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Topic: At a crossroad..
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evenstarr
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posted October 19, 2006 01:53 PM
 
Is this what depression feels like? I'm not sure... This year has been a tough one in many ways and my outlook on life is slowly going under. Strangely enough, I got approached by more men this year than in previous years, but none that were right for me as friendships seemed unlikely and beyond that, I didn't feel comfortable/the attraction towards them. My ex-aqua entered the picture again after 8 months of no contact to play hot cold cold cold hot cold hot cold hot cold cold cold HOT and now COLD COLD. Friendships shouldn't be this hard, should it? It's a bit silly to ask other people to tell me how I should feel, but I just don't know. I don't know why I feel so confused about things. The more time to reflect on things, the more blurred my reality gets... hmm... does any of this resonate with anyone? So now that it's out in the open (out of my head)... where do you go from here? How would you slowly piece things together and to find the drive? To see the positives in every situation... I just.. don't know.. I have four 8th houses and a 12th house moon and I wonder if others feel the same.. --
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InLoveWithLife
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posted October 19, 2006 03:01 PM
I can understand how you feel.....i hv been through it.
are you spiritual ? if so i can suggest some websites tht i frequented whn i was depressed...they might help. in my case, i am spiritual, but hv no particular affiliations/biases towards/against and religion. but believe strongly in god. but during my depression, even my faith was shaken. tht was the rock bottom for me. u cud say tht my foundations got shaken. these websites help me lay a stronger base and build from there on. IP: Logged |
sue g
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posted October 19, 2006 03:28 PM
Me too....I understand....And like you, I was with a man who also blew HOT COLD, HOT COLD....very very challenging indeed.... But that was then and now things are different. I am older, a little wiser, calmer, more confident. Life is still tough and challenging...but I sort of learned what not to tolerate and to say NO more often and attract more positive people into my life... I choose to spend more time on my own which is HEAVEN...I dont need so much reassurance and talk to God a lot....have learned to laugh at myself and like myself and to give myself a pat on the back. My depression has made me who I am....I went down very far a few times....panic attacks suicidal thoughts, despair etc etc...but everytime I came out of the fog, I felt stronger.... Dont lose  it WILL get better.... And I agree with InLove, this place is invaluable, I have been helped by many a kind soul here....it makes all the difference....just talking, listening and sharing... Good luck to you  Sue x IP: Logged |
evenstarr
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posted October 20, 2006 01:50 PM
Thank you kindly for your warm and kind replies  And I also agree that this place is invaluable. InLoveWithLife- If you would be so nice as to share the websites, that would be great sue g - You come across as so vibrant and lively always.Today felt different - more calm and quiet. I've been thinking about what you have both shared and you're both right. Now I think I got an inkling on what needs to be worked on. Thank you =) IP: Logged |
Maire31
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posted October 20, 2006 02:39 PM
Evenstarr~I've been dealing with t.Saturn/12h so I can relate with the depressive states. I agree with the others as far as strengthening your spirituality, especially in such dubious times. The other thing I find helpful is searching for the meaning, the lessons to be learned, in all of the negative situations. I'm always wondering what exactly is it the Universe is trying to show me. I don't view negatives as punishments, I see them as metaphors for what I really need to be looking at. I also feel very fortunate to have recently found this board. Again, the Universe provided another avenue for me to receive new messages to foster my own strength and growth. The people here are amazingly generous, I only hope I can return even a fraction of what I've already received! Happy trails! IP: Logged |
evenstarr
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posted October 21, 2006 06:51 AM
Thank you for that and whatever is making you feel down, I hope it passes soon and that you get many positive things out of it =) I don't know much about astrology yet, except for reading up on sun signs, moon signs, etc & this forum. But I am starting to get really interested in furthering my knowledge on Transits and such. Would you know of a good site for beginners? Not sure but I am having some trouble with the 'search' function on LL. IP: Logged | |
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