posted November 19, 2017 11:17 PM            

And I have no control
And I have no control
And I have no control
And I have no control

Feels like I’m running away
From the good grace of love
I pretend the blues is my code
To keep myself alive
And I escape into the void
To live my misery
And I escape into the void
To live my misery

And I have no control
And I have no control
And I have no control
And I have no control

I curse this life of mine
But this road is just for me
I can’t take you darling
This road is mine and mine only

Feels like I’m running away
From the place I call home
I’m like my father baby
Just like a rolling stone
And I know I’m a fool
To make this a game
And I know I’m a fool
To make this a game

posted November 20, 2017 05:14 PM            

I saw your girlfriend's chart you posted under our conversations from the other day in the YW Birthday thread.

You BOTH have Pluto-Sun SCORPIOS. WOW! Her in H12, you in H8.

She is HAVING her Mars Libra RETURN 'this week'... by midweek will peak, then start to diminish.

Mars was squaring Pluto yesterday (and last weekend).

MARS RETURNs are a great and important time to observe how your partner is, and, how YOU feel and what you do in response to it, during a courtship-type relationship.

If you are having so much sabotage, then think....

Maybe your subconscious is needing to SLOW DOWN the 'committing' part of this relationship?

Look at what's happening with you.
Ask yourself 'what' that is all about.

Do an INSIDE conversation, like you are interviewing your own self. Ask... Self? What are you trying to tell me?

Also ... Scorpio is soooooo deep.
If you are going DOWN DEEP inside, REMEMBER to 'come up for air'! The transits have been REALLY Heavy with Water in your chart.

Neptune is stationing to go DIRECT (as well as Chiron) in your H12. Will go direct on 11/22. Chiron 12/5 ....

Hold off on TOO much HEAVY self-medicating with the alcohol, and any et ceteras. Neptune can be VERY slippery as far as judging how much/how far when it's holding still like that.

You might be feeling a little under the weather, anyway too??
{{Hope the doc says you'll be okay, and it's not serious news.)}}

I've heard astrologers say that it IS preferable to have observed 'how' your partner is during a MARS RETURN, before you go into something like a "marriage."
(Mars moves through the entire zodiac every ~2 years.)

YOURS is next.

You yourself will be having YOUR Mars return once Mars moves into Scorpio and is about half-way through.

(Read the info I gave you for dates, in your Birthday thread.)

REF

Also, please see your other poem reply, for "Pit"
http://www.linda-goodman.com/ubb/Forum17/HTML/003409.html

There's a REF for something I wrote there about Johnny Cash.
(You and he have some chart-features in common.)

Take Good Care... and it's GOOD to Write!

ALSO... Go for walks in Nature... Chill... 'Be' with yourself.

Take a break and go do something FUN and Light.

posted November 20, 2017 06:59 PM            

The good ol' Johnny Cash, one of the greatest, he lived quite a hard life, of drugs, alcohol, abuse, etc, it was thanks to the help of her wife that he survived, albeit with lots of highs and lows, and after the passing of his wife, he managed to make a song from another his, in a way that very few could do with Hurt, a majestic representation of past regrets.

I've seen his chart, and I'm not sure what we have in common, except that we both have lots of water in our charts. I'd like to know please.

And with our scorpio woman, I'll add some more things to this story...

For most of the time, I was the pursuer, I tried to call her, to text her to do things together, we did hang out some times, but nothing much happened, but as I invited her to my shows, she never appeared, even if she told me that she would go... it was very slippery her behaviour, and it ****** me off, but I didn't do anything thanks to our common friend, and I just calm down and kept going with our friendship.

As soon as november started is when things started to get more slippery, as she moved out with a group of friends to a place very close to my home, and we started to hang out more and more, and we were starting to get closer, the people around us were starting to think we were like a couple sometimes.

It was just a couple of weeks ago, that we were having a conversation of our dreams and all of that stuff that in the middle of that I said to her, that I was no interested in anybody right now, and that lie is what caused the self-sabotage mode, it was an unconscious response and that triggered it all, and even more as a female friend has said to me that something that made me realize that she was starting to liking me after all these months and I was shocked, that I stormed out of the place we've been.

And she went to my birthday even with the spare time she had before she had to go to her dad's birthday(the next day after mine), and last Saturday is where I got an anxiety attack after seeing her that made me almost throw up, and leave the place again, even if she wanted me to stay and to be close to me as I was pretty too far gone. But i left, I couldn't handle it.

That's the big question I have, why the sabotage?, why is it happening after all I've been through this year, it sucks, why after finally making her liking me I just **** it up?

