posted May 31, 2005 08:47 PM            

Its good that you're seeking medical attention it sounds like a practical thing to do. Make sure you follow through.

Tell us if you are having thoughts of harming yourself and/or others.

posted June 01, 2005 02:25 AM            

SD, we may not have been there before, but rest assured we've all been to our own dark places. It's not fun, and sometimes it seems like it will never end. But always remember that moods are like astrological transits, they have dips and peaks, and the lowest lows only last a few moments.

posted June 01, 2005 03:32 AM            

Tomorrow youll be fine.

Everything happens for a reason.

Chill out.

Look after yourself.

when i start to think like that i inevitably get ill, shocked and surprised i snap out of it.
You might consider stopping work if youre to depressed/stressed to go, try and get a sickness benifit?

With love it doesent matter what you do.

Do nothing; then love comes.

There is always someone here for you.

You are always loved.

What would you do for free?
-leads to love.

Take something you enjoy, and you will be rewarded.

Do something you like doing.

Ive just started painting with cheap acrylics.

I call it emotional landscape.
no form, ideas, goal, purpose- anything!

just colours and usage, BTW you only need 5 colours to make any colour, remember.

I assume that ME will come thru in my art, and literally It doesent matter what you do, SO what can you do, when nothing will do?
Who cares, just do what you feel like.

get the idea?

Do what you feel like.

We all have our off days, and it is with those we are able to recognise problems and make changes.

I dont know why it is that Im here, either.
It seems that I need not contribute anything to this world.

But with love of painting I would feel fine about selling it too.

Do you understand?

god answers before you even think about asking.

you have everthing you could ever need.

Be happy thats all, live forever.

Love.

posted June 01, 2005 10:07 AM              

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posted June 02, 2005 08:21 AM            

"What about purple paper? I asked myself"

posted June 02, 2005 11:33 AM              

i too get in that same " i feel deprest i solated and paranoid ,what i do is go work sleep eat and same thing alwover again,its not like evrybody else does this too" rut too but if i think deeply enough, this is the way i present myself for whatever reason and i know what the reasons are which i'm sure you probably do too (aka if i let it consume me that one of my eyes are bigger than the other), in your case, but your reasons may not make sense (especially if you think others are much more judgmental than yourself and just won't tolerate the "reasons" and you let that take precedence over the way you treat yourself, others and your environment) to the reactions you are getting from your environment and the people in it. That's because for whatever your reasoning for being this way, it doesn't justify how you think the environment and the people in it's reaction should be or how you want to implement yourself in your environment and those "close" to you or maybe you just want your environment and the people in it to respect the fact that " i feel deprest i solated and paranoid ,what i do is go work sleep eat and same thing alwover again,its not like evrybody else does this too" every once in a while.

when " i feel deprest i solated and paranoid ,what i do is go work sleep eat and same thing alwover again,its not like evrybody else does this too" this is the opportunity to ascertain your greatness, shuffle through it, reject it, indulge in it by mentally building on it (through visuals or what have you - like you are making your own movie of you) so much that you shake it off until the next time you "meet", or whatever the case may be which makes you feel "drained" of it by the time you are out of the space you immerse yourself in, in order to be convinced that you are "i feel deprest i solated and paranoid ,what i do is go work sleep eat and same thing alwover again,its not like evrybody else does this too", like something is so wrong with you - that if you expose it, that if you say that it's not as bad as you say/believe it is, that if you don't fix it the way YOU want to fix it, that you will fail because of it. this may or may not be your thinking.

Not to mention, when you are " i feel deprest i solated and paranoid ,what i do is go work sleep eat and same thing alwover again,its not like evrybody else does this too" there is something else going on too filling in that space which you don't know how to deal with/through...........try to enjoy it and see how that goes, if that's possible.

Regardless, just putting that out there because i feel this way sometimes too minus suicidal. not before accomplishing some of those flashes of greatness during those " i feel deprest i solated and paranoid ,what i do is go work sleep eat and same thing alwover again,its not like evrybody else does this too" I won't - why waste that?

posted June 02, 2005 09:15 PM            

You have such a generous spirit and I am so proud and grateful that you have touched me with your oh-so-positive energies! And I'm thinking that your powers are indeed strong and well-tuned and becoming even more focused, and your magic wand is working in my life!!! And look what happened with your Libra-in-the-pub fella.....confirmation that your light is shining brighter and brighter, even though I can't see you, except in my minds' eye -- but when I read your words I feel your sElf! Shine on, girleen!

sd ~

Please open up a channel and let sue g's words of light and power touch you. I suspect some tough transiting planets -- maybe if you post a message to Happy Dragon the Transits Guru he may take a look at your chart.....

{{hugs}}
'Zala