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posted July 30, 2008 08:26 PM         

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anyone who has read my previous posts about the 11:11 phenomenon will know just how perplexed i was about the message that these numbers were trying to give to me.
and i think i know what they were telling me now...
two days ago, i was with the man who i have known for centuries over the course of many lifetimes, the man i am supposed to be with throughout eternity. we were taking a short trip with a few friends when i took his cell phone to make a call. i looked at the time, sighed and said 'it's 11:11'. he was like 'yeah i know,lately whenever i look at the time it's either 11:11 or 1:11 or 2:22 and so on and so forth; it's quite interesting actually'.
and that's when it hit me..all this time the message the numbers have been trying to give to me is 'WAKE UP!! it's time for you to open your third eye and recognize the other half of your self!' and they were doing the same thing to him.
let me give a little bit of background story about my twin and i... i first met him six years ago, when i had just started dating my ex-husband. of course at that time we looked at each other as just friends (or so i thought..he told me much later he had felt a little something from the beginning). then i got married to his friend and that did not work out and when i was getting divorced, he was like the solid rock which kept me from losing my mind. he was there for me every step of the way and as it happens, he fell for me at that time. but i was too messed up to realize that this was something really special i was walking away from, but sadly i did walk away.
months passed by...we kept in touch, but we were each seeing other people and it seemed like we had moved on. then one day i had this dream...i don't remember much about it, except that he was there and so was i and we seemed to be somewhere in the middle of nowhere and it was beautiful; and what i felt in that dream i cannot describe in words. it was the most intense thing that i had ever felt in my dreams. when i woke up, i felt this tug on my heart..and i felt all these other emotions which i cannot express.. it was like i fell in love with him head over heels in that dream.ever since then i could not shake this feeling of emptiness which only he could fill up.. i told him how i felt, but it seemed like it was too late,he said he was with someone else already and that he was happy.. and i told him that i just needed to get it out, how i was feeling and the one person who understood me so well was him and so i had to tell him how i felt.
some time later, he broke up with his girlfriend and he called me..just to talk.. and then one thing led to another and we ended up getting involved in this intense relationship which none of us knew how it was gonna work out. there were too many things to think about..my ex husband was a close friend of his, his family did not approve, most of our friends were all dumb founded and to top everything off he said he was not ready for a committed relationship under these circumstances. i was frustrated. i wanted him to reciprocate and he wanted to take it slooowww (wise cappy that he is) and then i had to move to new york and leave him behind in bangladesh. we still clung on to each other. i knew that he had deep feelings for me, but that he wanted to wait and see. and then in typical aquarian fashion i decided to make everything topsy turvy by sleeping with my ex husband (my reasoning was that he had done the same thing to me with his ex girlfriend, although that was much earlier on in the relationship and he was the one who wanted the 'open' relationship).
it broke his heart..and broke mine too because it seemed like i didn't know what i wanted, it seemed like i still had feelings for my ex and this was the first time that i had cheated on someone and it was killing me.
he was very patient about it..let's give each other enough time to get over all our issues he said. i ranted and raved about how he had pushed me into doing what i did by refusing to commit. he told me everything happens in it's own time, so just give it time.. he still would not commit. i don't know why but i felt something snap inside of me...i loved him and i knew he loved me, so what was the problem? he was being unfair, i could not do this anymore, etc etc. if he wants an open relationship, raged my stellium-in-scorpio.. we'll give him one, and he wont even know. so i decided to start seeing this random guy who was interested in me.. after a week though, i broke down, completely lost it and told the love of my life that our situation had gotten too complicated for me and i wanted out. he said he understood, but he wasn't ready to let go. we played the whole break up game during which time he was over emotional and i was cold and unapproachable. good riddance i thought to myself... this was killing me.
so i thought i had closure. i thought he was out of my mind, that after so much had happened i would not think about him. i focused my energies on the cancer guy i was dating and for a while i was distracted.
but at night he came to me in my dreams.. not frequently, but just enough to make me wonder...
then i went home for a few weeks and i saw him a couple of times..he seemed completely over me..sex without any strings attached was on the table, but nothing more. but i could not forget him. even when i came back to new york and started seeing someone else seriously, i found my thoughts straying to him. i would miss him at the oddest of times it was like he was in my system and i could not get him out.
now about three weeks ago he came to new york for his work (he's a musician and had shows and stuff) and the moment i saw him it was like this was what my eyes were waiting for. i spent every waking moment with him till yesterday when he left.
as i saw him go, for the first time in god knows how long, i prayed. for the first time in what seemed like forever i felt my whole being sing just one song and that was i love this man, and it has taken me ages, but i have figured out that i love him and he is the one i am supposed to be with.
i know that he felt it too...probably not with the same depth as i did, but i saw it in his eyes.
i feel like my soul has woken up after a very long sleep. i feel like i still have a chance with him and this time i am not letting go.
i have figured out the message that the universe was sending me so urgently.. it was telling me and my twin to wake up and recognize each other.

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posted July 31, 2008 09:47 PM         

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posted August 03, 2008 08:50 PM         

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posted August 03, 2008 10:19 PM         

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I couldn't handle an open relationship. If I were staying in this current town, I imagine I might very easily fall into the experimentation of an open relationship with my recent Sag/Aqua/Sag girl. But I know I would soon become way too jealous and break it off.

Anyway, about the 11:11, 2:22, etc... for a long time I was waking up ON THE HOUR. Not like 7:58 or 8:04, but literally 8:00, down to the exact minute.

I set my alarm in mutiples because I'm always having fun with numbers (7:21, 8:16, 8:24, etc). However, for at least 3 days per week for about an entire year, I would wake up before my alarm went off, and it would be EXACTLY 7:00, or EXACTLY 8:00. It really freaked me out, but I thought it was so amazing, as if I were suddenly falling in tune with time.

I quit my job two weeks ago in anticipation for leaving Virginia, hoping I could spend my last month here partying and going wild. Perhaps due to this lack of order and organization, it seems my waking schedule has become completely random, and not once in the past 2 weeks did I wake up "on the hour".

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posted August 04, 2008 09:03 PM         

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it was an open relationship by name.. it was a very complicated situation. but i do believe this time when we get together, it will be for good and it will be way different than it was before...

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