posted June 15, 2022 07:22 AM            

I've been ruminating for at least a week about sharing my recent experience. I would like to point out right at the beginning that this is only my point of view and might not apply for everyone, so please don't take it personally, I am sharing this with the purpose of "food for thought".

In a nutshell, 2012 was the year when I first read about the whole Twin Flame topic, and it was also the year when I started to deal with tarot (and later oracle card) readings.

Towards the end of 2012 I met someone, the whole thing felt fated with the instant eye contact, attraction and all the shebang... The eye contact felt really deep and intense, the time just stopped and felt like forever even though it took probably only a few seconds. Love at first sight situation with mutual feelings, but the circumstances weren't right, he was married and already had a family, etc. - typical epitome of what we would call "right person at a wrong time" at first glance. Or, even textbook description of what I've read about the Twin Flame journey... Then, he got a job opportunity elsewhere, disappeared and ghosted me, and my whole life suddenly went down the rabbit hole, my world literally stopped turning when I got news about what happened. After that, for at least 2 years I was walking around like a zombie IRL, and felt a huge empty hole in my chest (and all the other symptoms of awakening.)

The main thing is, over almost a decade now (with occassional pauses) I used to think that he had a very important role and place in my life forever because of his MAJOR impact on my life, as our encounter launched me on my awakening process and the path of healing from my traumatic childhood. I have never experienced anything more powerful than this before. Every year I experienced quite a few dreams with him (to the extent of us walking hand-in-hand, getting married and being very happy together, or even symbolic dreams pointing at a potential reconciliation), also, on a daily basis lots of synchronicities like seeing his name everywhere, number plates, etc. etc. LOADS of reminders. It felt like as if they wanted to prevent me from above from forgetting about him.

At the same time, even when I think of those initial few months we used to spend with each other back then, something did not feel quite right. Even though, I had feelings for him, but his whole presence triggered me, fear and anxiety crept in whenever I saw him, and I was near experiencing panic attack when he was in very close proximity to me. Also, he possibly did a few things which go against my core values, and which hurt me and made me jealous, major dealbreakers for me (and his lack of respect for me in general)

It happened recently, right before the Venus-Uranus conjunction last week, that I asked for clarification regarding a certain situation I perhaps wasn't ready (and/or willing) to face over this long period, but I started to lose my patience. Long story short, I had a realization about the importance of self-love and what our value is. It seems to be a major theme these days, it looks like.

I can tell that finally I am ready to walk away and leave this person behind, I love myself enough to give a proper closure, even if he wasn't willing to give it to me since the beginning. Also, I think he is not my TF at all, but rather only a passing karmic soulmate whom I should not cling into, because he certainly won't be the person giving me all the unconditional love and attention I want and need, and who would grow and evolve with me continuously.

Further analysing the situation, over these long years the whole thing felt like as if he had invisible, clingy energy tentacles over me not wanting to release me. I probably might have mistaken it for a cord which cannot ever be cut. Not to mention the dreams. Well, it recently popped up in my mind that I have a person in my life who used to be my friend, but 11+ years ago we had a major argument and since then there is bad blood (unresolved karma) between us. Every now and then she also visits me in my dreams, even though I know we don't have anything to do with each other anymore IRL. As I think about her sometimes, too, at this point I think these dreams are probably only the projections of my subconscious, and for the purpose of releasing, so nothing "prophetic" in them...

So, overall, I think there is still a possibility that Twin Flames DO exist, but it's probably a VERY RARE occurrence. And not only in my community, but also worldwide I can see that a lot of people mistake karmics and karmic soulmates for twin flames - just like me, cling into the hope that the person one day will come back. I can also see on social media that there are a whole bunch of readers building on the TF concept even whole businesses based on e.g. specific TF cards and such. Loads of TF readings on YT and on other platforms as well. But, what I find extremely rare, unfortunately, that there are only a few readers who 'promote' healthy relationships and attachment styles emphasizing the importance of self-love and letting go of false/unhealthy attachments. I even keep seeing lots of comments where various people state they've met someone weeks/months ago and the person ghosted them and they must be their twin.

I really DO think that this is probably a MAJOR lesson for the collective. As I take a look at my natal chart for example, I can see that Neptune in Pisces is still transiting my 5H. In my case I suspect this might be where my previous 'delusion' came from. Especially that it entered Pisces at the beginning of 2012 - compared to the beginning of my 'journey' it is very telling.

I also prepared my 9th Harmonic chart, which is said to be about the soul of an individual. I discovered when my person in question entered my life back in 2012, Pluto (sitting on the top of the chart and literally watching over anything else in the chart) was activated - I had my 9th Harmonic Pluto return!! I guess, this is where the major intensity and the activated fear and anxiety came from. Whenever Pluto is involved it is said to be so intense that it is not for the faint hearted, so Scorpionic. I can confirm, I had a MAJOR transformation, even from the other side of the process I still keep telling myself I kind of died and was reborn.

I also have a suspicion as it was about my 9th Harmonic soul Pluto return it does not automatically mean that the other person experienced the whole thing equally intensely. With Twin Flames I sense that the initial meeting might be an equally shattering experience for both individuals involved (please correct me if I'm wrong), at least this is how I imagine the TF journey.

In regards to my person in question, I think it is not really a coincidence that he is kept out of my life and that there are no signs of him coming back anytime soon - if ever. I think he served a purpose as a "catalyst" pushing me down the rabbit hole, having the role of doing the dirty job, but nothing else. I believe everything has a purpose and his absence definitely taught me how to be by myself living life without him. Not to mention how to love myself and that I deserve someone who has the capacity and the willingness to equally invest in me and our connection, no breadcrumbs and stuff like that, without having to validate egos from outside sources, and so on. I would like to see more of this mentality in the world which promotes healthy ways of relating to each other and compatible attachment styles instead of what I can see now - that basically lots of people tend to project TF right away on someone who is only toying with their feelings, clearly there is no sign of respect coming from them towards people in general, etc.

posted June 15, 2022 08:09 AM            

Imo the people who *obsess* over twinflames don’t know god (yet), point blank. When one meets god, twinflames (words) become redundant. call such a thing Cheese or Beepboop for that matter, would make no difference in comparison to ultimate realization (nirvana, moksha, whatever). Letting go

All relationships are karmic. Dharma or adharma is up to the individual

posted June 16, 2022 04:02 PM            

Besides my own experiences and guidance about the topic, we have the most vast with most verification psychic-intuitive source so far in the world that speaks on the reality of twin souls, and the relative importance of same. And did so during the 1920's and 30's, before the new age movement was even a glimmer in the eye.

In that work, it talks about Yeshua and his mother, Miriam being twin souls, and strongly implies that it was a combo of their twin soul connection and their individual high spiritual development that made it so she could bring him into the world in the unusual way she did.

As an aside, this earth school is roughly equivalent, currently, to like a preschool or kindergarten at best, but consciousness/spiritually speaking. Many Souls in human form are not particularly close to fully consciously remembering/realizing their Oneness with Source and the Whole. I mean in a non belief system kind of way, but a real livingness/beingness kind of way.

Hence, not all that important nor likely for them to focus especially on ultimates. The best that most souls in the earth can hope to achieve in this life is a little more focus on Universal Love here and there. Like a jot here and there.
It is unrealistic to expect graduate/professor level awareness/focus/beingness out of kindergartners.