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Topic: lioneye was right about my cancer...
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purplezen
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posted August 10, 2004 01:05 PM
 
Last night he called me and asked me to come over. we played scrabble. I went to give him a kiss and he pulled away. i said "you dont like me anymore, do you?" and he said "sarah, i love hanging out with you and i care about you, but I just dont want a relationship right now." so I was mad and i threw a muffin at him, and he laughed and gave me a big hug. I didnt even cry. I wasnt surprised, because we havent made out or anything in over 2 weeks, and he has been acting different. I asked him why, and if there was someone else, and he said "there is nobody else. I just feel like I need to get my life sorted out, i have so much on my plate, and I dont want to be a bad boyfriend to you. i need to be a good friend to you first of all. i dont want to hurt you in the end, and i know if we kept on doing what we were doing that it would end badly. i know the next person i'm with i am not going to marry." and I said "I care about you, but it will be hard to be your friend." he said "i feel like you are the only real friend that I have right now. we can confide in eachother and we always have a good time. i promise i will make an effort with you if you will try to be my friend too." I said "I'm afraid I will never hear from you again." and he said he will call me tomorrow. he gave me another hug. a REAL hug, I could feel his head against mine, maybe he was smelling my hair. Today I cried. last night it didnt seem real. I think we both handled it pretty well. we'll see if he calls me tonite like he said he would. i think we might be able to be friends because we have so much in common, but it will take some effort. we'll see. IP: Logged |
lioneye68
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posted August 10, 2004 01:45 PM
Aw, purplezen...I'm sorry, hon.  At least he was finally out with it. I think he WILL call. Cancers have some trouble with letting go in general, but most especially when it's an emotional attachment. Careful he doesn't try to do the "we can be friends who occasionally have sex" thing on you, like the leo did. Men are such bums sometimes. IP: Logged |
purplezen
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posted August 10, 2004 02:59 PM
thanks lioneye. yeah, I am relieved. I think he will call me too. I know he will not pull a "friends who have sex" on me, because for the past few days, he has been turning me down for sex, saying he is just "too tired", riiight...I knew something was up when that happened! I guess I know he wasnt using me for sex at least, lol. I know he genuinely cares about me. I think it was the most amicable break-up I've ever had. I think we can remain friends because the relationship wasn't very long. It still hurts though, but I feel better now because I know. IP: Logged |
pidaua
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From: Back in AZ with Bear the Leo
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posted August 10, 2004 03:37 PM
I am so sorry Purplezen.....you're right, at least you know. Maybe things will work out in the future or maybe you will discover he wasn't what you really wanted all along. IP: Logged |
neptune lady
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posted August 10, 2004 04:07 PM
Oh my dear Purplezen...take heart....
(((((Purplezen)))). You have us... we'll always be here.  IP: Logged |
trillian
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posted August 10, 2004 04:12 PM
 for purplezen...IP: Logged |
purplezen
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posted August 10, 2004 07:04 PM
thanks everyone. I'll keep you posted. IP: Logged |
purplezen
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posted August 13, 2004 01:13 PM
hey lioneye, mr cancer called me last night. we talked for 2 hours. I am not getting my hopes up about getting back together, i know he wants to be alone right now, but atleast we can still salvage a friendship out of this. he wants to hang out with me this weekend. he told me he misses hanging out with me. good. IP: Logged |
astro junkie
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posted August 13, 2004 03:41 PM
That's exactly right Purplezen, at least for now... GOOD!IP: Logged | |
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