posted December 28, 2002 06:19 PM              

To be blunt...all most men want from me is to have sex..plain and simple...and I end up getting hurt at their propositions because it makes me think that I lack something as a person but I'm alright for just the physical.

OK..I'm not ugly..I know that...but damn..I'm no supermodel either...so what gives with all the men who just wanne jump my bones?

CARLO...your insight would be appreciated as well....because I'mthinking that the Virgo is eyeing me up for the smae reasons that other men eye me up....they wanna bump uglies.

posted December 28, 2002 10:05 PM              

And also, never forget that the game of love doesn't have a rule. What is worth for me, cannot be worth for you.

posted December 28, 2002 10:21 PM              

He's right dear,someone will find you, babe...yet only when the Time is Right...I could not agree more .

posted December 29, 2002 11:50 AM              

You must have been reading my mind last night. I was thinking to myself that the things you desire most you will repell from yourself. At least that's what it seems like for me.

I've had struggles with real depression and I was diagnosed with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder a few years ago (not really affected by it now) so what i'm going through now isn't anywhere near that kind of depression...right now, it's more a disheartened feeling.

I guess it's because I'm about to graduate with my master's degree in Finance. I have a good job, getting ready to buy a house but then I think...where's the purpose? I've always wanted someone in my life...but not just anyone.

that triangle theory makes a lot of sense to me. I am just so afraid that one day, I'm going to wake up and be 50 yrs old...be lonely...have no children and I tell you what, it's one hell of a scarry thought.

I don't know the Virgo well enough to know if he just wants to jump my bones but I guess as time goes on, I get a little skeptical witout becoming cynical....but I'm afraid of becomming cynical.

My chart says that the relationship aspect is supposed to come later in life for me...but...what is "LATER"?? I don't want it to be to late...I want to be able to enjoy the things that younger couples enjoy.

I am so scared sometimes.

I know this lady...she's 43, I met her in gradschool and we became "friends". She's never been married, she hasn't had a boyfreind in years and she doesn't date. As I became to know her more and more, I ralized it was because of her attitude. She blames everyone else for why she's in her "predicament", she says it's because men like "skinny blondes with perfect bodies". I disagree. I guess the point I'm trying to make is that she is miserable, everything about her being, as I have learned, is MISERABLE and I don't want to end up that way. The thought of becomming that scares the hell out of me. Needless to say, I have distanced myself from this person because I came to realize that when I would go on a date with a man or even when I went to the Carribbean with the Cappy, she was trying to verbally sabotage it for me...you know...misery loves company...anyway...I've gotten off topic.

I'm just scared and it's not a question of whether I'm going to jump in the sack with someone because I've always been a little more conservative than most with that...though I'll admit I'm no "nun" LOL. I just don't understand how some men can be so disrespectful....and I find myself having a hard time distinguishing when a guy is being sincere and when he's loading the BS on.

Lost Leo: I like the Virgo I work with because there's something "safe" about meeting someone at work...you see them everyday and you get to know them a little. I know some Virgo's that are male "*luts" but I just can't picture this Virgo being that way (besides, I thought Virgos, the "virgin's" would be more discerning in this area but I guess I'm wrong)...when we're in a group...that's when he's palyful with me but when it's one on one and he's asking me a question he's so nice...(not that you're not supposed to be nice to a coworker...but it's DIFFERENT)...it's like this shyness that I can't explain.

posted December 29, 2002 02:03 PM              

sorry...just me being naughty :P

thanks for the input guys, I really appreciate it.

posted December 31, 2002 04:03 PM              

You've been so helpful with all of this!!! Good for my ego too!!

I thinkI'm going to get that book.

I just want to be more relaxed around this guy so that I can communicate with him better instead of claming up as if I'm in awe of him....that's not like me.