posted February 26, 2004 01:50 PM         

I'm so confused. I'm in trouble.

There are these two people- A and B. I dare share my intimate secrets here because I trust that they will never log on to this website. A was spiritually unenlightened and B doesn't give a d**n about Linda. And also, they are driving me mad. I must talk about this to someone.

Oddly, both of their lexigrams reveal that they are liars. Indeed. A lied a BIG time. He ripped my heart out, stole my soul and tore it up into fine pieces. He was not conventional Scales, for he has a Capricorn ascendent and heavy tenth house influences. He was a downright materialist. One good thing about him was that, he was not promiscuous.

B is a Fish who seems swimming down the stream. He always conceals things from me, which leaves me so frustrated. He's an escapist, a spiritualist and he is the one who recommended me to read the 'Conversations with God' trilogy. But he's promiscuous.

Their lexigrams even reveal their mortality (A's being 'I die old' and B's being 'I die early in I***a), which causes me to worry about B a great deal. According to his lexigrams, it is going to happen where he's heading towards next. Exactly the place. All I can do is pray for him every day.

B always makes me feel like floating. A made me crash and burn. I solemnly believe in reincarnation because of A. One Sunday afternoon, when I looked into his eyes and he looked into mine, I suddenly recognised them...I had met him before. I knew so. We could read each other's mind without saying a word. We were in such PERFECT harmony...

A changed my life forever. He was my only love, and may always shall be. But B also changed my life for better a great deal. Ironically, I met both of them at the same place...and they absolutely hated each other.

It's been almost two years since A and I parted, but the flame still burns, and it still hurts. Sometimes I wonder if he is just my affliction, my illusion...but I knew I'd found my Twin Self...and I have a hunch that one day we shall meet again...not because I look forward to it. I doubt if we can ever reconcile.

Their lexigrams tell it all. A possesses wisdom, but he uses it lowly. B is attractive but he has got some issues...

So that was my pathetic long story. I think I need some good advice...let me know what you think...I'm helpless.

posted February 26, 2004 09:54 PM         

I'll try...it is painful...but I'll try...