posted May 19, 2005 08:21 AM              

In the last month or so I feel that I've experienced not exactly a turnaround, but a couple of giant steps. One issue I've mused on is the issue of "happiness", another is the issue of people being patronizing! No, seriously, I get that a lot, whether it's to do with being small, blonde, winsome and female, I don't know - but it seems to be particularly my parents' generation, I'm not sure they know they're doing it half the time! They are often perfectly nice people otherwise - but this is their blind spot!!!

So I am looking at my own actions more closely, and hoping I am not being too patronizing with other people. I had to roar at somebody only today because they sent me a couple of emails a few days ago, which frankly could have been worded differently...I was upfront about it with them and told them to be more diplomatic in future!!! I need to put people in their place, they can't feel they can walk all over me like that.

Everybody sees me as a child for some reason; they talk to me as if I were 5 years old! I don't know why this should be. I have a fairly youthful "vibe", but I almost feel it's time to "get mean" so they know I can't be controlled or pushed around. Maybe I just look vulnerable. I don't know. I look fey and "ethereal", so perhaps everyone assumes that that must be my character.

I've got a very "heavy" chart with Sun/Merc in the 8th, Saturn CJ Mars (Gemini) in the 10th and Pluto in the 1st. Also Moon/Venus/Jupiter in Pisces in the 6th.

I don't know whether this is significant but I'm feeling something on the scale of an earthquake roll...constantly. Grumblings and rumblings.

LOL

AriesTiger

posted June 01, 2005 12:37 PM              

Yes! But I couldn't find any common placements with you. As far as what had been bothering you, from the info you provided (which was an insightful selection on your part), I'd say it's a combination of it bothering you that people expect more from you, then you becoming critical of yourself, and then sort of lashing out in your own way.

#1 - don't let it bother you as much

#2 - know you are capable of more and others see that in you - leave it at that

(easier said than done)