posted March 24, 2010 04:19 AM
Wow, fascinating. I will have think more about this part:"Resisting Eros altogether is a bad idea. He will torment us with unreachable desire after unreachable desire. To work with Eros, we must remain flexible and open. We must acknowledge his loving darts. We must follow our hearts, always, and without fear or guilt. We must learn to love ourselves enough to do this.
Some people truly are afraid to give in to Eros. They are afraid that if they give in to love, they will become soft and lose everything. They are afraid they will be made fools of, financially, emotionally, every which way. And perhaps they will at first, until they become more in touch with their own wisdom. But so what? Love has ever been and ever shall be the property of the fool. Only the fool will get to experience the dizzying heights, the sublime depths."
I have Eros cj. Sun at the apex of a mutable t-square. It's obviously a very important asteroid for me, and I think I do fear greatly giving into love, into my heart, because I have been so wounded and disappointed in the past over love. And I am very lonely, and have been all my life, even as child (my parents even were distant and preoccupied). This notion of a fool for love reminds me a lot of the Christian spiritual idea of the fool for God, the one who surrender everything to become a child before God, even if society views him as a utter, contemptible fool.