posted August 26, 2007 12:16 AM         

sugar and milk

posted August 26, 2007 12:26 AM           

Hope you find your mouse-spouse soon, MM.

posted August 26, 2007 10:22 AM         

Yes I do too, but would have to run him off after satiating my needs...

That is why I remain "technically" single...

That is cute, hope you find him!!!

posted August 26, 2007 02:08 PM         

I think I'm afraid that he would be all wrong and I WOULDN'T run him off.
So, I chose these learning experiences for myself, eh? Well, I'm on to mySelf and I think the rules are that I can't hide but I can run?

posted August 26, 2007 05:24 PM         

Welcome to my nightmare
Welcome to the jungle
Welcome to Paradise

Slip inside the eye of your mind
Don't you know you might find
A better place to play
You said that you'd never been
But all the things that you've seen
Will slowly fade away

So I start a revolution from my bed
'Cos you said the brains I had went to my head
Step outside, summertime's in bloom
Stand up beside the fireplace
Take that look from off your face
You ain't ever gonna burn my heart out

And so Sally can wait, she knows it's too late as we're walking on by
Her soul slides away, but don't look back in anger I heard you say

Take me to the place where you go
Where nobody knows if it's night or day
But please don't put your life in the hands
Of a Rock n Roll band
Who'll throw it all away

I'm gonna start a revolution from my bed
'Cos you said the brains I had went to my head
Step outside 'cos summertime's in bloom
Stand up beside the fireplace
Take that look from off your face
'Cos you ain't ever gonna burn my heart out

So Sally can wait, she knows it's too late as she's walking on by
My soul slides away, but don't look back in anger I heard you say

So Sally can wait, she knows it's too late as we're walking on by
Her soul slides away, but don't look back in anger I heard you say

So Sally can wait
She knows it's too late as shes walking on by
My soul slides away
But don't look back in anger
Don't look back in anger
I heard you say

At least not today

Welcome to Xanadu

posted August 26, 2007 05:31 PM         

I like days like these when LL makes me feel like I Am EveryOne and EveryOne is Me. I like feeling like I am talking to different and interesting aspects of myself.

Good Sunday

posted August 26, 2007 05:56 PM         

T~~~

posted August 27, 2007 03:24 PM         

Mars, thank goodness, how long will it take you to get here?
Where is your long signature? I like it.

NAM (is it Nelly? I've forgotten), I've never met a lover who didn't help cause as many wounded tears as he helped to heal, and much of the time even more. I have faith that as I do better myself, I will need less healing help, and the balance will be that future lovers (and I) will cause less wounds as well.
I think that covers an aspect of my truth, and I would love to hear your opinions. I am always open to learn things from different perspectives.

posted August 27, 2007 03:31 PM         

Mental wounds not healing
Life's a bitter shame
I'm going off the rails on a crazy train
I'm going off the rails on a crazy train

I've listened to preachers
I've listened to fools
I've watched all the dropouts
Who make their own rules
One person conditioned to rule and control
The media sells it and you live the role

Mental wounds still screaming
Driving me insane
I’m going off the rails on a crazy train
I'm going off the rails on a crazy train

I know that things are going wrong for me
You gotta listen to my words
Yeah yeah yeah

<guitar solo>

Heirs of the Cold War, that's what we've become
Inherited troubles, I'm mentally numb!
Crazy, I just cannot bear
I'm living with something that just isn't fair!

posted August 27, 2007 03:52 PM           

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NAM (is it Nelly? I've forgotten), I've never met a lover who didn't help cause as many wounded tears as he helped to heal, and much of the time even more. I have faith that as I do better myself, I will need less healing help, and the balance will be that future lovers (and I) will cause less wounds as well.
I think that covers an aspect of my truth, and I would love to hear your opinions. I am always open to learn things from different perspectives.

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yes, Nelly good memory

posted August 27, 2007 05:19 PM         

I think I just get overwhelmed when I am sick and start wishing I had a partner to lean on.

Well, if you ever want to share any joys or sorrows, we are listening!

posted August 27, 2007 06:54 PM         

I totally understand what you are saying, the past few weeks have been gawd-awful for me and I too, have ached for someone to hold, someone to hold me...

I am so connected to another, but at present time it can not be...

So I re-main alone....

Truth be told, I have been "alone" for so long now I really do not think I could truely be with another...

Look me up on myspace, girl...

Alldemer...

posted August 27, 2007 06:54 PM           

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Mars, thank goodness, how long will it take you to get here?

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Where is your long signature? I like it.

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posted August 27, 2007 08:00 PM         

Mars,
Quad Cities, USA, on the Illinois side of the Mississippi River.
Will you be arriving in your private jet?

posted August 28, 2007 04:04 PM           

I understand, I just got the funny feeling when I read your first post that we are really not suppose to be bringing sorrow to our other half, we need to take care of those ourselves, we can't have the other carry us .....
I am not really sure why I got those strong feelings...Maybe those words just spoke to me for my own self.

In my case I have been feeling so down that the rest of my life has been following with it , just because I am alone, so now I am in a new "mode" I need to take care of myself, how else am I going to grow as a person...you know? I can't expect him to do everything! Not that I ever expect him to do things for me but I was kind of waiting for him before I started taking care of myself...

