posted April 05, 2005 08:29 PM              

How are the Knowflake Geminis doing before their birthdays in May/June?

posted April 05, 2005 10:26 PM              

I am doing ok, good at times and not so good at times,

I am fearing this birthday though, there is something horrible coming up I just can feel it,

Im so torn Natasha and your words would be so helpful just about now,

I am falling for this man who I like very much, I know he likes me but I have kept him at a distance because I was afraid of falling for him, now its happening and I'm about half ecstatic and half hysterical with fear because although the two of us are the same religion, sect even, and have very similar views on politics etc. , and get along great (we were friends prior to this , its been about 6 months or so), he is from a different country than I am,

I know this sounds silly, for most Americans it is silly because they are such a wonderfully diverse people,

it is not forbidden in my religion to marry across national lines or color lines in fact one may say its encouraged since a religious figure has done that in our history,

but I know my mother will go ballistic and never speak to me again, shes the only family I have left, and more importantly what concerns me more is that I'm the only family she has left, she is alone and sad, after my brother leaving her, my sister moving to new york, her divorce, and her brothers not speaking to her either,

I would only get with this man if he seriously commits to marrying me, Im not sure what the chance of it is, but I know its probable, I know he is big on commitment and not a player, and likes me lots,

the whole cultural community I live in would probably excommunicate me as well, and I love socializing in my community, the people in the community who do support me would probably not be strong enough to rally enough support to meet me after this , because they are fewer than the narrow minded majority who is against it.

To make matters worse, I know his family would also throw a fit, his father passed away and mother is very narrow minded, but thankfully he is not like my ex husband who was wrapped around his mommas pinky, this guy has a mind of his own and will take a stand for what he believes right, or so it SEEMS,

should I take a gamble? should I get with him? After very long, after the last Leo I was with, have I felt this way about anyone at all,

If i do go for it, he may not be ready to commit for a serious relationship, or maybe I am misreading his interest, it is infatuation or attraction or flirtation? Then I will be dumped by everyone I know as well as not in a relationship with him

Should I give it a try and ruin a friendship if it doesnt work out?

Should I give it a try and keep it secret if it does work out, until he is ready to commit?

The point isnt that there aren't possibilities, afterall I am a Gem/Scorp, my mind is completely diabolical, I am a combo of the two most diabolical and feared and misunderstood signs of the zodiac

I can think of plenty of options, I just don't know which one is 'right'. This is driving me nuts because I used to know what is 'right', what is ethical.

It is not a matter of ethics even but feasibility. I do like this man lots, I am pretty sure I dont love him yet, I am deeply attracted to him and want this to develop into something serious and I know that if he says yes or likes me similarly it will blossom to love faster than anything.

BUT I dont want to put everything on stake and end up losing the past in chase of a future which turns out to be a mirage.

Any advice?

As for how I feel before my birthday, besides this, I have a pending job offer, I am still working on this woman who interviewed me, calling her and sending her nice emails with hope she has not made up her mind yet and will take me, its an excellent job, it is like my dream job, I am willing to commute 40 miles back n forth three days a week plus school and 2 other jobs to do this, I really hope I get it!

If I get the job, I will feel confident and ready to face summer, otherwise it will be another ho hum birthday, I am glad Im getting older, the 20s are the best time ever,

but I want to freeze this and the next few years, I dont want to hit the big three-O,

that will definitely depress me, as you know Gems are young at heart always but it would help to be young in the real sense as well

posted April 05, 2005 10:33 PM              

Your birthday will come before mine,

what are your thoughts? What came of your residence problem? I really hope to God that you dont have to move in with your horrid ex, he is really a pain in the buttox,

do you feel more hopeful or cautious of the coming month? do you think it will bring you good luck, prosperity? what do you think of the upcoming aspects for yourself?

how has your love life been lately, any news about the leo, or did you give him the ultimatum? Leos can get so uncomfortable with ultimatums, they get a taste of their own medicine with that and realize how bitter it can be

let me know, I would hope things would get turn-around miraculous wonderful for you, I am glad Im a summer birthday, it is an energetic season, its not so hard to be hopeful in June as it is in September,

I like my birthday being in June, I feel that half the year is gone, was I good or bad, I evaluate myself and if I feel I wasn't good enough (which has always been the case to date), I dont let myself despair because I say, I have just as much time (6 months, the rest of the half of the year) to put aright what I didnt in the first half or 6 months.

you will have even more, you will have the 5-7 month ratio. I know you can do it, you have strength, and a unique ability to create positive change, consider yourself an angel in todays world

posted April 06, 2005 01:07 AM              

So I'd say I'm feeling like I'm living in a loony bin at the present moment and my brain's been torn in thousands of tiny pieces and shattered across the universe. I haven't been eating well either, and I'm losing weight *fast*, which is good, if it weren't the fact that it's due to having *no* appetite and being *very* stressed.

