posted August 17, 2022 06:31 PM            

I've combed through our synastry, composite, etc. in search for answers. I've found some explanations;

his moon in my 8th house
DW 5th house synastry
My vertex and Juno conjunct his stellium in SAG

etc. But I would love to hear others interpretations on why I feel such a "pull" towards him. I'm a very logical person and I've done everything to forget him but I just can't. What's worse is we've never actually dated :/ I've never felt so instantly attracted to someone before and I'm almost 30 yrs old, I know love is more than infatuation and this rose-colored feeling. I truly don't know him on an intimate level, just friends. That's whats so frustrating, I've never "crushed" on someone this hard and for so long.

There's definitely mutual tension/ intrigue. When we first met he seemed eager to get to know me. I would catch him staring at me a lot. We were like magnets, I was honestly so afraid to get close to him b/c my whole body reacted to him. It was a new feeling so I was cautious but really loved how he made me feel.

Nothing has moved us forward. I think mainly b/c of our age gap, he's 17 years older than me w/ children. He's always very polite and conscious of this fact and I am too. Like we're both dancing around this invisible boundary not wanting to be inappropriate. It's always been very PG. I've never even had a preference for men his age so again I'm like wtf???

I am the inner circle, (Cancer stellium, He's the Sag.)

Composite- https://ibb.co/LSsVdK5
Synastry- https://ibb.co/XF2KQMm
Synastry Aspects-
https://ibb.co/92JHrmr

posted August 31, 2022 11:49 PM            

Damnit Zoomers born in the 2000's having Pluto conjunct my DC. LOL

I was instantly attracted to his appearance. I knew in less than 7 seconds. But I did not get vibes that he digged me immediately. But as we went out to eat as a group and social interactions the more he warmed up to me. He is super loyal to my husband I will say. He was on my husband's site project about 2 years ago. And he came to our wedding and he lives very far away.

Anywho, like yeah people can be attractive but I can be repulsed by their personality or still just not be my type even if they are very conventionally attractive.

With that being said, one time I sat between him and my husband. His foot/leg bumped into mine. He was cool as a cucumber, but I was frantic and started sipping down my drink. That night I could not shake the feelings while lying in bed that night.