posted November 18, 2002 04:50 AM         

me: 26 Jul 79, 6:35am, Dunaújváros/Hungary
him: 4 Jan 74, Trieste/Italy

I try myself to interpret... maybe it is his saturn in my 11th-cancer house what makes it so difficult. I long so much for (signs of)care (which I give as a matter of course and with all my heart), he says that certain things that are obvious dont need any confirmation. I guess our idea of love is totally different, the way we experience and express affection. And the distance feeds (my!) unsecurity; from the aloofly he appears to be frozen, and my behaviour is suspicious to him. I felt the difference in approaching/declaring anything from the very beginning of our relation ship, this was fascinating and not seperating for more than one year we kept searching for each other after being unexpectedly seperated by some evil upper force!!! or just mishap?) but the presumptions which are results from my way of thinking open deep wounds (of other experiences) and they torture and object and insist on their only trueness.

posted November 19, 2002 10:45 AM         

i normally do not inquire further details, but i am going to make an exception in this case. how long have you been together, and what exactly is the context of your relationship with this man? romance? friendship? fantasy?

thanks.

posted November 19, 2002 05:23 PM         

Many say that in a real/good romantic relation ship your sweetie should be your pal as well - but no, right now i cant imagine us being friends (for i cant imagine that the temptations cease... *grrr* - excuse me, I'll curb my leo nature - guess he neither...

Was it fantasy that didnt let us forget each other after having spent only one evening/night together (hey, we were just talking&dancing that late summer), that urged us to look for the other (abroads) with the ridicously scanty information about the other, that made us go to the place of first concourse one year later this late summer (with the slight hope that the other one also still feels the same longing...)

I heard that usually the most unforgettable love stories are therefore those with a sad abrupt ending because then Fantasy usurps the leading role, spins the (weaving)loom and yes, the continuation is incredibly wonderful! there is deep truth in this and i just wanted to express that I am not a victim of Fantasy, I love its world but I can see its frontiers as well, had to sharpen my eyes - by and by.

You see, I know i know him, Fab, despite the short time we are together again, precisely for one month, by GREAT LUCK - am SO HAPPY ABOUT THIS The extent of his vulnerability frightens me. I experienced that I have to be overly cautious with my statements (and behaving/movements). I begin to make out sources why he is so, but this will take time... and requires proximity

And there is something else eventhough it sounds childish: I know I knew him before, this situation, this attraction and longing and these problems as well, his behaving, his persisting gaze, his inner restlessness and nervousness and even my incapability to deal with these are so familiar to me that the situation thrills me a bit - guess him more, much more. There are some wonderful moments when he is suddenly open, hmm, I have the key, i know. Weird, but sometimes i think our bodies make the admissions which our (most of all his) reasonable brains cant verbalize.

I could mention some cut-outs from conversations, from intimate moments but I wrote very much anyway, sorry, hope you understand.

Thank you that you care []

Loveful

Zephir

posted November 20, 2002 04:23 PM         

I asked Fab today about his birthtime. Dont know if "around 23:00" helps much, but suppose his Asc is rather Virgo than Libra. Would a pic help to get this out?

Aphrodite, it is so great I feel his ice melting !!!

Loveful

posted January 17, 2003 12:17 PM         

In looking at the charts, I sense that you are both very different people and that you probably have a difficult time relating to each other on many levels. I sense a disconnect. You are a Leo woman with the Moon in Leo, and Leo Rising; and he is a Capricorn man with Moon Taurus. Very different compositions you both are.

However, there is free will and desire of intent. If you both have desire and are willing to make a go at it, anything is possible.

Best,