posted January 18, 2007 09:42 PM         

I've been thinking about a lot of people that have come in and out of my life, some of which I have left on bad terms with. I decided to try and cleanse my soul and get rid of any poisonous karma that has been left over. I came across my Gemini ex's myspace page. I left that relationship feeling angry, and bitter, and detesting him. I sent him an email asking how he was. He responded in kind, and told me to wish my family well and he said that he missed them. I knew I had to tell him that my father passed away in August. I wrote back with the news, but never got a response.

I had been home from work for only about 10 minutes when the doorbell rang. It was him. He had tears in his eyes. He hugged me and said he had rushed over the second he read the email, and was so upset that he hadn't known about it when it happened. He brought our dog (that we bought together and I loved) with him so that I could see him. We talked for almost two hours. We had a lot of laughs, and agreed that although we had a tough relationship and were not great as a couple, we still loved eachother and could remain great friends. We met at difficult times in both of our lives, and we both made a lot of mistakes. He has grown as a person, and it was good to see that. I have too, I imagine.

This was such a wonderful and cathartic experience for me. He shocked me with his concern and compassion and proved to me that he is a wonderful man, inside and out, and I wish him nothing but love and happiness.

I am so glad that I did this, and I feel released in a way. It's amazing when you can talk to an ex and find out that everything you THOUGHT was going through their heads at the time, was completely inaccurate. Everyone has coping mechanisms, and what's on the outside is never what's on the inside.

I take back everything nasty I've ever said about Gemini men. They can be just lovely, and may surprise you.

With that I will leave you all with this...

"Live in Joy, In love,
Even among those who hate.

Live in joy, In health,
Even among the afflicted.

Live in joy, In peace,
Even among the troubled.

Look within. Be still.
Free from fear and attachment,
Know the sweet joy of living in the way.

~

There is no fire like greed,
No crime like hatred,
No sorrow like separation,
No sickness like hunger of heart,
And no joy like the joy of freedom.

Health, contentment and trust
Are your greatest possessions,
And freedom your greatest joy.

Look within. Be still.
Free from fear and attachment,
Know the sweet joy of living in the way."

posted January 19, 2007 10:33 AM         

so inspiring....

posted January 19, 2007 06:59 PM         

Thank you for sharing.

posted August 23, 2008 07:01 PM         

Thanks for sharing this experience here. A great reminder for us all.