posted October 31, 2003 05:39 AM              

Virgo speaking here ^_^ recently I let my eye wander to a Leo who joined our club at training. To make a long story short (see if I succeed at that anyway) he's been with us (together with his twin brother) for three months now and two weeks ago he acted a bit weird. I soon found out that was because he thought I was *in love* which I'm not. Intrigue is the right word ^^ and we get along really well. So to get that out of his mind I called and he was very happy to hear me, glad that I wanted to clear up the matter and said about five times how well we get along. Great, one would think, and I was happy indeed.... but now I noticed that indeed I'm not completely neutral towards him. I can't seem to act normal, or rather act like "me" , around him. He senses that, rather preceptive one he is, and gets uneasy, but I don't want that ° ° so I'm trying to get myself under control and just plain be me whenever he's around...
Anyone recognise the situation or anyone has something to say about it? I'd gladly hear about it....... I just want to act normal and get to know'm, for I'm quite sure we'd get along.

HUGS!

posted November 01, 2003 11:07 AM              

Yeah, I guessed it wouldn't be so clear ^_^ typical ramble story of mine.
Ok, so... it was him who thought I was in love with'm, not his brother and it's also with him that I can't act normal. Why? Because... well, I hope this makes sense but because the moment I'm in the same room with him I seem to become very conscious of everything I do, everything he does and how he reacts. So obviously I see things that probably aren't there because I pay way too much attention to what's going on instead of being spontaneous and just be "me"...

Here's the latest update on what happened : yesterday (Friday) we went out with a small bunch of the club. He was there too but... and here comes a confusing part. You know msn messenger, right? Well, he was online, but on his brother's account, talking to another girl from training. I just got ****** 'cause I thought he was avoiding me, but that same eve we were going out and I was supposed to pick them both up at home. Obviously I wasn't too keen to do so, but since I'd promised I left nonetheless.

By that time I was able to act normal 'cause I was a bit ****** off.. and I had a great time ^_^. Logic, go figure, I know. But he was at ease, so was I and I'm rather content now. All that troubles me (don't tell me I worry too much.. I know I do, lol) is that I might get so....... infatuated/intrigued/smitten -whatever you want to call it- again that I will stop acting normal. I don't want that. I want both of us to be at ease.. well, basically the same ramble like before.

Does this clarify what you were wondering about? Catch you later and thanks for reacting!

Hug,

posted November 02, 2003 06:24 AM              

Thanks for your answer.. I know you're right ^_^ but it's not always that easy. However like you read in the second part of the story I succeeded in being more at ease, and apparently he was quite at ease too, so he said to a friend when we were driving home Friday eve. All in all *at this moment* I'm quite happy and plain making sure I don't get carried away again.

Still I'd love more reactions! So ramble away...

Love,

posted November 04, 2003 06:13 PM              

It's kinda late here, I just got back from training with.. yes, that Leo. *sighs* I'm trying to stay levelheaded here, but it's hard. Either that or I'm making a fuss out of it...

He is such a pest! All he (and his brother for that matter) can manage is making fun of others, at the others' expence. It's all quite funny at first, but after a while one starts to wonder if there is anything else they do?! I'd love to have a decent convo, once in a while, but that's hardly easy when all they do is... insult others. Is it typical of Leos or something? Not to step on any Leos toes of course.

His brother and I started talking about it, about their tendency to insult others. They don't mean a thing of it, neither one of them (or so they say) but I asked why they still presisted in it? Just for the fun of it. I'm having trouble following here... 'cause ok, it's fun now and then to play around, but this is plain tiring. Maybe it's so tiring because of how I look upon him, but my friend at training (female one ^^) agrees on it. She doesn't like it either.

There's another little matter. He thought I was chasing his ass to get it into my bed (still am not doing so). Today I asked'm to go to the bookfair (major happening every year here) and he said 'yes'. He sounded rather short though, so I called and made sure he wasn't thinking I was after him again. (How so: decent ego?) The problem is: I'm digging a hole for myself, I'm afraid, 'cause the more I insist on making clear I *don't* fancy him, the more he'll believe me and I'll just get myself into a "friend" position.

I'm whining. I know that. It's late and I'm worrying again. Guess I'm just hoping it'll work out... for once.

Hope someone reacts to this.

Hugs,