posted December 12, 2003 02:53 AM              

i have one friend now who i think truly liked and understands me, perhaps thats because i let her see more of me than anyone else...but i'm still confused.
i was wondering if anyone could look at my chart and tell if something is influencing this...

my details are..

6:55pm Zarajevo, Yugoslavia 22 March 1988

thanks

posted December 17, 2003 04:30 PM              

may be you have neptune aspects that square the ascendant?

posted December 17, 2003 10:12 PM              

I'm not professional or anything, but can just tell you what I would see if I had your birthdate before a blind date.

The communication problem may occur because of a Gemini Moon (duality of twins) and Mercury in Pisces (duality of fish). I can see why it's really bothering you though cuz you have Venus in Taurus (responsible in love), Mars in Capricorn (ambitious), Jupiter in Taurus (responsible), and Saturn in Capricorn (discliplined)...

You want things to progress and take root in all parts of your life, and yet you have this one little thing that seems to get in the way. You automatically want to control it so you feel you're getting to the nitty-gritty.

And your Sun in Aries makes it more so...

You want to just BE and express yourself without fear of retribution, can't figure out why your slacker friends don't pay.

Well, it's the Jup/Taurus & Sat/Capricorn which marks you as "knowing better" to other people, so when you make an error, people may be harder on you.

Because the Moon & Merc have to do with things like emotions and expression, find an outlet for these FIRST. Be really good at whatever endeavor you choose, and your Jup & Sat will be happy!

with love & support,

.gloria

posted December 18, 2003 01:03 AM              

no my eyes dont dart, sometimes i catch myself looking at people too intently...im always trying to figure people out.

thanks aj, i dont really understand what hte planets and stuff do, but i got the jist. about my emotions and expression...ive been working on that for a long time, and i think ive found it, i also think people dont trust me because i dont really trust anyone either. i like solving my own problems and i dont like being a burden by telling them my problems.

posted December 18, 2003 10:58 AM              

Well...
I'm glad it helped make it more understandable. I just think of astrology as another language tool in understanding human relations. In the same way Psychology is another language having to do with same. Or religion having another language. Each language reveals different facets.

I know a little about your frustration because I share it, perhaps that's why you could relate to it. When I'm in a structured environment, I feel very comfortable, but after a while, I feel stifled and physically sick.

When I'm in a very free "anything goes" environment, I feel very comfortable, but after a while, I can't take the lack of structure because I need to progress in ways that are rooted to my core beliefs.

The solution for me was the finding the emotional/communicative outlet first, then being really good at it. There are a lot of careers out there which has a nice blend of creative/structure.

Being an Aries, you'll probably be good as an entreprenuer. You might even want to create a new niche in the market. Just be careful you're not being practical. Try to stick with something that has already started to get established, and ride the crest of the wave all the way to shore!

with love & support,

.gloria

posted December 18, 2003 11:51 AM              

So you get the picture. I studied biochemistry (ignoring my painting) and worked in a chem related field for years before I turned to painting again and fiber arts (fabrics) and it became just as profitable for me, actually much more so even though I had to fight myself and everyone else about it.

I am now still highly organized, but I work on my emotional life first! Then every one else second. I'd like to have my own fabric business or gallery combining canvas and fiber arts.

There is a great song for you, and all Arians...

"I like to talk about your hair, your dog, your clothes, and you usually, you,you, you, but sometimes, occasionally, Iike to talk about me, I like to talk about me, me, me!"

That's a great song for Aries, concetrate on yourself for a while and you will be happy again, get back into balance.

posted December 18, 2003 04:50 PM              

that song make me crack up laughing!

again aj, u hit the mark. i am torn about everything, because i have two totally opposite view points on basically everything, it gets VERY frustrating, because i like order.........or do I???

sthenri, i have a feeling that what happened to you will happen to me. i sketch all the time, and i think im pretty good, but because all my life ive been told to keep that my "hobby" i cant even begin to think of it as a career. there's also the problem that i have huge BURSTS of creativeness, where i dont stop drawing untill i can draw no more! but that only happens when i have a lot of emotional problems, if i dont...im never satisfied with my work because it doesnt have that emotional connection that my other drawing present.

for a career...i was thinking advertising...maybe if im successful i can satisfy that part of me that wants to be a career woman, and then i can retire early and satisfy that part of me that wants to live in a small Italian village...o dear

that song again....see now that ive started...i could go on and on and on and on about me...

posted December 18, 2003 08:51 PM              

Think about this... think about something that requires someone to see all sides of something. Angelina Jolie is Gemini with Moon in Aries and Merc in Gemini (the dualities again)... She also has Mars & Jupiter in Aries.

She has found promise in helping to see the other side of people's circumstances.

with love & support,

.gloria

posted December 19, 2003 12:34 PM              

I started working for other people, drawing for them, drawing patterns for seamstresses, doing anything for anyone until I finally found out I do better on my own. It's my own voice that people want to hear, or my vision, that is what an artist does-promotes their own unique vision. This bothered some of my more conservative friends at first, but then I made new friends, and the old ones came around.

I set myself up in coffee shops and bookstores and just talked to people all the time about what they wanted to see, so I knew what would sell. Finally I found out the community I wanted started with myself and I found lots of open ears.

Start drawing in public and people will be drawn to you, draw everyone you see and they will come up and ask you what you are doing, people are naturally curious, and that is great.

posted December 19, 2003 06:51 PM              

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i am torn about everything, because i have two totally opposite view points on basically everything, it gets VERY frustrating, because i like order.........or do I???

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posted December 20, 2003 08:28 AM              

i think people trust me once they get to know me really well, i guess im never gonna have people just confiding to me...i guess thats a good thing...i dont think i could deal with lots of problems.
thanks grayheart, i think it did help

sthenri, my name's natasha too, although its not spelt with a 'h' it has a little tick above the s to make it a "sh". just thought that was a neat ko-inkidink.

posted December 20, 2003 11:22 AM              

DON'T try to change something like that, like you said, you've tried and it's meant to stay the way it is. Think of all the opportunities you would miss if you took the time to concede to those who want to "trust you". You'd try to be someone you are not.

It's like me with this vulnerability issue I've had my entire life. I tried for at least TWO DECADES to get a handle on it, this huge blind spot I seemed to have. IT'S IMPOSSIBLE.

Then I realized I was trying to be something I'm not. I didn't need to display myself in public in the first place if I didn't feel like it that day. So now, I concentrate on my life's dream of healing in a calming atmosphere, and writing my first book.

I only crawl out of my hole on Monday's & Friday's, if there's a new Moon in Aquarius or Virgo, and on even days of the month. (just kidding)

with love & support,

.gloria