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Topic: I need serious help.
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Lioness
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posted September 19, 2013 09:52 PM
  
I just can't end this with fishy, I want to soooo bad, it's tearing me up... I just haven't been able to do it... I don't want this anymore... I just want to be done.... My soul is being tortured by my own head... I can't take anymore if it... I don't know what to do. IP: Logged |
SDragon
Knowflake Posts: 144
From: Toronto, Ontario, Canada
Registered: Sep 2012
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posted September 19, 2013 10:04 PM
You still work together? Shouldn't you have moved to another work place by now?IP: Logged |
Lioness
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posted September 19, 2013 10:08 PM
quote:
Originally posted by SDragon:
You still work together? Shouldn't you have moved to another work place by now?
I've been with the company 18 years...
Plus i can't leave my boss.. I'm loyal.. What can I say. He's been moved to another building, so I rarely see him..
I can easily avoid him at work..
It's other things, the phone calls.. Just idk...
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Lioness
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posted September 19, 2013 10:22 PM
I guess my main problem, is getting my head and heart to agree... It's an internal struggle. I'm fighting with myself here. IP: Logged |
SDragon
Knowflake Posts: 144
From: Toronto, Ontario, Canada
Registered: Sep 2012
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posted September 19, 2013 10:32 PM
You had a moon-Pluto connection too right?The girl I'm hoping chooses me has this too but ya, I think there's a conflict between her head and heart too. Lots of fear on her side but I'm hanging on. IP: Logged |
Lioness
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posted September 19, 2013 10:55 PM
Yes we have moon/Pluto.. Idk.. I just don't want to continue this in my head.. I think moon/Pluto funks with your head to much... IP: Logged |
SDragon
Knowflake Posts: 144
From: Toronto, Ontario, Canada
Registered: Sep 2012
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posted September 20, 2013 07:57 AM
Let it go. We only feed the thoughts that will create the emotional states that we get accustomed to. I know you don't think you want this but you are feeding it energy every time you let it play in your head. As Eckhart Tolle says, we are not the thinker. When you can see the thought and see yourself beyond the thought, it will start to lose its hold on you. Love, bliss, and peace arise beyond the thinker, beyond ego. With loving energy. IP: Logged |
CatMote
Knowflake Posts: 443
From: New Britain, CT, United States
Registered: Apr 2013
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posted September 20, 2013 10:22 AM
what does your heart say? ------------------
Sun Aries Moon Pisces
Mars Pisces Venus Pisces
Mercury Aries Jupiter in Virgo
Saturn in Aquarius Pluto in Scorpio
Neptune and Uranus in Capricorn
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sugarflapjacks
Knowflake Posts: 52
From: southeasternseaboard
Registered: Sep 2013
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posted September 20, 2013 02:20 PM
I think that if you don't let this go, you will become angry. Those bad feelings and negative vibes have a tendency to do that. IP: Logged |
Mystic Melody
Moderator Posts: 578
From: IL
Registered: Dec 2010
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posted September 20, 2013 06:53 PM
If you REALLY want to end it... the current astro weather supports endings. I would give it to God/The Universe/Higher Power. Just surrender it and ask it be used for the greatest good for all.IP: Logged |
Lioness
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Registered: Mar 2010
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posted September 21, 2013 12:05 AM
My heart says keep trying... Maybe just maybe.. Logic tells me, I'm an idiot!! I pull away, completely then after 2 weeks, he keeps coming back...
Yeah I know I let him, cuz well my heart wants to... I haven't been able to stay firm with it, it's driving me crazy... Yesterday I told him, we can't make this work, why do we keep doing this, it's no benefit to either of us...
He won't let me finish,
He cuts me off saying he has to go, ( he doesn't want to hear me end it)
Then 2 weeks later he calls me, and makes up...
I want to stop feeling...
If I can stop feeling, then I wouldn't let him back... Sighhhhh I feel so tortured IP: Logged |
sugarflapjacks
Knowflake Posts: 52
From: southeasternseaboard
Registered: Sep 2013
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posted September 21, 2013 01:50 AM
@Lioness, I don't know your story, so it's hard for me understand why you are having trouble ending something that is making you feel bad. It sounds to me that you love this man? Does he love you back? Is this where the struggle is? I don't know the moon/pluto relationship comparison you are talking about. could you explain this? Is this like a soul tie? Or if you don't want to go into it because most people on this site know your story, ok. I'm new and just need more details.
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CatMote
Knowflake Posts: 443
From: New Britain, CT, United States
Registered: Apr 2013
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posted September 21, 2013 07:25 AM
why cant you make it work? whats the reason your head is telling you no? ------------------
Sun Aries Moon Pisces
Mars Pisces Venus Pisces
Mercury Aries Jupiter in Virgo
Saturn in Aquarius Pluto in Scorpio
Neptune and Uranus in Capricorn
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Lioness
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posted September 21, 2013 11:20 AM
It's a vey long story, so I will give a brief summary. It's been on and off for 2/3 years...
We work together, I'm a manager and he isn't. So we have kept it a secret. It's very intense between us... We can't be apart for more than a couple of weeks, a month has been the longest separation. Then we make up, then 2 weeks later we swear each other off..
As for feelings, neither of us have admitted/said any feelings... It's an ego issue... Idk..
It's a never ending cycle.
@sugar
Moon/Pluto is tough...
It's very intense and cuts deep inside your soul.
But it's very very hard to deal with all those emotions.
Pluto tears down the moon, and wants transformation.
It gets to be so much at times, that it's overwhelming just to be near that person, and you need a break.. Just for self to a grip on your emotions..
But it's obsessive and very hard to let go,
We keep going back, cause of that "need" to go back and at least try again... Well that's the best way I can describe it.
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sugarflapjacks
Knowflake Posts: 52
From: southeasternseaboard
Registered: Sep 2013
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posted September 21, 2013 09:21 PM
@Lioness, thanks for the explanation. I think you will make the right decision and be alright. I remember when I was in high school my best friend's older sister was in a leo/pisces relationship. She (leo) loved him to pieces and I believe he loved her. He was like 8 years older than her (her 18, he 26). She eventually did break off the relationship and both took it kind of hard, but it was for the best. I don't know what happened to him, but she's now happily married for years.IP: Logged |
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