And, this is our composite with the transit as of the 20th

Very scorpionic, so, it affects both of us in a certain way...

I haven't felt like this for a woman in a long time, and I feel we could see the light at the end of the tunnel, but I have to make it work, and stop the sabotage, it's time to really change the way I deal with relationships, I'm a grown up, I want to be happy, I want to be able to make someone happy, I think I have what it takes to do that.

Damn, this month is quite heavy.

posted November 21, 2017 01:54 PM            

This particuliar piece, really shows your personal state of mind LF.. the turmoil of feeling out of control, yet the beauty that coincides there as well.

posted March 10, 2018 11:21 AM            

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Originally posted by Pearlty:

Great insightful astrolological points above

This particuliar piece, really shows your personal state of mind LF.. the turmoil of feeling out of control, yet the beauty that coincides there as well.

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posted April 04, 2018 08:46 AM            

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Originally posted by LF DX:
I'll respond you here with everything.

The good ol' Johnny Cash, one of the greatest, he lived quite a hard life, of drugs, alcohol, abuse, etc, it was thanks to the help of her wife that he survived, albeit with lots of highs and lows, and after the passing of his wife, he managed to make a song from another his, in a way that very few could do with Hurt, a majestic representation of past regrets.

I've seen his chart, and I'm not sure what we have in common, except that we both have lots of water in our charts. I'd like to know please.

And with our scorpio woman, I'll add some more things to this story...

For most of the time, I was the pursuer, I tried to call her, to text her to do things together, we did hang out some times, but nothing much happened, but as I invited her to my shows, she never appeared, even if she told me that she would go... it was very slippery her behaviour, and it ****** me off, but I didn't do anything thanks to our common friend, and I just calm down and kept going with our friendship.

As soon as november started is when things started to get more slippery, as she moved out with a group of friends to a place very close to my home, and we started to hang out more and more, and we were starting to get closer, the people around us were starting to think we were like a couple sometimes.

It was just a couple of weeks ago, that we were having a conversation of our dreams and all of that stuff that in the middle of that I said to her, that I was no interested in anybody right now, and that lie is what caused the self-sabotage mode, it was an unconscious response and that triggered it all, and even more as a female friend has said to me that something that made me realize that she was starting to liking me after all these months and I was shocked, that I stormed out of the place we've been.

And she went to my birthday even with the spare time she had before she had to go to her dad's birthday(the next day after mine), and last Saturday is where I got an anxiety attack after seeing her that made me almost throw up, and leave the place again, even if she wanted me to stay and to be close to me as I was pretty too far gone. But i left, I couldn't handle it.

That's the big question I have, why the sabotage?, why is it happening after all I've been through this year, it sucks, why after finally making her liking me I just **** it up?

And, this is our composite with the transit as of the 20th

Very scorpionic, so, it affects both of us in a certain way...

I haven't felt like this for a woman in a long time, and I feel we could see the light at the end of the tunnel, but I have to make it work, and stop the sabotage, it's time to really change the way I deal with relationships, I'm a grown up, I want to be happy, I want to be able to make someone happy, I think I have what it takes to do that.

Damn, this month is quite heavy.

Thank you for listening Mirage, I needed that.

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posted May 27, 2018 03:28 PM            

(I think I addressed things he said here, in a combined-response, in a different thread.)

Happy First-Saturn-Return Season, LF.

posted May 28, 2018 01:40 PM            

I have saturn in aquarius, it's still a bit far from feeling it, or that's just me I guess

When exactly is coming?

posted May 28, 2018 03:38 PM            

Yes, you have Saturn 1+ in Aquarius.

March 2020 .. Saturn will finish Capricorn. You may feel the nuances before then. Enters 0+ Aquarius March 22 UT/GMT.

THAT's when you (and the World) will know the "flavor" of Saturn's effects.

Enters 1+ the week of April 5th, 2020.
Will go retrograde and back into Capricorn, then come back into Aquarius (with Jupiter!) mid-December 2020 and Christmas week/ NewYear 2021 you'll have the 2nd pass of your 1st Saturn Return.

(The subsequent passes of Saturn after it retrogrades and comes back is 'easier' .. as easy goes? haha -- just kidding!)

Hey! Remember that PlanetWaves website podcast place I had steered you towards for concert before??

They are having Bob Dylan music and discussion now!
www.planetwaves.fm
"Sagittarius Full Moon and Bob Dylan Birthday Tribute"
(5/27/2018 podcast)

It's his birthday.