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ilunatique
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posted March 14, 2020 09:23 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for ilunatique     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
I feel really compelled to talk about this dream because 1. I never really dreamt my dad... (But if i did, the symbols were simple to understand and prophetic) ex: peeking over to me, having intercourse with me (dreamt these before we got closer [intercourse metaphor] and when he started to think about what im doing secretly [peeking over metaphor] etc.)

2. I want to understand and i want to interpret what happened


I was in a big dark home, it felt like it was mine. No lights in the room, i was laying down on a double bed, looking at the ceiling : in the ceiling there was a smaller bed (1 person) stuck and i could see its undersides.
Dad was around the room and i asked him to please bring down the one person bed stuck in the ceiling because i was afraid it would fall on me and so that i could put it down around the house. He immediately responded and wanted to help me, thus trying to get higher so he could pull down the bed with his own hands. I got up from the two bed because if he pulled the small one down, it would fall on the bigger one. Ok, he keeps on pulling down the under part of the bed (there was wood material). He really tried a lot... he was exhausted and finally he only broke the under part of the bed. Bits of wood fell but the bed remained stuck in the ceiling.
Now dad wants me me to move over and he pulls out a gun and a small keyhole. He tells me to close my eyes for 3 seconds and at 3 he shot the keyhole and the bed fell from the ceiling. I felt him angry and irritated about the situation, but mostly ME. I could see it in his eyes. But it was a few moments until he tells me to close my eyes again, i did and at 3 he shot me. I opened my eyes and i was shocked, not scared,..... and all i could feel was the life pouring out of me, i was looking at my chest and blood was dripping out of me a lot. I was all red. I fell down and when i hit the ground i woke up..


Now, yes, symbolically dad is responsible for my current confort -paying so i could study and live (bed). Dad always assures i have all the confort i need in the present time. But in the dream he was forcing himself to give me confort? (pulling down bed), not being able resorts to breaking (....) (shooting the key hole), and why killing me?....

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ilunatique
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posted March 14, 2020 08:13 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for ilunatique     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Yeah. Kind of prophetic. Like always.

Weirdly enough he called me this night. He never calls me, i always do it.

Long story short he puts pressure on me to give him a decision until sunday morning about what im going to do. Because our country is going to be in a state of emergency starting this monday because of covid-19. And im all alone in my uni city far away from my home/"comfort".


Im still alone in my uni city because of an amazing internship im at right now. Its for three months and i just started it last week. If it had not been for this internship, I would be home "comfortable" since a week ago.

Im really angry, frustrated and sad about all of this **** because there's a lot of question marks and no answers.


I dont know if the activity from my internship will be suspended (our work cant be done from home; it involves a lot of GDPR, confidential data and contracts already signed with big companies that set up deadlines with us for some crucial projects),
if the activity is not suspended i dont know for what date i should renegotiate the internship program for, i dont know how i will be able to leave in the following 24 hours unprepared (if the transportation is banned from monday i will remain alone), i dont know where is safer to go - mom or dad, i dont know when things will get better because my country is horrible and the situation is worse because of italians running and hiding in our country to escape etc.

So sad. My comfort zone is wrecked.

Edit: Everything i wanted and considered very good for me (remaining alone to go to the internship) is suspended right now (literally, like the bed).;;; just saw that word connection
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Ayelet
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posted March 15, 2020 12:00 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Ayelet     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Hello ilunatique,
These are not easy times, and I hope a cure is found soon. If you don't manage to get to one of your parents, are you completely alone, or do you have some connections? I don't know what is the state of transportation right now where you are. I hope you could leave to stay with your family. Please update.

The double bed in contrast with the single bed could reflect on your love life, or absence of this. It could also point to a period in which you wish to make it on your own. It seems your dad helps you with this, but maybe his help makes you feel dependent in a way, so you feel he's "killing" your independence. Or it could be your independence makes you experience a death: You, who are connected to your father and dependent upon him, are dying, while a new, independent you is being born.
The ambivalence experienced in the dream could mean that you're both helped by your dad and hindered by him: He helps you to be self-sufficient, while preventing you from relying exclusively on yourself. It could be you feel at this time both the close connection with your dad and the need to assert yourself as a grown-up.

Please stay connected, and tell how you're doing.

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ilunatique
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posted May 26, 2020 06:33 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for ilunatique     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Hi ayelet

Thank you so much for your message. Im way better now.
Money has been tough anyway, and i lost the confort of my uni apartment.

By helping me - > kills my independence. Its a very interesting point, because yes.. I always felt a pressure and passive control over me. The day after the dream he also said that maybe in the weekends i could visit him from my mom... But his city became the most infected area and it was lockdown for a month there. So no visits.

"He helps you to be self-sufficient, while preventing you from relying exclusively on yourself. It could be you feel at this time both the close connection with your dad and the need to assert yourself as a grown-up."

Its incredible how you saw this dynamic, because i have it with him and i have no idea how you could pinpoint this from my dream.!
I was so disturbed after the dream, i still am a bit thinking about it- because it was very strong and graphic.. The shot.

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Ayelet
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posted May 27, 2020 06:10 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for Ayelet     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Hi ilunatique, I'm happy to hear you're better and came out of this period well enough. Thank you for sharing your dreams, it's an incredible additional reality we share. I saw you posted another dream, and I will give my feedback soon.

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posted July 06, 2020 11:54 AM     Click Here to See the Profile for Randall     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Glad things have improved for you.

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