posted February 08, 2016 08:59 PM            

In September 2012 when Saturn conjuncted my moon exact I lost my father in an unexpected way. This is in the second house and it completely derailed my life. I had to take a break from school because I lost my financial support (father) and started to come to terms with how the rest of my family is structured, which isn't so hot. My mom is mentally ill and upon losing my father, our family crumbled. Ever since then I've been picking up the pieces -- making friends that can replace the family I'm missing and trying to build a good relationship. I'm also financially supporting myself through school which is a heavy process as there are no government loans for what I'm doing.

The next time Saturn hit it conjuncted Pluto. My boyfriend at the time became rather sick of me being depressed my father had passed away (December 2015) and split up with me. We had a rocky back and forth relationship for a while as I pretended to be less affected with the death of my father than I was and eventually we broke things off when Pluto was transited again by Saturn.

Now Saturn has crossed my imum coeli into the 4th house, where it's natally placed. When it crossed that axis I moved to a new city to start school and it was a rough time, but it seems to keep getting rougher. When it started to opposition my Venus I realized the relationship I had devoted myself to was an abusive one and I left.

My 4th house is very busy and so is my 10th opposite to it. In the next 2 years or so Saturn is going to hit my Uranus/Saturn conjunction and oppose my Venus, Mercury, and eventually my Sun conjunct Chiron.

Does anyone have an idea of what this holds in store for me? Should I brace myself? Should I expect all kinds of childhood abuse issues I've suffered to come up in this process? Will it put a huge damper on my love life?

More than anything right now I'd like to be working hard, studying hard and loving others in a very deep way but I'm starting to worry Saturn has other things in store for me. I feel like I've made so much progress since I lost my dad (being financially independent and learning a lot about my own self worth and what I will accept from others, especially in relation to childhood trauma I've suffered).

What do you think y'guys? Can you tell me anything good? Can you tell me anything useful?

posted February 13, 2016 12:00 AM            

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Originally posted by Kitsune:
So, I have a long winded explanation of what I'm asking, but I'm really hoping for your interpretations. Life has really been kicking me when I'm down lately and I'm hoping you can get me in tune with my next Saturn transit.

In September 2012 when Saturn conjuncted my moon exact I lost my father in an unexpected way. This is in the second house and it completely derailed my life. I had to take a break from school because I lost my financial support (father) and started to come to terms with how the rest of my family is structured, which isn't so hot. My mom is mentally ill and upon losing my father, our family crumbled. Ever since then I've been picking up the pieces -- making friends that can replace the family I'm missing and trying to build a good relationship. I'm also financially supporting myself through school which is a heavy process as there are no government loans for what I'm doing.

The next time Saturn hit it conjuncted Pluto. My boyfriend at the time became rather sick of me being depressed my father had passed away (December 2015) and split up with me. We had a rocky back and forth relationship for a while as I pretended to be less affected with the death of my father than I was and eventually we broke things off when Pluto was transited again by Saturn.

Now Saturn has crossed my imum coeli into the 4th house, where it's natally placed. When it crossed that axis I moved to a new city to start school and it was a rough time, but it seems to keep getting rougher. When it started to opposition my Venus I realized the relationship I had devoted myself to was an abusive one and I left.

My 4th house is very busy and so is my 10th opposite to it. In the next 2 years or so Saturn is going to hit my Uranus/Saturn conjunction and oppose my Venus, Mercury, and eventually my Sun conjunct Chiron.

Does anyone have an idea of what this holds in store for me? Should I brace myself? Should I expect all kinds of childhood abuse issues I've suffered to come up in this process? Will it put a huge damper on my love life?

More than anything right now I'd like to be working hard, studying hard and loving others in a very deep way but I'm starting to worry Saturn has other things in store for me. I feel like I've made so much progress since I lost my dad (being financially independent and learning a lot about my own self worth and what I will accept from others, especially in relation to childhood trauma I've suffered).

What do you think y'guys? Can you tell me anything good? Can you tell me anything useful?

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posted February 21, 2016 03:35 PM            

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Originally posted by Randall:
I like the name. They have kitsunes on Teen Wolf.

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posted February 21, 2016 03:39 PM            

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Originally posted by colorful butterfly:
I can not tell you anything from an astrology stand point but what I can say is that I have been threw and sometimes continue to go threw similar things like you. At times I find myslef falling into n almost depressed state but finding the silver lining no matter how difficult I think is always best. Pretend your dad is always with you, even though you can't see him his spirt remains in you. If you have to talk to him when your alone as if he can hear you, follow your inter intuition that he raised you with for your own answers. Loneliness is hard but it is beautiful in the sense that you learn to love yourself. I too replace my family with friends as I have always been separated for most of my life from my family. A strong support group is needed. Think of each challenge you endure as wisdom to pass on to your own children. Work on you as much as possible, anything spiritual, mental and physical. All three is very important! !!! Don't worry abt the duche bag that broke up with you due to your dad's death, karma will come back to him or just pray for him because he doesn't understand love. Create your own boyfriend until you find one, just hang out with a guy and ask him to hold you every once in awhile to feel warmth. Alot of nice guys out there will, just explain the situation. Understand nothing bad last forever, altho it leaves scars. Therapy helps and remember nothing that happened to you had nothing to do with you, you were just a child. Love that child, love yourself as you would love your own children. The world is a stage, you create what you want, it's all about the story you tell yourslef. Ex: my grandfather died so that he could be my angel. He couldn't protect me on earth like he can in the heavens. He sits beside me and I know he's there, protecting me day and night. Think positive, surround yourself with positive as best you can. If someone says something bad, change the story like they don't have the maturity because they were never taught it. Etc. God bless you and good luck!!!

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posted February 22, 2016 11:05 AM            

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Originally posted by Kitsune:
I chose the name because I have naturally really vibrant red hair and have always identified with foxes. I had one that would follow me out of a woodyard on my way to my high school boyfriend's house. They're just very beautiful, smart creatures. :]

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