This is particularly frustrating since I have many things I need to get done including what I'm doing for you, Nat, which in fact I have right here in front of me...well, in the other window on my PC. First one of the files didn't want to convert...so I have eat my flippant remarks about how Merc RX doesn't affect me...and I had to update my program. Now I'm just overwhelmed with trying to put it all together coherently, which is why I stopped in here for a little break. It was either that or go to eBay and compulsively bid on crap I don't need.

And god, the moon's in Pisces right now and it's 11 PM, and all I want to do in curl up in bed with my cats and fall asleep listening to Joy Division on the headphones so I can have one of my dreams where Ian Curtis and me talk about poetry and how silly people are.

I think my blood sugar's low - I'm hearing a ringing sound in my ears and I'm rather loopy right now, aren't I? I should eat something I suppose. *sigh* I just don't think I'm going to get this done tonight, Nat. Tomorrow, I swear. Tomorrow!! Don't hate me, please...ok, you can hate me little, not too much OK? When the moon's in Pisces I tend to be a crybaby.

posted April 06, 2005 01:37 AM              

thats SO strange, I have been losing weight like crazy these past two weeks, everyone who's seen me has said that, my jeans that i bought about 3 weeks ago are now so loose that they almost fall down really (NO exaggeration) its kind of crazy, i have been doing no exercise and no dieting but just eating less because i dont feel like it i guess

when i get stressed or sad or lonely off to get tea and coffee i go and i drink tea and coffee and water by the freaking gallons, maybe thats increasing my metabolism and making me lose weight

anyhow it is all very strange,

hearing about ur program and all i am now paranoid, i have a presentation on the 12th of april upon which rests this job offer i have so been dying to get, i am going to print out all my research ASAP and the relevant emails to avoid anything, like the printer which btw jus got jammed (grrrrr)

posted April 06, 2005 03:51 AM              

a chubby lil girl like myself would melt to a puddle of transfat in the dubai desert heat, only to evaporate in pakistan's humid heat that sticks to your body never to leave you alone

*shudders*

hard to believe i grew up there now! hehe im a spoiled little brat!

btw sana u look wonderfully graceful in a sari! i jus saw ur pic online in LL photoshop.

thanks for ur encouragement I think we need it mercury rx is making everyone so negative nowadays!

*kicks self*

yeah thats funny you said about the activity, i am doing a lot of bellydance nowadays, polishing on my bellydancin skills hehehe

btw your cat has some impressive typing skills there....

posted April 06, 2005 08:19 AM              

Otherwise your nervous systems will overload. GN, I know how it is with other people's crisis, but you have to stop suffering in your mind.

And for both of you, these are true words by Shakespeare, a Gemini moon:
To be, or not to be: that is the question:
Whether 'tis nobler in the mind to suffer
The slings and arrows of outrageous fortune,
Or to take arms against a sea of troubles,
And by opposing end them. To die: to sleep;
No more; and by a sleep to say we end
The heart-ache, and the thousand natural shocks
That flesh is heir to, 'tis a consummation
Devoutly to be wish'd. To die, to sleep;
To sleep: perchance to dream

The challenge is dreaming, suffering, waking, sleeping, all at once, wouldn't it be better to just suffer? Or just end it? But instead life is a big boiling pot of trouble with no end in sight?

GN, stop taking on other people's problems, especially those revolving around sex, love, work, or money, because then you feel drained. If someone wants to take you to a movie or buy you a drink, or something, then they can unload. If I was there I would offer at least. But there are takers and givers, and you are a giver, and it's easy to be bitter about these subjects. It's not what people do it's what they say, and then your mind has to suffer the slings or their misfortunes.

It's all an illlusion. Troubles. I know you can't sleep but try and suffer them physically with a friend, don't suffer them in your mind anymore.