But yes...at the end of the day when I am done doing my good deeds and taking care of the job I am suppose to be doing here for the better of others I would really like to lay next to him and feel his warmth, and his arms wrapped around me,and just feel like a little girl that needs to be saved from the rest of the world.

hmmmmmmmmmmm I wish I had that guy.

Funny thing is that before that guy I was strong but I didn't beleive in love, after that guy I got very weak... I am getting strong again.
Not sure if I do beleive in love now, I only know so far that it hurts when you don't have it.And it drives me crazy when I am being teased....
Do we ever have any control? I feel like a puppet.

posted August 29, 2007 01:00 AM         

I just want to say that what you wrote was fabulous and I think it will be a blessing to many people.

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Not sure if I do believe in love now, I only know so far that it hurts when you don't have it.

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"Life is pain, Highness! Anyone who says differently is selling something."

I believe in Love. Pain too. But I believe in LOVE.

posted August 29, 2007 06:22 PM           

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Nelly
I have, and have had so many of those thoughts and feelings (including your introductory thoughts, so don't worry!). I really appreciate you opening up because I read on another thread that as a Cancer, you feel it is difficult to let down the protective shell and share. It means a lot to me that you would share your feelings when it is so difficult, and it also makes me feel nervous about the responsibility because I have something of a protective shell myself and I also have a tendency to try to help by being light-hearted about subjects that others may take very seriously. And even the opposite, I'm quite the contradiction at times. See, here I am saying words like "I" and "me". When people really talk to me, I see myself in them so clearly so many times, that whatever they are saying and whatever I am saying begins to apply to both of us in my eyes. Probably especially now during our full Pisces moon lunar eclipse.
I just want to say that what you wrote was fabulous and I think it will be a blessing to many people.

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Not sure if I do believe in love now, I only know so far that it hurts when you don't have it.
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"Life is pain, Highness! Anyone who says differently is selling something."

I believe in Love. Pain too. But I believe in LOVE.

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MM~Well, yes a Cancer it is hard to open up and share feelings but those are most cancers that have not realize that sharing feelings is not so bad, it doesn't make me a looser or less of a person, all the opposite, I feel I am attacking the problem dead on, straight up! and that makes me feel strong, I know I have the courage to do this, so I know I will find the answers I am looking for...
I know now that by sharing my points of view and experiences I help people open up and I can learn with them about ourselves and how we can fix our problems.
But yes, there are some things I do keep for my own
I am also like you, I feel I am everyone's mom and I need to take care of the world, and sometimes I can feel their pain as well
It is not a bad thing though, not at all!!!

Thank you for your words, I hope more people in teh world would slow down a bit and realize how easy it would be to help each other just by caring a little bit, like you and I and the rest of teh people here in this site.
yes, I have said it before, I am a dreamer.But I don't care, sure doesn't make me lame to say it, at least I have a purpose.

last but not least... I am just not totally sold on this love stuff though, seems very problematic, It shouldn't have to be this way.Seems only the people that settle have a partner in life.Doesn't seem fair...
Seems explosive love explotes in yor face and then it is gone.But I am a bit stubborn and will keep looking for it....I guess I am destined for failure in this aspect.Don't matter though, rather have that than not feeling complete.

posted August 29, 2007 11:10 PM         

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I feel I am attacking the problem dead on, straight up! and that makes me feel strong, I know I have the courage to do this, so I know I will find the answers I am looking for...
I know now that by sharing my points of view and experiences I help people

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I love how you said "I KNOW" here three times in a row. It was powerful to read.

I think looking for a "perfect" mate or a "perfect" love (that we all do ponder to some extent, not that you used that word) is "as above"...
wait... I have to post something before I finish:

Could you embrace that?
from St. Thomas Aquinas

I said to God, “Let me love you.”

And he replied, “Which part?”

“All of you, all of you.” I said.

“Dear” God spoke, “You are as a mouse wanting to impregnate

a tiger who is not even in heat. It is a feat way

beyond your courage and strength.

You would run from me

if I removed my

mask.”

I said to God again,

“Beloved I need to love you – every aspect, every pore.”

And this time God said,

“There is a hideous blemish on my body,

though it is such an infinitesimal part of my Being-

could you kiss that if it were revealed?”

“I will try, Lord, I will try.”

And then God said,

“That blemish is all the hatred and

cruelty in this

world.”

I see human relationships as a microcosm of this idea and of God. Our relationship to ourselves, our own energies, is also a microcosm of God.

posted September 07, 2007 07:46 PM           

Mm-mm-hm.
I've been searchin' the whole darn day
For a little woman of mine - mine - mine - mine.
Someone a-told me I could find her here,
But it seem she disappear.
Said, I searched the whole darn day;
Night is drawing nigh.
I t'ink I'd better go home;
Try tomorrow again.

But when I reached that railroad station,
I missed the last train,
And then it seemed like dewdrops
Gonna fall on me;
Yes, it seem like teardrops
Gonna call on me now.

I said, I'd better make up my mind
What am I gonna do.
Am I gonna rest up here,
Or am I gonna push on through?

My mind say, "Hey, man, ya hit the road."
Down there I missed the track - track - track;
I'm lost! Lord, I'm lost, eh!
Love is such a heavy load!