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Topic: I Officially GIVE UP on romantic love.
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IamLoved
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posted January 16, 2012 01:54 PM
  
Who am I fooling?... The likelihood of me ever being loved is slim to none.........
- On May 8th 1984, I will be 28 and I honestly can say that in all of my 28 years of living I've never felt loved by a man. I've loved, and gave of myself wholeheartedly, but never felt loved back. All the guys that were around me only wanted to take advantage of me in some way... ie. financially, sexually, etc
- Growing up I never had an example of what love looks like between a man and a woman as I never had a father in my life. I guess you can blame that on my "lovely" (18 degree) Sun square (19 degree)moon and pluto in the 4th house
- My single ex hasn't written me back.... and who knows if he ever will... and he's the only guy that I really want.... so I'm going to take the hint, leave him alone and just except things for what they are.
- I have never seen a female with a tight natal sun/moon conjunction get married.... and I'm a female with a tight natal sun/moon conjunction.
- I'll just close the love chapter in my life and when I'm 30.... I'll adopt some children of my own.
- And to be honest, from what I've heard love Isn't all that it's cracked up to be. Men even cheat on the women "THEY LOVE". So if they can do that to a women that they love you can just imagine what they can do to a woman they hardly care for.
- Then you have to worry about men who are secretly bisexual.......
- Then you have to worry about STD's and heartbreak........
- I'm just going to leave love alone. I guess GOD doesn't want me to be happy. Because in all honesty I have always wanted a father figure.... but I never had one! And I have always wanted to be loved by a man and never have been.
i'll just continue to love GOD, myself, my family, and friends, and pray that God allows me to fulfill my purpose in life so that I can leave ASAP.IP: Logged |
Capriquarius
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From: So. Cal
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posted January 16, 2012 02:12 PM
You go girl! Glad you came to your senses.  I guess tNeptune is working its magic in your 9th now eh??IP: Logged |
IamLoved
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posted January 16, 2012 02:13 PM
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Originally posted by Capriquarius:
You go girl! Glad you came to your senses. I guess tNeptune is working its magic in your 9th now eh??
Yes thanks  I guess God doesn't want me to ever find romantic love. Oh well. I still love GOD though IP: Logged |
Libreo
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posted January 16, 2012 02:43 PM
I'm in the same boat! And I'm 38! IP: Logged |
Lioness
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posted January 16, 2012 02:53 PM
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Originally posted by Libreo:
I'm in the same boat! And I'm 38!
39... Meeeee tooooo!!!!! Im done, done done done done.... I headed to the store to buy LOTS of cats right now!! (only Im allergic, so Ill still be suffering) IP: Logged |
Fondue Knight
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Registered: Nov 2011
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posted January 16, 2012 02:55 PM
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Originally posted by Lioness:
39... Meeeee tooooo!!!!! Im done, done done done done.... I headed to the store to buy LOTS of cats right now!! (only Im allergic, so Ill still be suffering)
Love will find you when you least expect it. And then:  IP: Logged |
IamLoved
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posted January 16, 2012 02:55 PM
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Originally posted by Libreo:
I'm in the same boat! And I'm 38!
For real? Aww I'm sorry Are you thinking of adopting too?
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IamLoved
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posted January 16, 2012 02:58 PM
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Originally posted by Lioness:
39... Meeeee tooooo!!!!! Im done, done done done done.... I headed to the store to buy LOTS of cats right now!! (only Im allergic, so Ill still be suffering)
Maybe try a pet turtle or fish, so that you won't have to suffer due to allergies? I have pets as well! I love them. They are a blessing from GOD! I was blessed to have them when my moon progressed in Cancer. But, I would also like to have human children, so I will adopt when I'm in my 30's.
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IamLoved
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posted January 16, 2012 03:00 PM
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Originally posted by Fondue Knight:
Love will find you when you least expect it. And then:
"If you say so" But that was sweet of you to say, so thanks. I'll believe when it has arrived!!
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IamLoved
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posted January 16, 2012 03:00 PM
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Originally posted by Libreo:
I'm in the same boat! And I'm 38!
What happened to you to make you give up on love?
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IamLoved
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posted January 16, 2012 03:01 PM
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Originally posted by Lioness:
39... Meeeee tooooo!!!!! Im done, done done done done.... I headed to the store to buy LOTS of cats right now!! (only Im allergic, so Ill still be suffering)
What happened to you to make you give up on love?
