posted August 08, 2004 02:01 AM              

You warned me about this time, (Mars Transiting right over my Uranus - anger!) and I've been watching for it - at times poo poo'ing it thinking "I can handle it when it arrives"...

Well -

It didn't hit me until a few hours ago, and it was like BAM!!!!!!!!! BOING!!!!!! CRASH!!!!! And I mean, I wasn't even paying attention to the passing itself, it's just the FEELING that hit me like nothing else AND I JUST KNEW!!!

I feel like I need to drink a bottle of Jack Daniels and just knock myself out before I go out there and get myself into BIGTIME trouble with anyone!!!...

I'm pizzed off and hate everything including myself... Mr. L. is out of town and I'm feeling so unloved and worthless. Angry at him for "abandoning" me during my time of need.

Even astro.com concurs with you...

"Surprising incidents ***
No other influence is more conducive than this one to sudden upsets, rash behavior and surprising incidents. Energy seems to burst out all over the place and in surprising forms. It is very often difficult to make plans during this time precisely because so much happens without any warning. In its direct psychological expression, that is, when it is not sublimated or converted into a different form of energy, this influence indicates a sudden desire to assert your freedom, to kick away all limitations and break free..."

The interpretation above is for your transit selected for today - Sunday, August 8, 2004:
Mars Conjunction Uranus exact at 07:32

OH MY GOD! Maybe it's good he's out of town. He's going through some major shyte himself, with Mars Transiting right over his Natal Saturn, while Saturn is Transiting right over his Natal Mars, Pluto just 1 degree away from his 1st House, Venus Transiting his 7th House.

Maybe it's good he's far and away. Pluto is finishing it's transiting in MY 7th. Lord, there's some changes coming around. Please God, let there be loving light in my life for once in my life!!

posted August 08, 2004 03:01 AM              

Anyhow, I'll write some more about your chart once I've rested.

posted August 08, 2004 05:16 AM              

Right now, I have enough trouble keeping up with my own 3-legged friend.

Well ... this is the humbling 3 hours after you totally embarrassed yourself on a global forum.

I'd have to break down and admit this turned out to be a sort of answered prayer, or, like a blessing when you actually stop flirting with the Mustang and thank God for times when someone was there to just listen to you and still love you.

And now I also have a renewed view of Mr. L. and that whole thing. I'm so stressed. I feel like everyone around me is stressed, and unless I f them, I don't know how else to unstress them unless I make myself into a total funny clown fool who laughs at every f'ing thing and acts like a total moron.

I got lost driving back, which is NOT me. As long as I recognized the streets, I keep moving. If I recognized a really wide street, I'd turn on it, and then hopefully hit an arrow pointing to two choices. East or West. HEE!! HEE!! HEE!!

I know this sounds really weird, but I feel more comfortably male, masculine. Is this like the beginning of "the change" or something? I hope it just means I'm more comfortable in my skin - which is a side product - oh shyte... I guess it's like the Masculine Leo united with the Asexual Uranus which reminds me of my lacy Venus in Virgo. It pronounces it.

And that's one of the things that Mr. L. brought to my attention, maybe due to what I'm hearing about Neptune in your partner's 7th. Like I did totally switch my whole personality with him, becoming less of a friend - my eyes batted so much it was on the verge of syrup.

So OK - I know this is good stuff - and didn't I hear something yell among the crowd that maybe I should start writing?

Hmmmmm....

So this is mine.

posted August 08, 2004 10:40 AM            

Oh, babe. Sorry things are so frenzied in your aura right now. Kinda feeling empowered and somehow responsible, myself. I don't know, like a mothering the world kind of feeling. Which is nice and makes me feel a bit ''special'', or something, but stressed out at the same time. Not really sure why, but on astro.com, it said I would be in the middle of conversations today, like, giving things to people who would need them from me. But then tomorrow's says ''confrontation...'' DUM DUM DUUUMMM!!! Sounds kinda scary, hopefully things that I say won't come back and bit me in the azz.... i won't give some bad insight or advice...

Anywho, this is a thread for you, so I'll stop rambling. Here's hoping you can get through this time unscathed, dear! And it's probably good you're on your own at this time, wouldn't want to take out inner poop on Mr. L. inadvertantley...