posted December 17, 2013 05:37 PM            

I'm not sure whether this 'demon' was a thought form or an actual demon type of spirity thing. I think it was a type of demon though psychologically it mirrors a facet of your own psyche - kind of like attracting like - so there is some substance to the idea of 'battling your demons'.

To clarify, you have given form to something within your own identity and it seems to me that this has attracted on a metaphysical level, a type of spirit - but I don't think it can harm you as it is sort of your own psychology that is dealing with the aspect of yourself.

I don't understand the complexitites of these deeper psychological and metaphysyical planes. I think if we look to the eastern traditions there is probably some stuff to explain these demon battles in terms of the journey to our own individuation etc.

I know there are external spirit things that aren't ghosts. Recently, I moved to a new location that has a lot of nearby natural australian 'bush' which is like eucalypt gums etc. I dreamt I was in the shower and an old woman was trying to inhabit me, there was a bit of like battling around where I chiefly felt kind of squashed etc, and then I was conscious of another entity thing that scared the hell out of me.

By this time I had gone into like awareness that I was in the dream state but could think about what was going on. The newer personality that sort of got up in my grill, seemed like a clown.

He said he was a 'groen held', when I questioned it, he said he was a 'poeren bass'. Then I questioned it further and I had the idea of 'fief' come to mind. I googled the meanings of them and I don't think I ever found out what 'poeren' was but it is a dutch surname so it probably means something. I think the words were dutch. And am not sure about the origin of 'fief' but its either my closest recognisable substitute for the other meanings or it was offered up by the 'person' - because fief could possibly have 'frankish' or 'germanic' origins too.

Anyhow, what I derived from the meanings was that he was like a boss of the land - so I think he is like some kind of nature spirit or spirit that presides over an area of land.

I felt freaked out by him and he conveyed he does have the power to make people sick or he can cause dramas/accidents with people - so I'm not sure what his jurisdiction is metaphysically.

Anyway I haven't seen him since - although, nearly a month ago, which was about a month after I moved here. I became the sickest I have ever been in my life. I had a virus that hung around with temperatures, headache and nausea - first week was absolutely awful, with vomiting as well, second week still had low grade temps and general malaise, and the third week I still had some symptoms, even now I get very tired still. During that time, it seemed like a whole lot of plans that I had just sort of frizzled up and I felt ill if I thought of continuing with them. The plans involved moving away from the area. Now I feel all i can do is stay here - there were so many coincidences that made it impossible to carry out my previous plans.

As to why he has given me dutch names I can't really get to the bottom of it. But there was something about a small boy whose family were dutch and camping near a creek, and the boy was bitten by something and got very sick. He gave the time span and I looked it up and it seemed gold had been found here and that is why the family had come here. It was just before the railway came to the area and it was in the mid 1800s.

So what I am saying, sorry, I hijacked the thread, however, I have a point. There are spirit things out there that can do what is perceived as harm - however, maybe they are still part of a scheme of natural laws etc. I don't think I am possessed, however, I do think I have been made aware of some kind of relationship with the land and a presiding type of entity over the place. Of course it sounds absolutely ridiculous and I can hardly believe it - though given the dutch words and the whole story that unfolded, I feel I have to give it some credit.

posted December 17, 2013 10:49 PM            

I spelt one of the words incorrectly when I read it back and it is 'baas' not bass, because I think I was remembering its meaning which is boss.

posted December 19, 2013 04:29 AM            

You said you had the feeling "I had possibly tainted my soul somehow and had to pay the price", so this dream is probably about fighting your own "demons". It sounds like this is a "demon" you have every intention to defeat. So, is there a habit, thought, situation, issue, or aspect of yourself that you are fighting with? Or maybe need to?

Sometimes these types of dreams can be compensatory, reflecting an opposite waking life issue. If this is so, are feeling overwhelmed, powerless, or vulnerable to one of your "demons"?

What do you think?