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aquaguy91
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From: maryville,tn,usa
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posted January 16, 2012 03:02 PM
yes being loved by God is the most important thing,but even though i have had no luck myself in romance (heavily afflicted venus) i still believe theres someone for everyone,you just havent found him,and not all men cheat,i have been faithful to the women i have been with,my theory on cheating is that people who do it are not happy with the relationship,so instead of talking about it like 2 mature adults they cheat and try to get whats lacking elsewhere,or they just arent happy with the person and arent willing to be honest about how they feel out of fear of hurting the other person,so instead they cheat to avoid being honest ,and the cheaters worst fears are realized because their cheating causes much more pain then if they had simply been honest,but thats just my theory on the matter. I can vouch to the fact that i am a man and havent cheated and would never cheat,i have loved a girl with all my heart and when we were dating she was the only girl i thought of,and i know other guys the same as me,not all men are bad,you just have to not allow yourself to get involved with a deadbeat,bottomline if he isnt giving back what you give to him,he is not worth your time and tell him to hit the road,the moment you feel unapreciated and like you are doing all the work ,its time to end that relationship,do not compromise on this,its better to be single then be with someone who ismt making an effort to be with you, dont allow that to happen again, you have to love yourself  IP: Logged |
Libreo
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posted January 16, 2012 03:03 PM
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Originally posted by IamLoved:
For real? Aww I'm sorry Are you thinking of adopting too?
I have 2 girls (thank GOD! I'd be lost without them) 13 and 5. Iv'e been married briefly and I date guys from time to time but it's always either they want something more and I'm not into them or I want something more and theyr'e not into me! It's frustrating. And in re to one of the points you made, I want to give them an example to go off of what a relationship should be like so they have something for when they're older.
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Lioness
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posted January 16, 2012 03:05 PM
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Originally posted by IamLoved:
[QUOTE]Originally posted by Lioness:
[b] 39... Meeeee tooooo!!!!! Im done, done done done done.... I headed to the store to buy LOTS of cats right now!! (only Im allergic, so Ill still be suffering)
What happened to you to make you give up on love?[/B][/QUOTE]
Ohh honey...Everything has happened... Been through it all..
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FireWire
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posted January 16, 2012 03:06 PM
Lioness, aren't you still in like Act III, Scene I of the Lion and the Fish?And to the OP, I truly wish you the best. Hopefully you won't give up on romantic love. Granted, I'm a romantic, so I can't! Some things, they take time. If your ex is the only person you want to be with, that doesn't mean there isn't anyone out there who wants to be with you who will respect you, honor you and be faithful to you. Whether you yourself are 'interested' in those individuals romantically, that is a different story. In any case, as stated before, I truly wish you the best and I hope life surpises you and brings you more happiness that you can handle! And btw, 28 is soooo young to make this sort of decision! IP: Logged |
amelia28
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posted January 16, 2012 03:09 PM
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Lioness
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posted January 16, 2012 03:10 PM
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Originally posted by FireWire:
Lioness, aren't you still in like Act III, Scene I of the Lion and the Fish?And to the OP, I truly wish you the best. Hopefully you won't give up on romantic love. Granted, I'm a romantic, so I can't! Some things, they take time. If your ex is the only person you want to be with, that doesn't mean there isn't anyone out there who wants to be with you who will respect you, honor you and be faithful to you. Whether you yourself are 'interested' in those individuals romantically, that is a different story. In any case, as stated before, I truly wish you the best and I hope life surpises you and brings you more happiness that you can handle! And btw, 28 is soooo young to make this sort of decision!
Ohh I cant deal with him right now!!! I left work, cuz every time I turned around he was there..
I cant see him right now... No we didnt argue or anything... I just need a break, I am having a hard time handling all of this...
Im considering telling him to release me.. Only I know its going to be painful.. So I am just keeping my distance.
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IamLoved
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posted January 16, 2012 03:14 PM
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Originally posted by aquaguy91:
yes being loved by God is the most important thing,but even though i have had no luck myself in romance (heavily afflicted venus) i still believe theres someone for everyone,you just havent found him,and not all men cheat,i have been faithful to the women i have been with,my theory on cheating is that people who do it are not happy with the relationship,so instead of talking about it like 2 mature adults they cheat and try to get whats lacking elsewhere,or they just arent happy with the person and arent willing to be honest about how they feel out of fear of hurting the other person,so instead they cheat to avoid being honest ,and the cheaters worst fears are realized because their cheating causes much more pain then if they had simply been honest,but thats just my theory on the matter. I can vouch to the fact that i am a man and havent cheated and would never cheat,i have loved a girl with all my heart and when we were dating she was the only girl i thought of,and i know other guys the same as me,not all men are bad,you just have to not allow yourself to get involved with a deadbeat,bottomline if he isnt giving back what you give to him,he is not worth your time and tell him to hit the road,the moment you feel unapreciated and like you are doing all the work ,its time to end that relationship,do not compromise on this,its better to be single then be with someone who ismt making an effort to be with you, dont allow that to happen again, you have to love yourself
What you wrote is wonderful. And I love myself very much! I don't know why deadbeats come to me.... like "wolves in sheeps clothing"
But I'm tired of trying.... if GOD want's me to be happy and find love, he'll make a way. Untill then, I will continue to love myself, spend time with friends/family, go to events and leave myself open to love but stop thinking that 1 day I will finally be loved.
