posted November 08, 2013 06:05 PM
You jumped in, Ceri, before I could call for you. My thoughts exactly, actually. This is why it's confusing. However!
I've had - not one, not two - but THREE! - synchronicitous events today relating specifically to the Jungian shadow. So THAT's gotta be a part of it. Even I can't discount three in a day!
But WHICH?
And which is the most viable Priapus?
Now, I will say I've found my mean (what I call 'drop down Lilith as it's in the Astrodienst drop down menu) to be frighteningly spot on.
And ... if I'm going to be honest with myself - brutally - I'd have to say their available Priapus - h22 - is as well.
But is that the whole story?
I was intrigued by your delineated differences of the three different calculated points. I can't recall it quite, but I think one was more 'raw and uncivilised' than the other. I think that's true - except what does that make Mean BML and Priapus? Wild, but manageable energies?
They still feel very Jungian shadow-oriented to me. But how exactly, I can't say.
What do you think is going on, for example, with a woman's Priapus and a man's BML in such terms? Is the woman expressing her animus? The man his anima?
Logic would dictate that the Black Moon is the darker and more raw feminine sexuality, while Priapus is the equally unbridled, wilder male sexuality.
But then how does that work? How would a man express his feminine sexuality? Would he? Or would he seek it? How would a woman express her masculine sexuality? Would she simply seek it outside of herself? That would seem contradictory to Jung's principle - which I feel is intimately tied here ... somewhere.
I can certainly say that, in my experience, it seemed that he was harnessing his Black Moon quite eagerly - after a point. There was nothing feminine about it! It was forcefully dominant, a bit demanding, and absolutely instinctive. No thinking needed - nor attempted!
Conversely, what I felt was an all feminine vibe. Liberated? Definitely. But very yielding, (which is VERY unusual for me!) and just as unrestrained and powerfully 'raw'. I just let him take point, but I was in no way passive. An active participant fully engaged in this incredibly instinctual, psychologically, emotionally, and physically intense experience we were co-creating by the second - with zero calculation, planning, or even review. It was just ... HAPPENING.
I'll admit, it took us both a good almost 2 weeks of REALLY grokking the experience. We were both very, ' ... did that ... happen?' We both KNOW it did; but it was like ... being possessed! Crossing over from the familiar and civilised into the oh-so-very carnal, animalistic. All politeness and propriety (our typical ways of being) right defenestrated.
So, I'm very confused just how it all works. My True BML is in Scorpio along with his, I think, Mean, Priapus - as I've only seen h22 calculated.
But this felt distinctly Aries. And that would jive with the exact conjunction of his Mean BML and my h22 Priapus.
Helps that it's on his Moon, and opposite his Mars, conjunct my Sun-Pluto (and Mean BML).
I'm sure that 'helped'.