a Cover for the female energy. Doing what he needs to do.
... She must 'wait'... Patiently.
"Blindness" ....
When I think about blindness... I think of Intuitive Senses.
The OTHER faculties grow stronger, and become 'enhanced' ... sharper, more attuned to scent, to hearing. You hear things that you never knew were there.
She (female energy) HAS her intuitive sense being cultivated even more. She picks up on things that he cannot see yet. His job is to see the outside world.
He finishes the 'intellectual' learning... and shall become 'as' heightened intuitively as she is. They come on the same page--- BOTH the male and female. They can work on a more equal level now.
Like you mentioned-- you had to put more emphasis on learning a trade, studying in school. You obtained a position and it's your way to involve yourself with the everyday community. This is needful, and will establish you. Give you different opportunities to release your talents. Find out more of who you are-- peering into the lives of others.
In the meantime.... be patient. Things are due to change 'tones' later this year.
Summation------
I don't think you've 'lost' your creativity. It had to become a lower priority in order for you to establish your ground.
Your everyday life, gaining self-confidence, feel plugged-in and doing something you're probably really good at, is very 'grounding' for you?
In the other meantime.... The 'blindness' (your intuitive faculties) is actually helping you to progress!
When you're blind to your sense of writing, THEN you are better focused to 'concentrate' on world things you need right now. And, it was a gift someone gave you... (I remember that--- that's REALLY Blessed, you know?)
Also... you might not fully realize this yet, but, you are learning more about how to communicate with others. They and you placing words to sometimes ineffable feelings?
So.
I'll leave you with two videos.
The one on the Leo New Moon has an excellent description of HOW the moods and creative highs and lows are rolling.
The woman is just Crazy-Creative-Talented!!!! wow. Watch the WHOLE thing... She's amazing.
The latter... is my favorite Neptune vid... you'll see the added reason 'why' when you click the url...
You are Loved! and Cherished! ...
and Highly Creative,
and A Success
(topic) New Moon in Leo-- You are My Sunshine (Barbara Goldsmith) [13:11] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y7FonWh7mRo
and the other
Your natal Neptune rx, in H11
Also pay attention to Nep in the 2nd house
(transiting applies).
(topic) Neptune through The Houses (Steve Judd) [7:04] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-rCkPPDbUls