posted June 25, 2016 09:39 PM            

So... I never believed in soulmates, I don't even like the word, it implies things like marriage, weddings, 2.5 kids etc. because I feel like the term is used so loosely. But, I've always been an incredibly sensitive person, empathetic and hypersensitive to energies around me.

I've never needed to be committed to a person, I never needed the idea of romance or being bonded to one person although I enjoyed it. I don't get lonely either really.

However, about a year ago I was going through an intense depressive period. On top of that, my boyfriend who I was to move in with had just admitted to cheating on me, so life was kicking me while I was down so to speak. I had no sense of what I was going to do in life, no drive, no sense of purpose.

Then I met someone (you know, the usual). The first time I made eye contact with them, I was immediately intrigued, old ?memories? Flashed through my mind instantly, it was unfamiliar but also super... Comforting? I couldn't figure them out, why did I have such an intense reaction? Why did I connect to this person so quickly? I tried to study them from across the room as the days went by and to my surprise I would catch them studying me as well, however, both of us were too shy to say anything to each other.

But it made me super confused and overwhelmed in the following days, this person was on my radar and I had to know why. At first I didn't understand it, and there was this intense pressure in my chest, it felt like it opened up. Not sorrowful or happy, just a... Pressure. (Later when I saw someone who performs energy work, she told me -before I could tell her- that my heart chakra was being overreactive). Also during that session, this silly little idea popped into my head when I was in a meditative state, that I loved him. But it took me aback, though I brushed it off because sometimes my sleepy mind can say overly dramatic things. I didn't understand the gravity of the situation.

And as the months went by, my affections grew and grew from afar as we actually started to slowly warm up to each other. Quietly at first and then actually becoming very comfortable. They actually encouraged me to pursue what I wanted to do in life, helping me achieve this with an intense amount of generosity. It really helped me, I feel like they put me back on track just in time when I was about to fall off. They made me better.

They aren't exactly like me but I could feel this likeness between us, their energy when they were around me, same sort of buzzing or vibration I guess. I wanted so badly to understand this crush when it hit me, something I knew from the start, my soul recognized them. I was comfortable with them. I felt equal to them and there was/is such a weird feeling of... Them being an extension of me. I wish j could explain it and I feel stupid for trying. My soul/HS recognized them.

And so the feelings grew and grew until earlier this year I was just glancing at our synastry charts, googling the aspects out of curiosity and finding out that they indicate a twin soul connection. No idea what twin souls were before that, but the stories and experiences matched up. When it hit me, it really... Rattled me. I felt awakened, I felt like I had finally remembered something from too long ago. Like duh, of course.

And while I am attracted to them, there's also the sense like "yeah, that's me." Or "I am them" but I'm also not? I can't explain it, it's just a feeling. And it was super overwhelming for a couple weeks because I don't think that they woke up yet and me trying to come to grips with the fact that this person was important in my life was kind of hard and also very relieving.

And I'm a verbal person, not communicating with someone is uncomfortable to me, but not with them. It's strange. One day they came to help me with something, they silently came up next to me and started helping me clean up. It felt so good being next to them and we didn't even talk, and I can be a sex oriented person, so to not like feel lust when I'm around then but still want them is so... Unexpected? Obviously I'm attracted to them. But anyways. No it felt so good, I felt so comfortable, the buzz between us was so refreshing and right, I couldn't explain it, just us cleaning up next to each other smiling like idiots silently. And when they turned to leave they put their hand gently on my back then walked away.

I could feel them when they're near, read their thoughts almost, I'm hyper sensitive to them, and I know that they (quietly) connect with me too it's just I'm way more open I think. Although I know they can read me lol.

We can't be together now for other reasons and I'm at peace with that strangely because I feel like it'll happen someday (in another life even) but I can wait. But I haven't seen them in a while because they took a temporary job out of state and we can't talk much. My feelings didn't lessen but the thoughts did, I didn't think about them as much because I was busy with other things. I started dating other people but it's hard because I can't put out that energy to someone else fully yet.

And now I'm having super vivid dreams of them out of the blue, ones that feel too real, where I can smell them and actually feel them (or so it seems) and when I wake up, my chest is heavy, or full, idk which. Little coincidences keep popping up, I feel like sometimes they're thinking about me. I feel like I'm back where I was when I first woke up but they're not even around, I'm not sure what to do.

