posted September 06, 2020 12:10 PM            

I honestly can't explain in words how real the struggle is. And I'm curious how you overcame it, if you did.

posted September 06, 2020 01:12 PM            

He changes his mind constantly in the order of decisions that effect the both of us. Like...
when we should move
when he we should get a house
when we should get married
move first then look for a new job and have me move away when I am actually settled in career(at the time)
have kids after we get married
get a house before we get married
have a baby before we get a new house
not ready for home yet because might want to be on site tech for a few years but who knows when or where
Wants to do the whole room mate thing with out talking to me first(early relationship years, and I said hell no, and how dare you not talk to me first)
He also has a complex where he will almost do anything his mom says.
"my mom says we should just have a court date wedding"
"my mom says our anniversary restaurant is too expensive, so we are going to eat here now."
Seems highly influenced by bossy women.
I think he only bought this apartment because the girl he was seeing before he met me put him down for living with his dad.

I have to give ultimatums sometimes for things to actually happen.
Naturally as a woman, I have been conditioned to go along with a guys plan.
But I realized over the last few years that me following his plans does not really work for me since he doesn't follow through with anything.

He has turned out to be successful regardless.

But I have just learned that I need to be more in charge with planning on the domestic front. Since I moved in with him, even though we spit expenses down the middle he still kind of had that king of the castle complex...."you don't need this, we don't need that" until my cork started to blow off....like 3 years later.

I get that these are important decisions, but I've had to make so many changes and bust my butt, and I need more to show for it than this apartment.

I have a lot of Cardinal, 10th house, plus the tunnel vision Scorpio moon conjunct Pluto. So that has finally made me more "that's it, I'm calling the shots!"

Sorry for all the venting.

On a positive note his Gemini moon makes him hilarious and he can usually get me to crack up when I start to go into a dark place.

posted September 06, 2020 11:43 PM            

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Originally posted by Brenda_S:
Do you struggle with deciding on a path to take? Be it career or whatever...

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I don't know what to do.
I'm a confused man since day one.
Too much information made me confused.
I tried all I got in my hand and failed in all.
Wait it's only applicable for my Education and Career/Job.
The above things not applicable for others things in my life such as food(no drug, smoke, alcohol etc), for women(never tried multiple types of women) etc etc.
I have Venus Exactly Conjunct Moon in Gemini and both Conjunct my Fortuna Point and 2nd House Cusp.

posted September 07, 2020 12:45 AM            

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Originally posted by anonymidarkness:
The easiest way I've found out of that is to have a daily schedule and stick to it no matter what, I am good with that for some reason, maybe having too much Saturn helpss sometimes .

Now, deciding on career path , there are plenty of options, most look good especially to a gemini moon, but I've found I've always known what I'm good at right from childhood, its just that I picked up things from people along the way, I tried them, failed, lol, I figured they were not meant for me, now if you work my bloody ass off I might get where they are, but why try to work hard to be like michael jordan in other's field when you already might be "anonymidarkness" (yeah double apostrophe right there) in ur own field. I think I confused my own self here through my ramblings, take it with a pinch of salt /

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