posted June 05, 2004 12:08 AM              

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I got this taurus friend..i've known him for 2 years. This is a online thing..so i've never met him.
We talk on here a lot and on webcam.
I know alot about taurus...but just wondring..are they liars? like do they make up lies or create drama to get attention or have people feel sorry for them or just have power?
Thats the problem I'm having with him. I guess you could say hes been one of my closest friends. I can tell him anything and I can blab about anything and he'll listen. We were actually bf/gf for a while.
I dont know...it was a mistake I think. He thinks im beautiful blah blah...he thinks all this good stuff about me...And we stayed together for about 10 months....
the thing is i was never really attracted to his looks...i dont wanna sound shallow...im not.
i just wasnt attracted to him like that...he was reallly sweet...like the sweetest bf u can ask for but i just wasnt attracted to his looks..and it took me that long to break up with him cause i was so confused. I was attracted to him sexually which is just weird...
Anywayz he has eating problems...he used to throw up his food...hes very self consiouce. wer still very good friends...he tells me everything..he says he really cares about me..
somtimes the story he tells me i just dont belive them...like they sound so stupid to me i dont wanna say anything to him just incase they are true.
he says all this stuff how he works for the police...like he goes to schools and teaches kids about drugs...(he used to have big drug problems)..he says every person he has cared about has died. i cant explained but it seems his whole life is just one big drama and its just hard to belive. he said his friends baby died in his arms in a car crash...etc..
i mean i care for him but i have heard so many stories im just like are these really true
somtimes i think he makes some of it up just so people would feel sorry for him or pay attention. i mean im still there for him everything..its just hard to belive him somtimes so im really wondring if he really tells the truth all the time. i dont know...
i've been a lot of stress latley and everytime im in a bad mood i seem to just take everything out on him...
yesterday he was telling me how he had this girlfriend for over a month...and they had sex (he was virgin when we were together)...hes 20 by the wway. and he tells me that shes dying...
he makes a drama out of everythign!!! so its just so hard to belive him!
he says she wont tell him what it is..but he thinks its cancer..and he said his friends wont belive him..and i asked if i do..and i said ya even tho i didnt...but i didnt wanna say no just incase it was true..and also i care about him and he has no 1 else...but it just gets so frustrating...like it seems nothing good ever happens to him...
and i dont think he cares bout me as much as he says he dose....i just dont feel it...and yesterday i just bitched him out...i told him i dont think he cares bout me and its all made up..he said i was hurting his feelings...i felt really guilty...hes done soo many things for me in the past that no 1 would do...he stayed up all night..the day before i had my big auditon for an acting school....i was freaking out about and i was scared i was going to sleep in because it was so early..so he stayed up all night and called me 5am in the morning to make sure im getting ready for audition. and also hes broke..and he went to get a calling card just for me...
its just im so stressed out right now and when he throws me all these stories about what happen i just want to tell him to shut up cause i dont belive them...
im not stupid either. i know since this is over the internet there is a big chance hes lying.
its just i've known for so long..and i got this connection with him and hes done so much for me....augg..
anywayz..i wouldnt stop bitching at him..and he said if i think he dosnt care about me than maybe he should leave me alone and block me. and i was just like whatever i dont care. i didnt think he would do it....maybe i kinda wanted him to...but ya...he said bye..and he blocked and deleted me...
i didnt think too much about it just because im under so much stress...now i think bout it i miss him..but i still dont belive a thing he says.
im thinking bout writting him an e-mail and just saying everything i feel..i dont know.

and since hes a taurus i dont think he'll forgive me either.
blah im graduting on sunday and this is the last thing i need.
I guess i was being selfish and a ***** ...i'll admit. i just dont care anymore...i always have to care about other people....and i always help other people..and do stuff for them...and im sick of it cause they never appreciate anything i do...they might say thanks and just forget bout it. and im sick of it..
and i guess thats why i was bitching at him cause i just dont care anymore...i'll be seflish and ***** about everything..cause all i've been doing is be nice and im sick of it.
even tho its not his fault..it seems hes always the person i go to when im in a bad mood...and just start yelling and take out everything out on him. i've done it soo many times to him...i think he just had enough..
i dont really know what to do.
maybe its best we dont talk anymore i guess...
ok im really sorry. this was going to be a quick question about taurus about lyring and i started going into details and ranting on again...*sigh*

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posted June 05, 2004 11:21 AM              

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Virgo -

Sounds to me like you became each other's punching bag. That's not a bf/gf relationship.

Do some more study on your astrological chart, and understand why you feel the need to always be doing for others before you even know how to negotiate for yourself.

To me, this may not be a healthy relationship, and perhaps subconsciously, you entered it in order to have an excuse not to meet new people.

It just sounds really messed up.

As for Taurus'lying, they have the potential to lie just like any sign. It all sounds kind of bogus.

Get some fresh air!

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posted June 06, 2004 12:19 AM              

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Thanks. I made my decision. Its best not to talk anymore. I'm not gonna crawl back. I blocked and deleted him also.
I need to start a new life...

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posted June 06, 2004 07:28 PM              

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Yeah girl!

Just start a new life. Remember that Pluto is Opposite Venus right now, so this is the right decision. You finally had the power of Pluto's wind at your back to complete the purging.

Do some reading on Scorpio women right now, and you'll pick up some healthy tips.

Get some fresh air!

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