It's kind of overwhelming, this connection that wehave. I feel like it's behind closed doors because we would never be able to discuss it in person (maybe, who knows). They are my twin, we have the same goals, the same purpose, they brought me back and I help them focus on what's good in life. I've evolved so much since I met them and I don't want to get anything from them, I just wish I could give them good loving unconditionally and make them happy. I know on some level they recognize me, but I'll never really know. I do know I love them.

Like I said, I'm not sure what to do, if anything, sometimes I miss them like crazy and at others I find my patience and peace again. I don't know if I should try to reach out or what? It's just... I'm trying to listen to my gut but I'm so overwhelmed (in good and bad ways) it's hard to calm down so my HS can take over.

posted June 27, 2016 11:50 PM            

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Originally posted by Aubyanne:
Sounds like a definite 5D connexion. If this is your first, welcome to a brand new stage in your spiritual development!

Like others have said, it's best not to put too much stock in these things and simply let them play out. What's meant to, will be.

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Hi Auby,

It is the first I've ever experienced, yep! And I'm a textbook over thinker, I need to know everything, and so what's happening makes me want to investigate every single aspect. So not only is this helping me learn to trust my gut more but I'm also evolving spiritually too. ☺️ I need to work on it a little more though.

posted June 29, 2016 02:44 AM            

When it happens the first time, to where we feel a 'twin flame connexion', it's a special type of soulmate known as a catalyst, as they tend to ignite our spiritual awakening. Indeed, it's an overwhelming, powerful experience.

About five years ago, before the Earth began to be anchored in higher dimensions, there was a rash of 'twin flame connexions', because so little true information existed to help explain a 5D relationship. Now it's been a kind of weeding period, where the actual twin flames are either in Union, approaching it, or in some kind of relationship in the physical realm. The rest have been either been identified as catalysts, or an undefined 5D relationship. As time goes on, undoubtedly, we'll learn more.

I'd say the single-most defining feature of a 5D relationship is the sudden 'recall' of karmic history, often shared, in conjunction with an almost irresistible attraction.

The love is real, though, mind. It's just on a different level -- one we're not used to. The level of soul. The emotions are always intense here in the physical, even if the reality is that there's love at the energetic level.

Some catalysts are extremely painful, difficult soul connexions, while others are more like 'companion soulmates', and can be very generous and harmonious. Nonetheless, it's going to realign you with your soul's path.

Really, the best advice I can give is still the same which I myself followed. Let it go, and let it be. When we become devoted to truth, then karmic connexions begin to loosen their grip, and if we're actually mean to reunite with our twin flame in this lifeline, for a specific purpose, they tend to come around soon after we've awakened sufficiently enough to realise or recognise the connexion.

posted June 29, 2016 03:30 AM            

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Love is the most powerful signal of karma. Rather, karma uses attraction as a means to ensure that debts will be settled, one way or another.

When it happens the first time, to where we feel a 'twin flame connexion', it's a special type of soulmate known as a catalyst, as they tend to ignite our spiritual awakening. Indeed, it's an overwhelming, powerful experience.

About five years ago, before the Earth began to be anchored in higher dimensions, there was a rash of 'twin flame connexions', because so little true information existed to help explain a 5D relationship. Now it's been a kind of weeding period, where the actual twin flames are either in Union, approaching it, or in some kind of relationship in the physical realm. The rest have been either been identified as catalysts, or an undefined 5D relationship. As time goes on, undoubtedly, we'll learn more.

I'd say the single-most defining feature of a 5D relationship is the sudden 'recall' of karmic history, often shared, in conjunction with an almost irresistible attraction.

The love is real, though, mind. It's just on a different level -- one we're not used to. The level of soul. The emotions are always intense here in the physical, even if the reality is that there's love at the energetic level.

Some catalysts are extremely painful, difficult soul connexions, while others are more like 'companion soulmates', and can be very generous and harmonious. Nonetheless, it's going to realign you with your soul's path.

