posted July 18, 2017 09:43 AM            

I know part of your story, MA. Abuse sucks... and sucks. The hole and the pit it leaves in a person can feel as though you have been ruined for the rest of your life. It's hard to trust. So hard to 'receive' when someone comes into your life finally. It's as though 'they' have to pour through all that pain you have inside.

I hope for you to HAVE the kind of Patient Love that you will need to receive, for your Recovery.

You Are Loved, MA. You Deserve to open yourself up, and Heal, with the "right" kind of Love in your life.

I know and realize that there are folks out there who say a person isn't 'worthy enough' for love if they don't love themselves first. ... People who say that do not realize the sordid pain that a child goes through who had been abused.

It's as though you CAN love yourself, yet, there's always that leftover strange black 'chilling' reminder that you feel so inadequate when someone comes into your life and declares love to you, then just leaves.

Sometimes that other person is NOT the right person for you... and it's good they left because it could have perpetuated the cycle of abuse.

I understand loss, deeply.
I REALLY PRAY that you WILL Accept Yourself, AS you are... And KNOW that YOU are Enough to be LOVED.

AS much as you can.... Draw upon the Positive. Maybe that person really "didn't" leave you-- but, you, in your pit, thought they did?

awwwwww... Sending you Softness, and Etheric Support.

Wishing you the kind of Love that doesn't hurt like hell.

(music) Hurts Like Hell (Fleurie) [3:54] http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Uil0L-0F4no

lyrics

How can I say this without breaking
How can I say this without taking over
How can I put it down into words
When it's almost too much for my soul alone

I loved and I loved and I lost you
I loved and I loved and I lost you
I loved and I loved and I lost you
And it hurts like hell
Yeah it hurts like hell

I don't want them to know the secrets
I don't want them to know the way I loved you
I don't think they'd understand it, no
I don't think they would accept me, no

I loved and I loved and I lost you
I loved and I loved and I lost you
I loved and I loved and I lost you
And it hurts like hell
Yeah it hurts like hell

Dreams fight with machines
Inside my head like adversaries
Come wrestle me free
Clean from the war

Your heart fits like a key
Into the lock on the wall
I turn it over, I turn it over
But I can't escape
I turn it over, I turn it over

I loved and I loved and I lost you
I loved and I loved and I lost you
I loved and I loved and I lost you
And it hurts like hell

posted July 19, 2017 11:55 AM            

Abuse... is one of the meanest things that can come and broadside you early in life, even knocking you off the destiny-tracks you could have had in this life--- because you can lose the sense of who or what self(*) is.

And the 'help' system is overwhelmed with the number of victims that step forward. They generally were NOT believed, when it counted most. I think counselors are inadequately prepared to help some to deal with the aftermaths of pain like that.

Abuse... has been a silent epidemic. And it seems that some born in tight groups of years are more prone to have trouble recovering.

Abuse... destroys a person's ego. I know there are trends where others go to ego-busting programs on purpose? Nobody can get there 'faster' than someone who was 'destroyed' already years and years ago.

These people NEED a sense of ego, and to cultivate a Right one?

That way... when love DOES come around, the soil of their soul and personality, with fallow grounds loosened, will be able to 'receive' the Blessings that nourish life and abundance.

So in way.... congratulate yourself, that you didn't turn into a numb-statue, with an inability to 'feel'.

Feeling 'hurt' means-- you are Alive, and there is STILL something VERY wonderful inside you.

Grow. Then, ... Share.
That's what our Poet's do. ..... {{{{hug}}}}

We will weep together.

And through this, reap harvests, riches and the Wealth behind what it means to be Truly-Human, truly sentient, together.

This brings healing to Others.