posted February 01, 2008 05:54 PM         

I have been thinking about this person. We both liked each other but I was very, very shy in high school so I was just too shy to ever even talk to him. But we both knew that we both really liked each other. It's too bad that I was so shy.

I think he is married now. *sigh*

Also, does anyone ever think about their past loves from about 10,15,20 yrs. ago?

posted February 01, 2008 06:49 PM         

i sometimes think about my past loves. yet i am coming from a time in my life when i was soooo closeted. i, a girl, having feelings for a girl way back in the early 80's when it was anything but cool! egads!!!!

i was not shy but i had not much confidence and S-elf esteem. so for me when i reflect back it is not what i may have missed out on; the reflection stems for the little girl who was so scared and lost. and how, even now, i need to tell myself what i did or lack thereof was ok. it was where i was at, it was who i was, it was what i was.

as well, when i think back to those times it was not about a reciprocated "love" that i missed out on. it was about how the street went only one way, my feelings left for the ears of the universe and god alone.

it makes me appreciate me and where i am and how far i've gotten in my life. yes, there is a sadness now and then but without those lessons learned i may not be where i am today.

it reminds me of how i am a trinity within myS-elf: maiden, mother and crone.

posted February 01, 2008 06:56 PM         

I, too, lacked in the confidence and self-esteem department. (heck, I still do!) LOL

posted February 02, 2008 03:25 AM         

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Also, does anyone ever think about their past loves from about 10,15,20 yrs. ago?

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posted February 02, 2008 06:08 AM         

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Does anyone ever wish they had gotten together with the person they had a crush on in high school?

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ME! ME! ME! in my case ... the crush was from primar school! and I still think he is the most gorgeous and special ever man on earth!

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I have been thinking about this person. We both liked each other but I was very, very shy in high school so I was just too shy to ever even talk to him. But we both knew that we both really liked each other. It's too bad that I was so shy.

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posted February 02, 2008 12:38 PM         

I wish we did get together b/c I think we would be a good match.

posted February 02, 2008 04:18 PM         

I suspect the only obstacle you have in this department in your life is your shyness, because you are simply beautiful both on the inside and out!

posted February 02, 2008 06:55 PM         

And I have googled them and found them...and they have shot my dreamy rememberances of them right down...

posted February 02, 2008 07:58 PM         

Robyns13,

Too bad you didn't go to my high school in the early to mid 80's. Most of my friends and my brother all jumped out of the closet during the summer between 9th grade(Jr. High) and 10th grade(High School) and they took over the school. I'm not gay but hung out with the gay crowd which was the hip crowd to be in back then. Can you imagine that in a small New England town?

It was a very liberal community being a part of the Yale University community, all of our parents worked for Yale in some capacity. Everybody was into Prince and Boy George and the whole androgynous scene. So much fun.

I'm gathering that if you grew up in the Midwest that you definitely didn't have that experience. I just assumed everybody did.

Anyway, back to the topic. Yes, I think about those old lovers from the late 80's and I miss them all like good friends.

Geocosmic Valentine

posted February 02, 2008 08:26 PM         

Prince was very popular at my school, but not really Boy George. If we had gay people at our school it wasn't known. But mostly heavy metal/hard rock and 80's New Wave stuff was very popular.

posted February 04, 2008 12:35 PM         

love the username!!! ya, things here in the midwest were a touch bit different than in new england. '81 was my first girl crush and i fully felt there was no way i could come out.

i do not come from a college town. i think that there is a whole openmindedness that comes with growing up and living in a college town. loved prince, saw boy george and went down the path of destruction, denying who i was, until many years later.

i learned alot, did i say alot, about myself in those dark years. they helped me to be the woman i am today. i still cradle that lost, sad girl now and then but i came out and here i am; now close to 40 and i have two beautiful kids that i carried.

ah, life