posted July 23, 2004 03:15 AM              

A person with Capricorn on the ascendant can be quite serious and old before his time, for he is not able to take matters lightly. He may even have graying hair early in his life. As a child he appears must self-sufficient and mature, yet there is a lack of security inherent in the personality. He will carefully conceal any pain he feels so no-one would know he is needy in any way. His proper behavior is a façade that protect him. He has somehow steeled himself against the world with a stoic attitude. He secretly wishes he could let down his walls, but he simply doesn't know how. He may be dying for someone to look past the barriers he erects and show the warmth and reassurance he so badly needs. He may be judgemental, cool, and aloof just at the very time he craves affection most. His defensiveness protects him in a strange way. He can seem chilly when he is anything but that.

This ascendant describes someone who has assumed the burdens of all those around him early in life. It may be entirely subconscious, yet he has what is called an 'Atlas complex'. He desperately needs to be needed. Therefore it is better to be needed by someone than by no-one at all. He can overload himself to the point where he is under tremendous pressure, yet he is motivated by assuming responsibility, perhaps to the breaking point. He tends to wear the 'hair shirt' and is masochistic to some degree. The more he beats himself up, the more he can justify his existence. Deep insecurities stem from early childhood; he feels rejection on a very basic level. It is more than likely that this rejection comes from before his birth, when he felt unwanted by one or both parents.

The interesting complexity of one with this ascendant comes with his decisions about survival. Since the ascendant describes the conditions of birth - the initiation into the earth plane - as well as the conclusions derived due to these circumstances, habits formed at the very first moment can precondition life behavior. Unfortunately, patterns are established before accurate analysis of a situation is possible. These patterns and decisions may be re-examined later on, but until that time, the photographs made early in life set the stage. The birth decisions are especially strong for one with Capricorn rising. The feeling of rejection can seriously inhibit him throughout his life. The birth process itself, for one with this ascendant, is particularly long and drawn out. It appears that one with Capricorn rising is reluctant to come into the world at all.

During regression sessions, the standard memory for one with Capricorn on the rise, or with Saturn in the first house, is that of dreading entry into the world. It is as if he sees the conditions that await him and decides to put off confronting them as long as possible. The resistance to birth is so strong that many individuals with this ascendant recall a feeling of digging in the heels until fatigue set in. The reality of having no way out and no choice in the matter forced him to give in and be born. This extreme dread of life seems primarily concerned with the feeling of not being wanted. Rejection spells lack of safety, with no-one to depend on but oneself.

posted July 23, 2004 03:41 AM              

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Just want to add that the Nodes are points in our chart that show where we need to head in life. The North node is the direction our life is heading, the direction we should take. The lessons we need to learn to create harmony and balance in our lives. The South node symbolizes lessons from past lives we have carried into this life. Oftentimes we revert back to these habits from the past because they are easier and more familiar to us.
We are working towards the qualities of our North node and the energies that occupy the house in which it is in.

(for North Node in the first house)
Person must develop his own initiative and his own personal power. Has relied too much on other people in the past, and has been dependent on or dominated by others. Now he must hew and carve out his own destiny. Through his own efforts and his own actions, he will gain the confidence and self-reliance he needs.

go here: http://groups.msn.com/interpretations4/northnodein1st.msnw

(node in Virgo)
North Node in the sign of discrimination and purity shows these are the qualities that will lead to growth and progress in this life. The hidden 'Christ within' must be expressed through service. South Node in Pisces would show past tendencies of escapism, copping out of responsibility; and it would be easy to follow that pattern in this life, for the tendency could be there unless the rest of the chart showed differently. Senses and sensuality have been strong in the past; now the higher senses must prevail.

posted July 23, 2004 03:21 PM              

I was always a painfully shy child.

I remember my mom telling me that when I was born I barely cried, I just looked at everyone with these HUGE brown eyes - had a full head of black hair - and the nurses used me as the baby they used to show the other new mothers how to properly hold and bathe their new babies. I was "so good" she says. Not an overly happy baby, I was just quiet and stared at people.

I would say Cap. rising has given me a serious persona to people who don't know me. It is getting better as I get older. I seem to be lightening up now. I was a very serious child.

posted July 25, 2004 12:27 AM            

Planetary positions
planet sign degree house motion
Sun Sagittarius 09°23'21 08 direct
Moon Scorpio 22°43'33 07 direct
Mercury Sagittarius 02°33'37 08 direct
Venus Scorpio 03°45'26 07 direct
Mars Leo 27°01'56 05 direct
Jupiter Scorpio 28°19'52 07 direct
Saturn Pisces 06°07'06 11 direct
Uranus Capricorn 23°53'00 10 direct
Neptune Capricorn 21°32'07 10 direct
Pluto Scorpio 28°25'11 07 direct
True Node Scorpio 14°42'59 07 retrograde

House positions (Placidus)
Ascendant Aries 29°03'00
2nd House Gemini 02°13'29
3rd House Gemini 24°46'49
Imum Coeli Cancer 15°02'57
5th House Leo 07°52'41
6th House Virgo 09°47'07
Descendant Libra 29°03'00
8th House Sagittarius 02°13'29
9th House Sagittarius 24°46'49
Medium Coeli Capricorn 15°02'57
11th House Aquarius 07°52'41
12th House Pisces 09°47'07

posted July 25, 2004 06:38 PM              

Blessings,

posted July 26, 2004 01:09 AM            

Moon tells about childbirth

Curious Pixie, your son has sun square saturn and my daughter the conjunction
He has moon, venus,pluto, jupiter and the node in Scorpio hmmm

my daughter has sun, venus, and pluto in scorpio with the sun and saturn in the 10th
Her saturn is in Sag and her moon is pisces.
did you notice the only signs involved were with Scorpio, Sag., Capricorn, and Pisces??

My mother was capricorn also, same as a few others here.

Isis your sounds like part of the pattern too venus and jupiter opposite saturn

Saturns child , you're birth sounds like mine, not wanting to be born.

Well girls, what have we figured out here??
Scorpio and Capricorn is prominate with breach births, hard aspects to the sun and saturn
Venus/Pluto or Venus/Jupiter/pluto in Scorpio show up. Pisces and Sag show up but not as prominate.
Mothers with Capricorn Suns or 1st house Saturns show up a lot with these births.

posted July 26, 2004 02:50 AM              

I was born on the 17th and my name equals and 8 (17) too!!!!!! It's been a long tough road. But I wouldnt change it for the world, it has made me who I am today.

Yes, once I embraced what Linda says about the 4 and 8 thing, things got easier. Also, do you notice that you are a 4 and 8 magnet!! I bet you do. It's fascinating.

posted July 26, 2004 01:48 PM              

Blessings,

posted July 26, 2004 01:51 PM              

Blessings,