posted July 09, 2018 09:23 AM            

Saturn just started transiting through my 7th house and is currently opposing my Moon in the 1st. Lately, I've been an extreme loner--cutting people out of my life here and there. It started with a best friend of 5 years. I cut her out when I realized she was never truly a friend. This was when Saturn was in the later degrees of Sagittarius.

Then just a few weeks earlier, Saturn retrograded and I cut off one of my other good friends who had Libra moon. I realize he is not going to change. I'm sure he is going through his own difficult Saturn transit, but I can't be bothered to baby him anymore.

Now it's in Capricorn, also conjunct my partner's Moon and Jupiter. Things have been brought to my attention that I have been extremely emotionally selfish. I feel disconnected to him, while he says he feels too connected that he is losing himself. Saturn is in his 7th house too, right now. I have been having trouble understanding him emotionally. What used to come so easily to me, I find difficulty. I have no idea what I'm supposed to do with this transit. We don't have any crazy problems, just the emotional distance coming from me. He is trying is very best, and I thought I was too.

Does this mean I have to think of others first before myself? Or the other way around? I have been feeling very emotionally independent that I don't feel the need to keep anyone in my life.

I still care about him. Out of all the people, he's the one I want to lose the least. But I don't know if that's the action I should take.

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Gemini Rising
Sun in Leo (2nd house)
Moon in Cancer (1st house)
Mercury in Virgo (3rd house conj.)
Venus in Virgo (3rd house)
Mars in Libra (5th house)