posted January 31, 2005 12:47 PM            

Anyway, I saw your pic and chart on Linda's Photo Shop, and you sparked my Scorpionic curiosity. I also have my Moon in the 1st, and I'm wondering what your own experience has been with this.

Also, how did you manage to post your chart (I'm not especially computer literate myself)?

You can find a pic of me on page 4, under "Isn't It Chironic". It's a couple of years old, but my look hasn't changed much since then. I'm gonna post some more recent ones pretty soon... I'll shut up now.

posted January 31, 2005 09:43 PM              

First house moon! It definitely has torn apart the triple earth stuff for me, I'm much more emotional/emotionally driven than a typical Virgo OR Taurus. That's the major thing I've noticed about the first house moon...oh and it seems like emotions are a huge part of who I am. Very volatile.

posted January 31, 2005 11:07 PM            

I think the volatility you experience is due particularly to the Scorpio energy; I'm thinking of Mars especially, but I'm sure that a Scorpio Jupiter Oppositioning the Ascendant doesn't temper matters very much. A close friend of mine has her Mars (Conjunct Venus!) in Scorpio..... You have my sympathies, seriously.

It's amazing how all the elements can come together. Remember, Earth Signs, like water signs, are Feminine. I wouldn't be surprised if the "typical Virgo or Taurus" were rather hard to find, but of course I get what you're saying.

Maybe Im just over-analyzing my chart, but damn if it doesn't seem like I have a strong balance of all four elements. For me, the problem is more one of knowing which element to rely upon in a particular instance. I tend to rely on my Air qualities a lot, -which is to say, sometimes too much. I'm good at detaching from sh--, but it can be a real weakness at times, when I need to really FEEL the truth of a thing. It's like, I feel it too deeply already, so I repress it, and detach, and its as if I never felt it at all. I need to remember it, a little bit at a time.

The 1st house Moon, for me, makes me really receptive. Pluto squaring the Asc is a tad much though. I get socially anxious like a m--f-- . I don't know how to filter out all the input from my environment. I don't know how to ground myself, whatever my Cappy Asc and Taurus IC, or my Saturn in Virgo may say.

I'm so afraid that people will misjudge me, because I'm so many things. I'm afraid, if I express one thing, I'll be taken for that alone. It's just that I reflect things (Moon again) so starkly. I can be anyone, and its impossible to know "who I really am". But that must be all the Aquarian-Uranian energy. It all blends in my subconscious, who can say where Water ends and Air begins for me.

Despite the "fatherly" Cappy Asc, my Moon Conjunction to Juno gives me a (deceptively?)boyish look. I don't know if I'm a wiseman or a fool. I feel proud and ashamed of my Scorpio nature, of the things I can't help but see and know. I don't mean (or maybe I don't know how) to sound so dramatic.

I knew this kid who was really aggressive. He was an Aries who never had a steady father. He had a curious relationship with me. He resented the fact that he couldn't hide his affection for me. (I later came to suspect that much of it was homo-erotic.) He didn't know whether to respect or despise me, so different was my manner from his. In any case, I could have a really calming influence on him. I was just about the only person who liked him. Anyway, this one time, some complicated interaction was going on, and, I hugged him, and he looked at me all primal-like, and I asked him, "would you have respected me more if I had hit you?," and he totally broke-down, and (even though much of it was dramatized - as he really didn't know how to experience such realizations in front of others) something definitely clicked for him. He was like, "Yeah, oh my god, I totally would!"... It was cool.

I just posted my chart. I think it worked.
Thanx.

Steve