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Topic: The Need for Someone To Worship
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ariestiger unregistered
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posted January 26, 2005 05:59 AM
Mr. Aqua and I were having a conversation yesterday in which I realize that I form very strong attachments to people, almost idolizing them. I did it with both my parents, before they fell off their pedestals, ha ha. Actually, that's not funny, I got very distressed and disillusioned when that happened, when I found out they were not as wonderful as I thought, in fact, that they were quite unpleasant. But for a while I still idolized them, even though I secretly hated them. I was the same with Mr. Aqua in the early stages of our marriage, he was about 6 years older than I was and seemed so much more knowledgeable, and I looked up to him, I felt that he could protect me. He wasn't keen on my relationship with my parents, he thought it was unhealthy. This, until I ceased communicating with both of them, as I found them just too unpleasant for words. Six months after I had stopped communicating with my mother as well as my father, Mr.Aqua started physically abusing me and saying "you've got to be nice to me, I'm the only friend you've got". Instantly he fell off his pedestal and my love just plummeted. I think what he was doing was actually a symptom of his own depression at the time, he was projecting it onto me. I have since become more aggressive, so he knows I will not just take it, there is more of a balance of power. Actually, it was probably a good thing that what happened did, because it gave me more confidence in myself, I felt that I was the only person who I could ultimately rely on, and - of course - that's true. So the outcome wasn't all bad. But I do still have a tendency to idolize people, for example, I have an enormous crush on somebody, and I am trying to see the reality and not just an illusion. Of course, having a crush makes me feel wonderful. So do I ultimately need someone to worship? (Do we all?) My Neptune is in Sagittarius in the 3rd, if that's any help. I also have a ton of Pisces in my chart. LOL AriesTiger IP: Logged |
GingerB unregistered
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posted January 26, 2005 07:42 AM
I'd have to say from a Pisces perspective that these things are more than likely coming from the Pisces within you.I am a bit of a 'worshipper' as well. IP: Logged |
Yin Knowflake Posts: 1951 From: Registered: Apr 2009
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posted January 26, 2005 09:10 AM
I do (need someone to worship) I also think that it's my Neptune is Sag in my case conjuct SunIP: Logged |
pixelpixie Newflake Posts: 8 From: ON Canada Registered: Apr 2009
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posted January 26, 2005 10:26 AM
I feel similarily, but mine is less worship, more crush. I need to be actively crushing on someone, and living in illusion. It takes the edge off those normal things...makes them more palatable. I will crush madly on many, and love it to be reciprocted. (* Not necessarily physically) My Neptune is conjunct Venus in my fifth house, in Sagittarius.
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ariestiger unregistered
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posted January 26, 2005 10:32 AM
Hmmm, I think we're fairly unanimous about Neptune in Sag. Bob Marks seems to be pretty convinced of its effects, too IP: Logged |
trillian Newflake Posts: 0 From: Registered: Apr 2009
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posted January 26, 2005 10:38 AM
I'm with Pixie. I like having the crush.Otherwise, I like a man to worship me. On his knees. Where he belongs. IP: Logged |
trillian Newflake Posts: 0 From: Registered: Apr 2009
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posted January 26, 2005 10:41 AM
btw, ariestiger, I'm sure you've heard this before, but proceed with caution with Mr. Aqua. He physically abused you? This rarely happens only once. What an ugly thing to say/do to you. IP: Logged |
sthenri unregistered
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posted January 26, 2005 11:27 AM
I think I can worship anyone at all for a while, the sad thing is that it goes away on it's own, never to return. For me hate and love can not coexist, even with Venus in Aries, I feel one side has to win. Like you said Ariestiger, you learned to stand on your own, and so it was a growing experience with you. Now your lesson is to stand on your own AND be in love at the same time. New experience, independent woman in love. What do you want to do with him? Travel? live with him? If you do either it will take some of the illusion off which is a good thing, and then he can get to know you. Natasha
