There are times in my life...When I feel completely alive. Sometimes they are bridged by long, very long, periods of numbnes or even sadness - or worse - hopelessness. I can't explain it but I was just walking outside and the night air is so invigorating tonight. I covered my face with my hands as I walked a few steps and then removed them and took a deep breath and it was like I sucked it all in. It was like waking up completely rested. I walked down the sidewalk, wet from the sprinklers watering the plants, felt the mist and enjoyed it on my toes through my sandals. I am alive tonight even though my body is ready for sleep. I looked up at the nearly perfect half-moon and I thought very clearly:
I am powerful.
And I didn't doubt it. I didn't retract it. I wasn't trying to convince myself or pull myself out of a funk. There was no "but" at the end of it. It was just exactly what it was.
I am powerful.
And I know it. And it's good. I'm not less than anything or anyone else. I deserve good things as much as anyone else and I don't need to doubt that good things will happen to me too. Hope is alive and it is worth having. Hope is more powerful that doubt. Nothing is too good for me and I can do ANYTHING. I feel liberated.
Thank you, Moon. Thank you, Goddess. Thank you, God. Thank you, Earth. Thank you Fire. Thank you, Water. Thank you, Air.
I needed that.