posted May 03, 2005 08:20 PM              

I can be a little flaky sometimes .

... and if you remember, I'm a Gemini Rising

Try not to get worked up about it. That's a waste of your energy.

Just blow it off... well... just how cute is he???

posted May 03, 2005 08:27 PM              

He never calls, even tho hes the one who officially declared us to be 'together'. He never calls or emails. He comes online and talks and we meet up every now and then. When I call him he sounds ultra excited and happy but he never initiates it himself.

GRRR.

I felt the same way. so i called it off for a while coz i thot he was ignoring me and didn't really care as much as i did. but then we both realized we like each other too much, he promised to change, but of course he is fixed and can only try!

posted May 03, 2005 10:19 PM            

Thanks ladies.....I love my airy wenches!! You libras are so supportive! And geminis alwasy have good related anecdotes

posted May 05, 2005 03:18 AM              

ive actually been in a relationship with someone to later discover that this guy had more than 20 girls--and hes the same one that told me to get my wedding dress made coz he was sending his parents over in december to do the formal proposal process (of course he never showed up and ditched me, to tell me that hes marrying someone else). one girl in every other state, a few abroad. when he went to london he'd stay with one, then in UAE it was a different one, in new york, a different one, and so on. He STILL does this and he has a wife back home too! (hes a Leo with Aqua moon). God i got SOOOOOO mad i wanted to kill him seriously. and thats a big thing for me ok, im a scorp moon and i EXACT MY REVENGE. gosh ive never been so mad at anyone in my LIFE. what a liar that man turned out to be! grr. just thinking about it is making me mad again. lol

But anyways back to the double Aqua here, yeah Im getting more resentful about it nowadays. technically we're officially together, as he defined us. but im beginning to think hes just in it for the physical oomph, or the flirtation. im going to start looking around again....find someone i like better hopefully, or that cares more about me. this guy has me in knots. i seriously had forgotten how much anger can disturb my peace of mind, but he just reminded me again.

but on the other hand we complement each other so well in terms of compatibility. sheesh i wish this guy had his head on straight and could see love....i know he feels it but is just not willing to admit to it and consequently commit and do all the things that go along with the unwritten code of relationships. sometimes, or most of the time i give him the benefit of doubt--of just being flakey and forgetful.

but today im a little bit more serious....i called him up coz im supposed to be visiting him in july. i ask him if he can let me know what airport is closest to his house again coz i forgot and what time is convenient for him so i can finalize this flight fare and he says im a little busy can i call u in a bit ? (i hear ppl in the background so im thinking hes out somewhere), i say sure, and of course no call. i come home and hes online, but he leaves after a while...with no message for me... as usual.

so im thinking that means 'not interested'. now he could be pulling the typical aqua thing. and just forgetting, or not realizing how much this means to me, and not meeting the deadline. but hes obviously not SO busy as to not find time for human contact--afterall he DOES get out and hang out with PEOPLE (the same people i heard on the phone???) i know he hangs with the guys every friday night, and so on, so WHY cant he find time for me????

to my scorp moon, the simple answer is: hes not serious about me.

my gem sun interrupts and says: oh shove that scorp moon up someone elses arse already. it always gets u into emotional drama. just go with the flow and dont get too emotional and see how it goes....

then my libra asc and venus in aries screams: but i want passion! i want commitment! i want some signs of LTR here!

sighs.

posted May 05, 2005 05:18 AM              

i think he called me an hour ago, the 2 minutes that i actually get up and away from my desk to go to the bathroom i get a call....GREAt....and of course i miss it. and he doesnt bother to call again.

im not getting the ticket...just the possibility that he might forget to pick me up or may not meet me is so heartbreaking that i dont want to risk it. it would be so deeply wounding, it may even make me cry, and i hate crying in front of ppl !

yes he has been taking me for granted....we already broke up once and then got back together coz we both wanted to be together...but even during that time he didnt call or email me 'more than usual'. he was his normal aloof self...

and when i broke up with him that time (temporarily) i said, is it ok if we're just friends and i hadnt even explained why yet, he says 'ok' without listening to any more. that was a shocker oh boy. later on when we got back together he said he thought it was coz i was dating someone else...or rather he thot that was the understood implication of that qs. since when is that the understood implication of it?? couldnt there be a million reasons to back off from a relationship? i tihnk this guy is just really dense and flakey. of course there is the chance that he is really manipulative and flirtatious on purpose...but i think id rather not entertain that notion...

sweetlibra im curious to know, how did u 'give up' on ur ex? did u tell him it was off? did u just back up quietly ?

i dont know im so lonely right now! i hope it'll pass by the morning...but believe me, it was even lonelier when i broke up with him, i was constantly thinking about him and kicking myself and wishing that he would care about me and we could get back together...sigh. so im not going to make the mistake of officially calling it off again i think

ur an aqua mooner too? any insight into what uve read about it that u think totally fits ur personality/emotions?

posted May 05, 2005 07:57 AM              

I feel alarmed SG..! the same thing happened with me also. we broke up once and got back together after 3 months for GOd knows why (back then i thought it was love. but now i think it was for physical intimacy)
i can see many parallels between us

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sweetlibra im curious to know, how did u 'give up' on ur ex? did u tell him it was off? did u just back up quietly ?
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Last time we met, we had a gr8 time on bed(I must say heavenly and i dont think i can feel that with anyone else) and just when i thought this was meant forever, he behaved badly in restuarant as if nothing touched him. He criticized right from my upbringing and my independent spirit etc. He reminded me how my life will be as his wife.That was the first time i woke up from my dream. I thought it was better to mourn for the relationship than have him and not to want him anymore.
He didnt call me for one month after that. Not even text messages. I felt like i was used.
For the first time i also stopped contacting him.
Then i changed my mob no and didnt give him the new no.
Suddenly after 2 months he appeared in my office( he was working in another city) and wanted to meet me.
I denied to meet him. he gave thousands of explanations as why did he behave so.
something was like 'dont i have that much intimacy with u to behave that way'..!
My answer is NO. I finally realised i wanted someone who have empathy. someone who wont take advantage of my love.
I was able to end the relationship as i gave my 100% and still it didnt work out.
I have no regrets. It was a learning experience

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i dont know im so lonely right now! i hope it'll pass by the morning...but believe me, it was even lonelier when i broke up with him, i was constantly thinking about him and kicking myself and wishing that he would care about me and we could get back together...sigh. so im not going to make the mistake of officially calling it off again i think
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i can totally relate with u SG. Only God knows how i am resisting his pleas and manipulations now.
He never cared to reply my mails and now replying to those 1 yr old mails.
He's even accusing me of leaving him for money.
I dono how my love for him died.
All i can say is ask ur aqua to be clear in his feelings. Dont be afraid of rejection/loneliness.
I never though i can come out of this relationship. My scorpio mars& venus made it very difficult. But i came out and happier than i ever was in those 3.5 years with my ex

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ur an aqua mooner too? any insight into what uve read about it that u think totally fits ur personality/emotions?
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SG, i'll reply to this tomorrow.. time to go