Really, the best advice I can give is still the same which I myself followed. Let it go, and let it be. When we become devoted to truth, then karmic connexions begin to loosen their grip, and if we're actually mean to reunite with our twin flame in this lifeline, for a specific purpose, they tend to come around soon after we've awakened sufficiently enough to realise or recognise the connexion.

Fortunately, catalysts make that MUCH more possible, by being a kind of 'twin flame relationship rehearsal'. Looking back, it's a little insane how many were utter candidates for 'being my twin flame', even as I'd not been looking. I was just awakening.

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posted June 29, 2016 01:52 PM            

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Originally posted by Aubyanne:
Love is the most powerful signal of karma. Rather, karma uses attraction as a means to ensure that debts will be settled, one way or another.

When it happens the first time, to where we feel a 'twin flame connexion', it's a special type of soulmate known as a catalyst, as they tend to ignite our spiritual awakening. Indeed, it's an overwhelming, powerful experience.

About five years ago, before the Earth began to be anchored in higher dimensions, there was a rash of 'twin flame connexions', because so little true information existed to help explain a 5D relationship. Now it's been a kind of weeding period, where the actual twin flames are either in Union, approaching it, or in some kind of relationship in the physical realm. The rest have been either been identified as catalysts, or an undefined 5D relationship. As time goes on, undoubtedly, we'll learn more.

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This makes sense! I guess the jury is still out on whether we get to be together or not, or what we have. I can't imagine wanting to be with someone more, working with In this life, maybe, even though it'd be hard given the circumstances.

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I'd say the single-most defining feature of a 5D relationship is the sudden 'recall' of karmic history, often shared, in conjunction with an almost irresistible attraction.

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Would this mean like flashes of memories? Because this happens to me, where I feel/see instances. There's also a deepset familiarity, like I remember them and it felt almost like I never left, like I can vaguely remember our past just not the details. It's like trying to pin down a fuzzy dream.

I don't know if I wrote it above, but the first time we saw each other, I froze. I was overwhelmingly attracted to them, they even stopped what they were doing to catch my stare as well. It was like those cliche moments you see in the movies, I'm not a romantic, so it caught me off guard hahaha.

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The love is real, though, mind. It's just on a different level -- one we're not used to. The level of soul. The emotions are always intense here in the physical, even if the reality is that there's love at the energetic level.[QUOTE]

I would say that's accurate, or maybe I don't know until I know, lol.

[QUOTE]Some catalysts are extremely painful, difficult soul connexions, while others are more like 'companion soulmates', and can be very generous and harmonious. Nonetheless, it's going to realign you with your soul's path.

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Definitely realigned me, or is in the process.

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Really, the best advice I can give is still the same which I myself followed. Let it go, and let it be. When we become devoted to truth, then karmic connexions begin to loosen their grip, and if we're actually mean to reunite with our twin flame in this lifeline, for a specific purpose, they tend to come around soon after we've awakened sufficiently enough to realise or recognise the connexion.

Fortunately, catalysts make that MUCH more possible, by being a kind of 'twin flame relationship rehearsal'. Looking back, it's a little insane how many were utter candidates for 'being my twin flame', even as I'd not been looking. I was just awakening.

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I gotcha, I mean I don't really *care* really if they end up being my twin or a catalyst (I know they say you're supposed to know but I just don't lol) I love them, that's the only thing I know for sure. That won't change. I feel like we do owe some sort of debt, or responsibility, to the other, something that's not painful or difficult to swallow, at least now. They're like... A partner or something.

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Originally posted by Aubyanne:
For the record, there [b]aren't any astrological twin flame aspects. Rather, we can't confirm the twin flame connexion via astrology.

I hope to slowly, potentially, remedy that with my latest research initiative, but it's just getting started, and will definitely take a while before I feel we're able to use it THAT way.[/B]

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This is something I completely agree with. I used to think astrology could help determine TFs but I've learned that's not the case. Astrology is what opened my eyes to the idea, but in reality, I felt the connection with this person long before I started reading up on nodes, aspects, twin flames, etc. it didn't change how I felt, just gave me knowledge on the subject. I'm thankful I came to this site.

The thing is though, I know and recognize my soulmates, because I believe I have a couple. Or at least people in my soul group. The connection with this person feels more than that, like I said, I don't know if they're a TF, it's what I believed at first, but I know they're more than a soulmate.