SG, look at the conflict in your mind, I would say it's not worth it if you are really hurting over the decision, because then you will feel trapped, but how much do you want to make the decision on your own? Do you think the Leo has anything to say that could change your mind? Ask the Leo how he feels about such a situation where you two are together and ask yourself if you like his answers, it's not love yet, but you have to love him. With your Venus in Aries, it must be love or nothing, no in between. And again, sex, money, work isn't a consideration

Geminis, a trick to gaining weight
resistance, ride a bicycle rather than walking, carry something heavier than normal, weights, eat lean protein, steaks, fish, sushi, no coffee.

For too much mental energy-clean out a closet, move, pack, sort, get rid of junk, get your haircut, your psyche will thank you too. Then go outside and paint, sit in a park, draw, bicycle, go to a lake. Avoid small children.

I am moving and that makes me feel better, someplace brighter and lighter with more yard. Then this summer I plan to spend all of it in nature, and spend as little money as possible on others. I will not talk to anyone about money, or sex and if one wants to he can take a hike.

I would rather throw myself into the ocean, then suffer all the little indignities of life, but then I think there is strength in numbers.

Take Care,
Hugs and Kisses,
Natasha

posted April 06, 2005 03:35 PM              

I was only being open and spontaneous when I posted that last night. Yes, I was tired, and yes, my life isn't prefect, and sure I was feeling frazzled. Yet being a Gem, not only am I prone to occasions of hyperbole and silliness, I am also very resiliant and resourceful. I do know how to find the space I need, and I do know the difference between being a giver and a doormat. So please, back off. Now. All that advice and stuff about relieving stress - I'm OK with that, but I'm not "suffering in the mind" over these things and I'm not trying to take on other people's problems...at least not how a Tau-Can with Sco influences would think of it. I can draw boundaries and refuse to take on anymore crap when I need to, and I'm drawing the line right here.

While I have had a lot coming at me since I got back from my trip, I know it comes and goes. And unlike someone more emotionally driven like you, I can get a good night rest, brush off yesterday's stress and jump back into the game. I've had a lot of practice at this with the life I've lived.

Plus, I don't think you're in the position to be giving me that kind of advice with the things you've been struggling with recently. I'm very aware of your passive-aggressive tendencies and that you prefer to transfer aggression over one person/situation to easier, safer targets. Don't mistake me for one. And most definitely, do not confuse me with a certain other Gemini. We are very, very different people.

posted April 06, 2005 11:09 PM              

I don't know where the slings and arrows came from, I think that is more for SG.

It's not necessary to work hard on anything for me, it would make me feel guilty anyway, and that's just the way I operate. I appreciate your work, but I can be aggressive on my own and easily handle the anger that other Gemini caused by simply hating him if I want to. I do not find reasons to feel guilty about my feelings towards him. he doesn't deserve much else right now.

I don't blame him for being what he is, but being angry at him is normal and I do that as much as possible-it's healthy for me and that's enough. Being truthful emotionally, about him, hurts him enough because it is the truth. If I was sarcastic or took it out on others he wouldn't feel my anger anyway and stay away, for that reason I am into focusing.

I am not into mothering or being protective around women, except ones that are family or like family. And usually I have male friends not female ones, so I do not how to mother women that well.
That maybe the issue, as my post was more dry protective. But dry is not angry.

This post was for the Geminis on this board, and Gemini Moons, Venus,
I have a couple of Gemini Moon and Venus friends and they are swamped with work.

posted April 06, 2005 11:35 PM            

Well, GemNymph, since you covered all the bases, literal and implied in that post of yours, I will be true to form and call you on the harshness of that post.
Maybe you are reading far too much into something very harmless.
Maybe because you 'do not like mothering', (as we are apparently intuitively supposed to know. ) you are highly defensive about someone giving you advice. Couldn't you just have said.. Thank you for your concern, and leave it at that?
You answered her question in the first place.
To analyse someone in such a demoralizing fashion isn't intelligent, it isn't psychic, it isn't warranted and frankly, you need to hike up those EQ scores, or just stick to putting people down through your knowledge of Astrology, which is sublime and well learned, but way one sided and predjudiced, yet somehow easier to swallow than you handing someone who comes on here to help ( whether it be a way YOU respond to or not, it is something she does,)her psyche according to you, in a very unfavourable light.

Please, stick to Astrology, you are mean in spirit, and I say this after posting on the same board as you for a while, reading your posts with interest ( because you ARE interesting) and perhaps I say it with the same intent as you did in assessing another, but I suppose as you found ways to justify it, so have I.

