posted September 05, 2017 05:19 PM            

I have mixed feelings towards him. Our family always had issues and probably these feelings were related with them. These issues also runs deep and I'm not sure how we can solve them.

But I wonder if our relationship can ever improve. Right now I want to avoid him because conflicts stresses me a lot and it's often too easy to trigger him due to issues he has. It seems like no matter what I say could trigger him even if said calmly and peacefully. And to make it worse, men who are emotionally explosive scares me a lot.

Is there any hope between us to achieve peace? Can anyone help me understand our dynamic underneath? Thank you.

posted September 07, 2017 02:48 PM            

wit chiron conjunct to the sun at MC and opposed to Uranus. Saturn at the IC, this has all the ear marks of a broken family. or at best family problems that reoccurred. Uranus and Saturn makes me think of a broke family and with moon opposed to Neptune, I wondered you are half siblings .

but over all you and he are at odds on most issue.
the loose stellium of the conscious planets, Venus/mercury/mars/ moon does dhow a semblance of emotional and mental harmony at times. but Neptune opposed to the moon could indicate your mother played favorites with your brother.

pluto is trine the moon and sextile to Neptune so it is possible that the periods of harmony could become stable.

the moon/Saturn midpoint is opposed to the vertex which bodes a breakup and tensions with the father.

while the moon opposition is square the node which can indicate your mother was emotionally vacillating and not straight forward.

my guess is that one of you are e aligned wit the father and the other wit the mother so that the problems between them are largely why you and your brother developed problems.

posted September 07, 2017 06:08 PM            

We are indeed at odds in most issues, there is just so much difference between us. Even at best I often feel some sort of stress when interacting with him as if anything might accidentally trigger another conflict for months.

Our mother suffers from depression due to her own issues. She is often affected by him as he worries her and she would be afraid of triggering him. She often says that he is a child so me who is more mature should be the adult. I wouldn't be too surprised of favoritism towards him because there might be guilt of neglect towards him when he was little and she believes that it is what caused him issues. I lived mostly with my grandparents in childhood so I suffered less from our parents' issues.

Our dad, according to my mom, is often criticizing him harshly which is probably the tension you described. My parents are also often at odds with each other. Also, since I have a more stable and secured life and my brother has lots of problems in his relationships and jobs, it probably worsened all the deeper issues and favoritism. My mother might feel the need to protect him more than me while expecting me to figure all out.

In the end I just don't know what to do anymore. Sometimes I feel upset about them, sometimes I can empathize with them, and yet sometimes I'm just tired recourring issues when there is no strength from their part to get over the issues.

I care about being with them but I don't know how to keep things going. Now that I have a kid I'm worried if all these issues might end up affecting him so I'm trying to understand and hopefully protect him from this. Not that I'm issues free but I'm scared of how intense it has been from their side.