Lets face it I may be 2000 years old and still unloved so I'm not going to get my hopes up, just to be let down and disappointed again. I'll just love myself, love others, help others and pray that I don't live to be 2000 years old 
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IamLoved
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posted January 16, 2012 03:20 PM
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Originally posted by Libreo:
I have 2 girls (thank GOD! I'd be lost without them) 13 and 5. Iv'e been married briefly and I date guys from time to time but it's always either they want something more and I'm not into them or I want something more and theyr'e not into me! It's frustrating. And in re to one of the points you made, I want to give them an example to go off of what a relationship should be like so they have something for when they're older.
Oh yes, that's a blessing! Congrats. It's a wonderful and honorable thing to raise the future! Yes, I think it is very important that young people are able to have a healthy balance between a mother and father growing up, so that they are able to learn what to do in their relationships.
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aquaguy91
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From: maryville,tn,usa
Registered: Jan 2012
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posted January 16, 2012 03:22 PM
sigh * i know how you feel ,it seems that in every relationship theres always one person giving more,i am a guy and i have bent over a*s backwards to please the girls i been with,relationships are too complicated ,there are so few good people left in the world it makes it hard to find each otherIP: Logged |
IamLoved
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posted January 16, 2012 03:26 PM
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Originally posted by Lioness:
Ohh honey...Everything has happened... Been through it all..
Everything is a lot! I feel like I've been through everything too.. lied to, cheated on etc But through it all I tried not to give up on guys.... until now It's like I'm at the crossroads in my life where I don't care anymore. I'm not happy single anymore.... like I used to be.... no matter what I do... I'm miserable.... I can be in a room full of millions of people and still feel alone.... but today, I've come to the conclusion that it's time I give up..... there's no need to try anymore. If it happens then it happens. If it doesn't then it doesn't I'm officially depressed and I have lost all optimism IP: Logged |
MC2012
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Registered: Jan 2012
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posted January 16, 2012 03:31 PM
you're only 27 cheer up girl, you will find someone i'm sure of it. IP: Logged |
IamLoved
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posted January 16, 2012 03:32 PM
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Originally posted by FireWire:
Lioness, aren't you still in like Act III, Scene I of the Lion and the Fish?And to the OP, I truly wish you the best. Hopefully you won't give up on romantic love. Granted, I'm a romantic, so I can't! Some things, they take time. If your ex is the only person you want to be with, that doesn't mean there isn't anyone out there who wants to be with you who will respect you, honor you and be faithful to you. Whether you yourself are 'interested' in those individuals romantically, that is a different story. In any case, as stated before, I truly wish you the best and I hope life surpises you and brings you more happiness that you can handle! And btw, 28 is soooo young to make this sort of decision!
Thank you for your kind words... I can truly feel the sincerity of your post. I'm just discouraged and sad. I try to move on from my ex and find a good man... I go to single events and parties looking for a good man..... but I don't know what happens.... I'm tired of wasting time and money going to singles events when I don't find any quality men who are compatible with me. Most of the men at those events were old enough to be my great grandfather. I can't stand the life I've been dealt I just want to draw up and die I hate being alone
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IamLoved
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posted January 16, 2012 03:44 PM
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Originally posted by amelia28:
You cant have sun conjunct moon and sun square moon at the at the same time in natal......so which one do you have?Husband has sun square moon and best friend from childhood has sun conjunct moon and both are faithful married men. If you havent found love is probably bc you are attracted to unavailable men bc you had an absent father. You however have the power to change this pattern in yourself but playing the role of the victim is not howthis pattern is going yo get changed. You been alone has nothing to do with god.You thinking it has to do with is how uou gibe your power away but you deciding to focus on yourself and just letting that person enter your life when is meant to be is healthy. Been obssesed about finding the one doednt help attract the right guy ever.
In my natal chart I have Taurus Sun square Leo Moon within 1 degree It was my ex and I who formed a composite chart where our Sun and moon is conjunct within 1 degree! And the person that you mentioned was a man... I see men with this aspect go on to get married... But women with Sun square moon in tight degrees squared is one that I haven't come across.....
But it's the craziest thing
My ex has his natal Cancer Sun in 13 degrees and his natal moon in 14 degrees Aries I have my natal Taurus Sun in 18 degrees and my natal moon in 19 degrees Leo
In the composite chart between him and I
Our composite Sun in 15 degrees Gemini is conjunct to our 16 degree Gemini
Moon So natally my ex and I both have Sun/Moon Square within 1 degree But in our composite we have Sun/Moon conjunct within 1 degree But I'm not going to obsess over him anymore because he probably could care less about me. I just don't believe in love anymore
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Lioness
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posted January 16, 2012 03:46 PM
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Originally posted by IamLoved:
Everything is a lot! I feel like I've been through everything too.. lied to, cheated on etcBut through it all I tried not to give up on guys.... until now It's like I'm at the crossroads in my life where I don't care anymore. I'm not happy single anymore.... like I used to be.... no matter what I do... I'm miserable.... I can be in a room full of millions of people and still feel alone.... but today, I've come to the conclusion that it's time I give up..... there's no need to try anymore. If it happens then it happens. If it doesn't then it doesn't I'm officially depressed and I have lost all optimism
Yes.. but Im sorry I cant answer your question..
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