I am currently in a loving long-term relationship with this wonderful guy I’ve met twice in my life. We have been together for about 2 years now, but lately I have been having this gut feeling that we will be separating soon. I have recently asked in the interpersonal astrology forum if he is my twin flame or not based on our synastry. I think he is but also I like to give myself the benefit of the doubt.
A couple things came to my mind when I started getting this gut feeling. We are both currently in school right now. I graduate this year and he graduates in two years. He has already expressed his desire to leave the country and go on 6-month to 1-year trip after graduating. I, on the other hand, already have plans to work on a cruise ship travelling around the world as a licensed hairstylist. Besides the fact, I also had a dream where he said he was gonna leave me in two years and I remember thinking to myself I had two years to change everything.
I truly love this man. I always have, even just as a friend when we were friends. I care very deeply about him. We are so good together. He understands me and I understand him. Our relationship is not perfect, but I like it the way it is. However, I also have been feeling our life together has been stagnating.
As hard as it is for me to swallow, I know it would be in our best interests to go our separate ways when the time does come. We’ve already known since the very beginning of our relationship that if we ever did break up, it wouldn’t be because of cheating or complete incompatibility. It would be because we both want to see the world and experience different things.
We really do not have to leave each other, tbh. I’m a hairstylist and he’s a photographer. We can work together. But I feel like we have met way too early in this life. I met him for the first time when I was 17, and the second time when I was turning 19. Right now, I am turning 21 and he’s turning 22.There is so much more ahead of us that I wouldn’t want to get in his way of living his life to the fullest. He doesn’t want to get in my way either.
We’ve had to do some sacrifices like giving our cat away. We already know we wouldn’t be together for too long until we have to go our separate ways.
This is where my pain comes in. He seems to be able to accept it like it’s nothing, while I’m struggling trying to accept it. I feel more attached than he is. Although I also already have a feeling we will meet again for the third time, I still worry. I worry that what if we met again and he’s with someone else or vice versa. I am magnetically attracted to him and so is he. I don’t think that will ever go away. It has been there since the very first time we met. I was also told by someone we’re destined to find each other and be in each other’s lives no matter what. But I still feel fearful of what the future holds. Things will be very complicated if we do meet again and one is already in the arms of another. I have a hard time accepting this. I have a hard time just letting it be.
------------------
Gemini Rising
Sun in Leo (2nd house)
Moon in Cancer (1st house)
Mercury in Virgo (3rd house conj.)
Venus in Virgo (3rd house)
Mars in Libra (5th house)
"You were born a lion. Don't die
a sheep." ~ Leos ♌️