Intelligence is not an excuse for ignorance.

posted April 07, 2005 02:37 AM              

my playstation2 lens got fried up,so thats gone too....but I think its a good thing or I would have been playing grand theft auto all the time.....while most of my friends are doin job interviews I'm still tryin to clear my exams...really hoping for something to change cause nothin I do seems to be working,well I'm gonna put my heart and soul into these exams(I've even switched off my cell phone while).

Well my birthdays on june 19th in summer...well there is really no difference between summer and winter here...

summer->very very hot
winter->very hot with a lil rain
well it's been surprisingly cool here during the last 2 days..but before that it was a burning inferno....

posted April 07, 2005 02:39 AM              

Natasha, I will put in that I dont think you are motherly but rather kind of like a 'teacher' if you know what I mean, sometimes I feel like that from your posts but for me its definitely a GOOD thing because your words are so calm and wise, they make everyone feel like your the teacher here, it is not an insult but a compliment coming from me, you better believe it

I am trying to not make the decision on my own. I dont want to make the decision and then say later, I regret this because I could have done it differently. I am going to see how committed he is to me, if he proposes then I will have to think about it but right now Im fine jus being myself, knowing that he likes me somewhat and treasuring it,

btw I think the way I wrote the other post sounded like he is a Leo but he's not a Leo, I dont know what his sign is!

Yes I know its shocking! But for once I actually decided NOT to ask his sun sign or date of birth, I will find out soon enough, he hasn't told me yet if his birthday came sometime in the last 6 months so I dont know if it passed and he didnt mention it or it is yet to come, but we'll see.

For once, I didnt want to know his sign, I Wanted to see if I would fall in love with him just as he is and without any prior judgements on his character, and whether I can feel the spark physically, emotionally, communicatively, and whether it will last. Now undoubtedly I Will find out sooner or later, esp if we get into a relationship and I have to remember his birthday, but I am thinking of a way of averting that, by giving him a present at the beginning of the 'season' his birthday comes in, or even the month, and have him not tell me the date.

Yes I know its a little crazy but I want it to be that way for right now. As much as I tell myself that I Will only try to understand and compromise with the persons disposition as per their chart, I form judgements and use past trends to evaluate the relationship from there on. Now I haven't had probs with it before, I mean I suffered one bad relationship with a Leo and went on to have two more with Leos, Ive had a marriage end with a Virgo and am still open to Virgos, but I Dont want to change my behavior or attitude about him based on his sign and I Want to keep it that way!

What do you say about it Natasha? Looniness? Should I find out what his sign is?

posted April 07, 2005 09:49 AM              

Pixie, thanks for the spirited defense, now you are motherly. I like the spirit of your post, I was irritated at how long GN's reply was, but she also knows more about my psyche than most, as I asked her to do a reading for me.

As for anger, it's out and driving me to get more work done.

Back to Geminis,

posted April 08, 2005 01:39 AM              

i got a seat in a very good college for mba so i m a very very happy girl...merc retro delayed the results considerably but alls well that ends well...so going out now to celebrate...

sana

posted April 08, 2005 02:23 AM              

He's very sweet, kind, loyal and caring, my rough guesses are: Aries or Cancer. That sounds like two weird opposite guesses but thats what I am feeling from him, although its probably WRONG because Im such a bad guesser/reader of sun signs.

lol Im applying for mba this fall sana, wish me luck, im here in US so i have to take the GMAT! grrr, its a dumb test doesnt test business related stuff at all , just like the SAT actually, but I Have to do really well if I Wanna stay in the college Im in (its a really respected sort of ivy league) I really hope I get in!

Wow so you finally got the positive results after delay, right? I had been waiting on a call back from this great company I interviewed with and the woman got back to me after like three weeks (!), I had literally given up, she called me in for a second interview now! So lets see how it goes hopefully I'll get it, this Merc retrograde is really pushing things back and making it difficult to succeed

posted April 08, 2005 01:17 PM              

Sometimes our logic becomes so logical, that we can tie ourselves up in knots with it. Then we have to logically figure out how to UNknot ourselves. I think this happens to all of us. Consider that although no one here is perfect, most of us give it our best. Consider that some people are able to work out their own problems by helping others. This is healthy as long as it is not an attempt to detract from our own inadequacies.