posted July 14, 2018 12:58 PM            

It's just absolute chaos.

What are some good indicators of this as far as transits go?

(as a side note, I would like to make an affirmation that whatever transit this is that's affecting me, I will prevail over it. I've faced extreme adversity from mental health mos tof my life and I have remained resolute in spite of everything so it can go F itself. I've actually been losing my mind lately, yelling out loud at the universe that I will prevail and it cannot beat me and even if I fall down I will always get back up ALWAYS)

posted July 14, 2018 01:05 PM            

Pluto/Uranus are to be looked at for "chaos". Whilst Neptune for being overwhelmed and reaching burnout.

Where is your Jupiter(convictions)? Or even Saturn(stability)?

posted July 14, 2018 01:51 PM            

The New Moon on Thursday July 12, 2018 at 20° Cancer is a partial solar eclipse. The Solar Eclipse July 2018 astrology is influenced by a powerful opposition to minor planet Pluto. This indicates some sort of crisis with your self-esteem, a relationship or an event. An equally intense fixed star brings the potential for neurotic distress triggered by a deeply buried subconscious fear of disaster.

The July 2018 Solar Eclipse signals the right time to transform something in your life holding you back from happiness and success. A fortunate Grand Trine configuration allows you to apply this transformation to your love life, finances or creative work. Hard work and determination will unleash the potential and opportunity held within the grand trine to help avert a personal crisis.

A new moon influence lasts for four weeks but a solar eclipse usually lasts about six months. However, there are two solar eclipses in this eclipse series. The following solar eclipse on August 11 will supersede the July 12 solar eclipse.

Sun opposite Pluto indicates some sort of crisis with your self-esteem, a relationship or an event. This may be due to a self-destructive character trait such as addiction, spying or stubbornness. In relationships, you may be the subject of, or the perpetrator of, manipulation, jealousy, domination or spying. Events may include the breakdown of an appliance or car, theft, violence, or the destruction of a possession by people of a natural disaster. Things like this will more likely to happen if you have been stubbornly resisting change, or have engaged in some habit that is destructive to yourself or others.

Things like this will seem to happen out of your control. In a way they help you to realize that you don’t need to have total control over others or your environment. Even though you may experience a bruised ego from the solar eclipse, there is also great potential for positives if you are open to change. Change may be forced upon you, or better still, you may instigate it and this solar eclipse will be less disruptive.

A solar eclipse opposite Pluto urges you to transform for the better. To evolve your soul so that you may live a better life and experience more satisfaction. It is most common that this would occur through a close relationship, such as a family member, close friend or partner. The opposition to Pluto is under one degree orb so is a very powerful influence on the solar eclipse. This adds to the intensity of Castor and it subconscious fear of disaster.

Pluto is Retrograde

Pluto retrograde represents is a time of reflection about power and control in your life. If people have controlled or manipulating you then now is the time to let them go. If you have been too controlling of others or situations then it is time to let go. This is not a time for power tripping but a time for elimination. Fated events and repeating themes will reinforce which of your controlling habits, compulsions, addictions or prejudices must be eliminated. Destroying things which have control over you will increase your spiritual power and lead to personal mastery.

posted July 14, 2018 02:54 PM            

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"Drift like a cloud and flow like water, seeing that all life is a magnificent illusion, a playing of energy, and there is absolutely nothing fundamentally to be afraid of." -- Alan Watts

posted July 15, 2018 11:28 AM            

And by the way just to be clear and I will repeat it, whatever, in the universe believes I will bow down and go where it wants me to, it has another thing coming. It doesn't get to just enter my life and screw things up and push me some direction IT wants me to go in.

I will literally burn the world down and bring down the heavens to keep myself safe and I am the soldier who will be there alone at the end of a war with one arm and I will annihilate all in my path until I can't any longer.

If it's a war against my comfort and way of life, I will fight at all costs.

posted July 15, 2018 04:08 PM            

Stresses brought on by sudden changes can often stick in the nervous system as seemingly irrational patterns that look like something other than fear and anxiety. They can be remedied by regaining your balance with an elegant, body friendly method like homeopathy (or flower essences).

You've lost the balance you had before. Perfectly understandable. It has happened to me in the last several years. It has been a struggle to get back balance, but in a new context and with new methods. But it can be done.

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"Drift like a cloud and flow like water, seeing that all life is a magnificent illusion, a playing of energy, and there is absolutely nothing fundamentally to be afraid of." -- Alan Watts