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ScotScorp unregistered
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posted January 26, 2005 12:51 PM
@ TrillianI have Neptune in Sag in the 4th. I do, like PP, have alot of crushes... and most of them return the interest. I'd say that was as close as I get to "worship" with anyone. Angela ------------------ Scorpio/Leo/Leo IP: Logged |
chrissymgreen unregistered
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posted January 26, 2005 02:17 PM
hey ariestiger, where's your 1862 apollo at?(you can use the extended chart selection on astro.com, and under asteroids just type in '1862' to find out.) http://www.geocities.com/SoHo/7969/apollo.htm just curious, it's something i've been interested in lately. i know someone right now whose apollo conjuncts my ascendant by 4°, and i worship this person absolutely. i'd be interested to know if you have natal apollo-personal planet contacts, like a conjunction or other aspect between apollo and your ascendant, moon, venus... sincerely, chrissy IP: Logged |
Atlantic Myst unregistered
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posted January 26, 2005 02:30 PM
Mr. Aqua and I were having a conversation yesterday in which I realize that I form very strong attachments to people, almost idolizing them. Same here
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virgotaurustaurus unregistered
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posted January 26, 2005 02:47 PM
I had a tendency to idolize, idealize, put people on pedestals...not so much lately though, I've been disillusioned thanks to a lot of things. i'm trying to get myself to view those I've viewed as having more power than me, on an equal level. I just had to reply, thought it interesting to see so many Neptune in Sag's saying yes to this, and I have Neptune in Sag as well! (8th house) IP: Logged |
pixelpixie Newflake Posts: 8 From: ON Canada Registered: Apr 2009
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posted January 26, 2005 02:48 PM
I think it's funny that everyone shortens my name to "PP" But that could just be the eight year old in me......... PP signing off. IP: Logged |
ariestiger unregistered
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posted January 26, 2005 05:28 PM
Hi Trillian,Don't worry, I AM on my guard with Mr Aqua!!! Now,when he shows the slightest hint of getting that way, I fly for him, and he's actually quite amazed. The thing is, his temper is so cool that when he really becomes enraged, you have no warning. I don't idolize him any more, I do try to keep a level head about him and me. At the same time I try to look for the positive sides to our relationship - when they do happen they are fantastic and I realize why I married him and I feel so incredibly close to him, but at other times I curse him like crazy. Counselling I have found to be enormously beneficial in terms of dealing with the relationship, I think it has prevented me from getting too angry at times and provoking him in turn/turning into a complete basket case. (Everyone on here must think Mr. Aqua and I have a really odd relationship!!) Natasha, I would like to have fun with him and enjoy his company. I don't really feel I want to put any pressures on him - or me. He has tons of creative energy, which totally invigorates me and gives me an inner glow, we can communicate about creativity in a way that I can't with Mr Aqua, who is not terribly creative. It is a tremendous, totally new experience for me. I do feel much stronger, more confident than when I fell for Mr. Aqua, I suppose because I am not looking for the same level, or type, of support. So I suppose I am at rather a crossroads at present. I also have to ask myself, do I WANT to remove all of the illusion? Is it an illusion at all? Is it really THIS GOOD?! IP: Logged |
trillian Newflake Posts: 0 From: Registered: Apr 2009
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posted January 26, 2005 06:59 PM
ariestiger, if you're safe and well, that's the most important thing. IP: Logged |
astro junkie unregistered
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posted January 27, 2005 12:03 PM
