posted February 07, 2003 07:47 AM         

So here I am, just having received a reprimande by my manager that I do NEED to change my way of behaving in the public office I work (transit Saturn in 10). There have been too many complaints (only from employers) about me and at least two people have told my manager that I am a complete and utter wacko!

Háháhá! I need to change drastically or look for other work, inside the school or out! Well, this conversation made me even more happy! I feel very blessed.
I am just too eccentric lately and too much myself (always have been but extremely now). I am só happy and all I want to do is entertain and love. Working is for other people, let me do the motivation part and make people smile! Sure I want to work but don't make so many rules! Hehe.

Why I am now also more happy than ever is that I met up with someone I already know for 8 years. Somehow the universe brought us together and we share something very profound.
He as well goes through the same as me with work and himself. It is amazing and uncanny. The energy between us is like we end up in a heaven, so euforic, it dances between us! Weird!

So seriously I need to think this through, what I am going to do about my career once and for all. Funnily this has been the red line in my life. I am always the one they blame because I attract attention in the outside world, being so present. So it is always me who is the black sheep! I am laughing here .....I am a wacko! Yeah right, and you are a tight @zz!! Shame for them! No really, this could have only been said by structured people who are cranky but I thank them. Without them I would have not been looking to improve myself. Office life is nothing for me! The work is boring but the meeting and helping all the different people is great. And making funny jokes with them is even better!
So my manager and I have decided that I need two weeks to decide what I am going to do (huh..what a time limit ). Either improve and walk around in uniform- style- behaviour or quit this public working place and look elsewhere.

Nothing and no one can break me at this moment. I feel só good!
Mercy has confetti and b.d. decoration! Let's party!
But seriously, I really don't know what I am supposed to do now...I joked and said to my manager:" hey, maybe I just need to become pregnant!" She took it serious a bit but I grinned and said:" jóke!"

So I don't know if learning to structure myself is what I need to do for my growth or I should switch to the artisitic side, something I have always liked best and is my home. But...I'll see what all the conversations with my friends will bring! I have 2 weeks! Especially a conversation with the *special* Gem.friend as I have my North node on his MC !!

posted February 07, 2003 08:17 AM         

You are experiencing LIFE and LIVING it and these people cannot handle it- such a shame.

Misery loves company you know?!

If the job market is tough I don't advise you
to be too rebellious though but always fight power

posted February 07, 2003 09:33 AM         

Can't we just talk hours about this kind of thing? Wouldn't you like to take away the metal string around the stuffed people just for their own sake just because we know how fun it can be to let loose your hair, attidude and heck....everything? But hey...who's to say what's good for someone. Some like tight strings around them because otherwise they would blubber all over the place! And then some of us have been born all blubbery and love it!

Thanx you sweeties.
Algae drinks??? Háhá! Go get them! Silly buggers! They're the ones who are silly not us!! Should see my orange bird and feather pen. How more cheerful can you get, and than still it's not ok!?
Mazz, I love your name and I am more than happy that my post has cheered you up!