I wanted to post a chart...but I forgot what sites to use...So I'll just get to the story. The first time I fell in love with someone was when I was 18 and naive. I felt an immediate connection with him. Like a soul union. We use to philosophize a out stuff like that all the time. Our "friendship" revolved around philosophy and his heart break of his ex - a leo. He also wanted to hear everything I had to say astrology wise that might apply to his heartbreak.
Meanwhile I was unrequiantedly in love with him. However; he pushed the limited that true friends arnt supposed to cross. But like i said i was niave and just hoping he'd love me back. I "lost it" to him. He promised wed stay friends. But then I did that thing where I obsessedly tried calling him etc. And he'd ignore me.
Eventually he reach back out to me here and there. Always filling me in on the lastest of his love life. Disappeared and reappear. Occasionally turning it into a feb night and disappear again.
I was in love with him and had him on a pedestal for 7 years!!! I tried not to love him. Tried dating other people. Thinking when ever hed contact me that I wouldn't let him off the hook ...that I'd finally get answers to some of my questions. Such as what did I mean to him,really. Was I just a **** buddy?
Even though there were times when he genuinely wanted my advice. When all hed want to do is talk or watch a movie or go for a drive. Hed take me out of town with him sometimes he even selfless helped me learn to drive.
The last time i heard from him in 2012 I decided I had enough. Enough of the games. Ebough of being a substitute and ready to move on.
And I did. Gueniunely moved on. Fell in love. Jhave been in a healthy relationship for three years. I did run into the cancer in question a couple times during the first year of our relationship. But made those encounters are ahort as possible.
Now 4 years after the last time he called, he called again. Disrupting my equalibrium. Forcing me to wonder yet again....what is this between us?
Is he just a master minipulator. Or does he actually care about me.
So he called and I wasnt 100% sure it was him. I thought it could be my bf. But I also thought it could be him. They have the same area code and I just thought the number looked familar and I dont have my bf # memorized. Because who memorizes telephone numbers anymore? And just thought it could be a glitch that his picturr didnt show up etc. Now I realize I should have listened to the panic in my body about who it really was.
We ended up talking on the phone for 2-3 hours. One of the first things he wanted to talk about or ask me was if he ever hurt me, if if still consider him a friend. He said me and him will always be friends for ever. He wondered why i never tried contacting him. And he kinda turned the tables on me. Sating hoe much he cared about me. About how he always called me back when I called him (which is certainly not how i remember it) etc.
So does anyone have any thoughts on this? Any gut feelings? Can do a tarot reading? Is he manipulating me? After 10 years...i need this settled.