Without looking at this astrologically at first, I just tried to think of all the ways one might feel rewarded by crushing or idolizing someone. They are VAST and VARIED.It's interesting there are so many of the Neptune's in Sag. I never would have thought, but here it is ::: "Neptune in Sagittarius - This position gives the native a very strong interest in religion and folk-lore and from the latter point, mythology. The exploratory instinct and desire for travel will be intensified. This can manifest itself among both the physical channels in the desire for foreign travel and experience, and along psychic channels in the desire for developing the faculty of astrological insight. In general, the spirit of adventure will be very strong and this will draw out the enterprising side of the nature which can be either foolish or wise according to the aspects involved." ** What "foolish" may include is quite broad indeed! chrissymgreen -
Just in case - I think starting a NEW TOPIC on your original query about Apollo would be great! IP: Logged |
cristiname Knowflake Posts: 66 From: Earth. Welcome! Registered: Apr 2009
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posted January 28, 2005 02:23 PM
guys!there must be millions of people with Sag Neptune... that's NOT it! idealisation: Venus conj Sun Venus conj Mercury Mercury conj Sun
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ariestiger unregistered
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posted January 28, 2005 05:31 PM
Mercury CJ Sun!(ticks box) Plus, I'm wondering whether the Sag Neptune is a reflection of our typical readership IP: Logged |
sun-by unregistered
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posted January 28, 2005 05:43 PM
Like our moderator, Astro-Junkie, I have a Aquar. Sun- Scorp. Neptune square and tend to idealize and help-heal-inspire-improve-ennoble (Neptune) men (Sun)... my ideals, my vision of what this man COULD be are so clear and high that I literally love him up onto that pedastel... (until they're "fixed" and don't need me anymore... and move on-- remember writing that, AJ?) I never see what he IS, I always see what he COULD be... with a little love and assistance. IMHO Neptune is the culprit for a tendency to blur vision, to cross lines between hope and reality. Alice Baily and the Roscicrucians teach that devotees of gurus always have strong Venus placements. Venus wants to be devoted, to give herself up completely, total surrender for love. She sees only beauty and perfection, never foibles. IP: Logged |
moonshine unregistered
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posted January 28, 2005 06:47 PM
I'm a total idoliser.. it seems I have to believe whoever I am obsessing over that they are like God or something. If i have a crush on someone, my fantasies go haywire.. but when reality kicks in, the disapointment is too hard to take sometimes. (Pisces moon with mercury square neptune.)IP: Logged |
astro junkie unregistered
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posted January 28, 2005 07:29 PM
sun-by -Did you think I had an Aqua Sun? It's in Libra, just in case it got it mixed up ... IP: Logged |
sthenri unregistered
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posted January 28, 2005 07:48 PM
Try Neptune Opposite Sun!I think Venus trine Mercury can idealize, words, and flirtations, idolizing someone like a God is more Neptune, that can be beneficial in work, or a long term relationship or career with people. Look at Johnny Cash, think tenacious. The Sun wants to be seen, and Neptune drags in more people who help. There is a victim mentality sometimes, but if it's shown, to the world, it comes off as compassion. Compulsions are strong, loved ones can be addictions. But Venus aspects are shorter term, and less productive, more feel good. Loved ones are not addictions. I don't mind my Neptune opposition because I always find the best people that way who are tenacious, tough and wise to help me in my career which always lasts and lasts... I do not always like my Venus trine Mercury which makes me hear what I want to hear and fall in love with just any cutie. Natasha Taurus/6th opp Scorpio Neptune/12th IP: Logged |
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posted January 28, 2005 08:00 PM
I'm more of a crusher than a worshiper too. Venus 5th house opposite Neptune in Sagittarius. 'Fantasies Gone Wild'. I'm very good at deluding myself.I get crushes and find myself in a big fantasy world about them and what will happen with us. All the earth in me cant even keep that opposition of planets on the ground. Then reality strikes leaving me bewildered. "The psychic said he would have the initial 'B'......well his name begins with a 'P', maybe she got them mixed up. Those two letters DO look alike. I think his mother's maiden name began with a 'B'. Yes, that's it. It's him." Stuff like that. IP: Logged |
talktome unregistered
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posted January 28, 2005 08:46 PM
I believe my neptune is in sag, and yes I waste a lot of time idolizing certain people. I feel a bit stupid now oops!! ;-)IP: Logged | |