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astro junkie
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posted October 11, 2004 04:37 PM           Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
I had to direct this to you because we had talked about my pooch, the trooper, during the hurricanes. It's so extremely difficult to even write this. He first had tumorous material on his spleen a while back, and when they did the x-rays for the spleenectomy, they realized his heart was also enlarged. He was always doing everything from the heart, so it didn't surprise me, you know? Such a happy dog who was so energetic and engaged with you at all times. Couldn't wait to see what you were going to do next. Always wanting to learn more.

Well, then he had two episodes of congenital heart failure, the first one during the lightening from the first hurricane. And then I helped him sustain his beautiful fighting spirit for weeks after.

To make a long story short, I'd spoken to his doctor many weeks ago, and he felt it was time to think about options because with his particular health condition, his quality of life was going to decrease. I explained how (my dog) *EDITED* had to feel like he could fight this, and that I would give him the chance.

(My dog) *EDITED* was an exceptional dog in every way, since he was a pup I always treated him as if he could understand everything, (my Uranus in Leo in the 4th), and he did. We'd have endless conversations every day, and he understood sentences, etc. I could ask him questions and he'd answer yes or no in sign language. He was dubbed the "psychologist" around here because of his AMAZING sense of humor. So difficult to explain, but he just got a joy out of making everyone laugh. Like he was not quite a dog. Everyone said the same thing, when he looked at you he looked right through to your soul.

The type of dog who if you were sad in any way, he would get near you and console you. Once when I had food poisoning, he covered the back of my body with his body to calm me down. I mean, I'll never get over that.

He was eating only certain things like roasted chicken, and then it was no more roasted chicken, only chicken strips, and I was on-call for him 24 hours a day for weeks as he got weaker and weaker, until he was having trouble just standing up. Had a long long talk with him last night, I've been crying for days - and this morning I realized it was time. I'm still crying endless tears, completely breaking down, but so grateful to God for blessing me with such a happy angel in my life. Taught me so much about love. He was PURE LOVE in four-legged form.

(My dog) *EDITED* and I agreed that he would go to sleep, but then he would return immediately to his security duties he was so diligent about, including watching over me like a hawk.

I feel his spirit in my heart, it was like he was riding back home with me in the truck, and he's here with me now and always. I'm still talking to him.

But it's so extremely difficult. He was with me for 12 years, even going on a cross-country road trip with me. He stuck with me through thick and thin, you know, that PURE unconditional love. The greatest most loyal love you can imagine. Happy all the time. He just came up with new Aquarian inventions every day that made you just LAUGH.

Well - just wanted to let you know since we had talked about him.

To me it is most befitting that he was ready to pass on the same day "Superman" passed. I feel so grateful that such an AMAZING being was a part of my life. But I'm crushed at the same time. So I go from happy tears, to breaking down in tears of despair, even as I write this. I already MISS HIM SO MUCH. He was my best buddy in the whole world.

I was with him until the peaceful end, and now he is free. He will be cremated and I will scatter his ashes in the ocean.

He earned all his medals and will probably return as a human.

Thanks.

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noreenz
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posted October 11, 2004 06:28 PM           Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
omg, AJ, I'm so sorry, I loved hearing how close you were with him and how you took so good care of him. Through the hurricanes, it seemed as though he was the most important thing to you and his welfare was just as important as your own, if not more, to you. Amazing, awesome relationship.

I'm sorry for your loss and your pain. Sending tons and tons of healing white light your way to help ease your pain.

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noreenz
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posted October 11, 2004 06:33 PM           Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
oh and I just realized you addressed this to Prox.......I read thinking you were inquiring as to her whereabouts and was gonna chime in........and then read your words and couldn't help reply

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astro junkie
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posted October 11, 2004 06:51 PM           Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Noreenz -

If you were aware of that thread and saw how I so loved (my dog) *EDTIED* and everything, that's OK. And by your most well thought out words, it brings me great joy to my heart that YOU UNDERSTAND. Everyone says their pets are exceptional, but this dog was off the charts. I'm still in disbelief that God blessed me with him.

I was just text messaging my dad to explain how last night (my dog) *EDTIED* and I discussed every detail of what his options were, and then I used some keywords which I repeated as I was helping him pass, so he was never afraid and knew we were going to help him. That's what I mean.

Thank you.

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proxieme
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posted October 13, 2004 06:41 AM           Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
aj -
I'm so sorry, and I'm so sorry that Cap'n Spunky's went through so much pain.

He truly sounds like he is (not was) an extraordinary being, and I truly am glad that he is now without pain and can now be free to watch over you as he once did.

Thank you very much for telling me of his condition.
If you need to talk about anything, I'm back home as of yesterday night so just let me know.

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astro junkie
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posted October 13, 2004 08:43 AM           Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Thanks Prox -

The doctor and I kept a very close eye on him, he said (my dog) *EDITED* was not in pain, just experiencing discomfort. Well - it's still extremely difficult to talk/write about, I've not stopped crying for a few days. I'm going to break down right now - so - OK - all has been said for now ... thank you ...

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FishKitten
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posted October 13, 2004 10:48 AM           Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Oh Gloria...that made me cry. Count one more Captain Spunky fan in the world.

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astro junkie
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posted October 13, 2004 11:33 AM           Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Thank you Fish Kitten -

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posted October 13, 2004 12:30 PM     Click Here to See the Profile for pixelpixie     Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Might as well sign me up for his fan club too.

I'm sorry.

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sthenri
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posted October 13, 2004 02:18 PM           Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Gloria, he sounds really special, I had a cat, for 14 years before he passed away at home with liver failure. It would have been better to end it the way you did, but I was 19, I didn't know.

I hope my cats now are with me for 12 years,
Take care of yourself now, I know you don't want to replace him, but spending time with animals can be therapeutic.


Natasha

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astro junkie
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posted October 13, 2004 05:00 PM           Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Thank you - I'm trying not to break down.

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puppyblew
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posted October 14, 2004 12:07 AM           Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
astro, my dear, i am so, so, sorry.
i had to make a tough desicion whether to put my cat down around this time last year. i said i would never do that to an animal, but i ended up doing it because i thought it was for the best. i too felt as if she was with me in the car on the ride home. i am sure Capt'n was with you as well.

i know how you feel about him not being like an animal, but being able to look into your soul. animals are amazing. i'm so glad you were able to talk it over with him about what to do and what he wanted. i know it will bring you alot of peace. maybe not now, but someday.

i know that animals that you are really close to often find ways to make you laugh even if they are not here in body. you just get a sense sometimes about something they would do, something that reminds you of them, something Aquarian! and you can't help but laugh and smile. i have no doubt that is there intention to make you laugh either!

i know it is a hard time for you right now, and i offer you all the love and support i can give.

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astro junkie
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posted October 14, 2004 05:03 AM           Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
Thank you -

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ScotScorp
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posted October 15, 2004 08:14 PM           Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
AJ-

I miss the wagging little tail;
I miss the plaintive, pleading wail;
I miss the wistful, loving glance;
I miss the circling welcome-dance.
--Henry Willett, "In Memoriam"

I'm so sorry about the passing of your furchild.

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astro junkie
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posted October 15, 2004 08:30 PM           Edit/Delete Message   Reply w/Quote
I know -

Thank you so much for your well-thought out expression. Everything is very true, and I was just saying how between graduating, dating again, falling in love, hearing back from Mr. T, a bitach Saturn on my azz, 4 hurricanes, these Libra Transits, and this - it's been quite a year. I think someone here once said, thank God for Lithium.

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