posted November 04, 2010 10:57 PM         

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A consort is a spouse or companion, often of royalty or a deity, sometimes slightly inferior in function/status. Royal consorts are usually not in line to ascend to their respective throne

The aspect of royalty makes sense because you said she was wearing purple, which is a royal color.

I'm confused on the nature of your feelings for this girl.
OK, I'm confused in general.
You don't have to answer, but it would make it easier if you did..

posted November 06, 2010 02:17 AM         

Having those planets in your 8th would have a profound affect on you, I would imagine.
I mean that is Scorpio's house, so wouldn't you think that she brought up all kinds of 8th house-y things for you? You say you are now repulsed.
Sometimes there is a mighty thin line between love and hate, and that right there is definetly Scorpio's domain.

There are elements in the dream of her rejecting you, I'll tell you what they are when I get all my thoughts in order.

As to why you can't forget about it, well, for one this is a very extremely detailed, highly symbolic dream.
It does seem like either a past life memory or if not the actualy memory, then a kind of lucid (as you suggested) play that your higher mind or subconscious orchestrated for you to help you understand the depth in which this individual affected you.

posted November 07, 2010 02:25 PM         

Is there a chance you could still be friends? I mean she may have rejected you because she is straight and didn't want to go 'there' but if you asked her to be friends would she??

And to think you need someone else in order to let this person go, isn't really productive for you.
You have to love youself to draw love into your life.
How can you draw love into your life if you are hung up on this one? See what I mean?

And yes, you surely can be tied by cords, and it can be painful for both people, especially if the r/ship isn't going to go anywhere.
Please read this link... http://www.linda-goodman.com/ubb/Forum10/HTML/003820.html

And if you are interested in finding someone.. here is another good one..
http://www.linda-goodman.com/ubb/Forum10/HTML/003075.html

Actually, there are a whole lot of helpful topics in the back threads of the Soul Unions forum, that might help you to move on.

I also wanted to say, that if this dream/vision was a past life memory, sometimes the person will apprear as they look now (you said you were both in dresses) only because your brain may not recognize the other 'yous' from before, so to make the appropriate connection, it shows you the 'yous' that you are familiar with.

Another thing you mentioned was how can you be soul mates if she is straight. Well, there are conflicting thoughts on this...
Some people believe that their soul mate is their sister, child, mother, dog.. yes, I'm serious!
Other people believe we have certain people who come from the same 'soul group' and we are destined to find and meet up with them in this life to either complete karma or achieve a specific joint goal. Or to just enjoy having someone so familiar and special around.

You say you went toward her, and 'lifted her up', ok, maybe you are supposed to (or have) done something for her that literally lifted her spirits, or raised her awareness on some level (in this life, now) just because you may not be aware of it, doesn't mean it didn't happen. People often don't tell others what they have done for them.

But when you talk of the sex, you say, 'We may have wrestled'. OK, do you feel that she was attracted to you AT ALL and she perhaps wrestled with that, and maybe it scared her and she then pushed you away??

You say your hearts were connected by barbed wire. Barbed wire cannot be touched without pain, or injury.
Something to ponder.

I'll have to think longer on the coins.

posted November 07, 2010 11:54 PM         

Anyway, Uranus, I am glad you added to your story.
Somethings were a bit confusing, but I understand not wanting to talk about them.

And, I have a brother who is schizophrenic.
It was a long road to hell to get his diagnosis.
It started in childhood, but wasn't discovered really until late 20's.

He is currently homeless in San Fransisco.
Because he refuses to see that he is ill, and also because he won't take any sort of meds.
This has been the biggest heartache of my life, because we were as close as twins.

So, I can totally empathize with you, and I commend you for taking your meds.
I know the side effects can be unpleasant.
My brother was a musical prodigy as a child, and played in many bands, made many cd's etc.. as he got older.
He says the meds kill his creativity.
So he won't take them.

It's very hard, and now I understand completely the situation with the girl.
I'm so sorry it went down that way, but you know that it isn't your fault, I hope.

posted November 08, 2010 04:47 PM         

I understand about the creativity thing too. I took anti-depressants for awhile and I couldn't write or paint or anything, I just didn't have the drive for it.

It was explained to me (about my brother) that eventually the meds will 'level off' and you will return somewhat to whatever you were before, regarding creativity, but he never went far enough to discover that for himself.

He would get admitted to the hospital for the 72 hour observation, and then start feeling better after a day or two and check out without filling his prescription.

The last I heard was that he was staying in some shelters and playing a mandolin on the streets for tips.
He's tried a number of jobs, and he's a very concentious worker (Virgo Sun & rising) but he would say such strange things, that it would scare people and eventually he would be fired.

I wish people had more education and less bias about mental illness. *sigh*
Thank you for the prayers. His name is Matthew.

As far as your dream and your friend.
Well, it does seem like she was very significant to you in this life and possibly another.
But the fact remains is that you can't possibly ever know for sure her motivations, or reservations or whatever you want to call them, unless she tells you herself. The rest would just be speculative on your part.

So, to me, it's either try and contact her once more for clafication, or really try to let her go.
I know it's hard, but what else can you really do?
Sometimes part of loving is letting go, especially if your journeys are not on the same path.
Perhaps you could meditate on what you learned from her, or what she may have learned from you, and then you might see the significance of your time together.
I don't know what else you could do.

P.S. There is no chat function here, I just meant that you can talk to me, as in leave a post and I will make it a point to get back to you as quick as possible.
My email is available as well.