posted July 06, 2005 10:23 PM
Bleakbeauty ~What a sad name you gave yourself. Have you considered using something more positive? Would you be OK with posting your natal stats so people here could take a look at your chart? I have no intention of hurting your feelings with the following, just want to ask some questions to see if we can help and get to the root of your angst.
TP gave you some good links on the North and South Nodes, generally/briefly I like to think of them as “future” and “past”. Do you have the time and patience to delve into these and really search out the truth, and the answers to the questions you pose?
You are “sensitive to other people” how? As in taking everything too seriously? As in looking for hidden meanings/double meanings in what they say? As in being “touchy”?
Yes, you’re not alone, many people lose sleep when they “think too much”. What is it that’s on your mind that is unresolved and keeping you awake? Can you distill this down and figure out what your main issues are?
bb, can you pinpoint what it is that is really causing your anger? Are you dealing with some abandonment/rejection issues? Could you please define “intolerance”? I’m certain you realize if that’s what you send out into the world, then that’s what will come back to you.
What was the reason you began reading Star Signs? What do you hope to get out of astrology and the other philosophies in the book? About your daughter, 2-4 years old is a challenging age to deal with. I am a single mom with a 9-year-old son, and I remember it clearly. I thought I was going to lose my mind, but somehow I found the patience to just take it one hour at a time, one day at a time, and we both lived through that age! ” How do I be patient and not lose my temper when she constantly makes mess and destroys things and disobeys me?” Kids make messes. Kids need to learn how to clean those messes up. The way to work with this age group is repetition. I know it gets really old repeating and repeating yourself. Withholding of privileges/treats etc is the best way to deal with disobeying. Just a question here, and I’m not trying to make you mad, I’m trying to help you see clearly: If you ” boil over with anger and I want to let loose by destroying things” then how can you expect your little girl to cope with her feelings any differently? You are her only example of adult behavior (I’m assuming). ” I'm also resentful because I have no peaceful time, and I want to do so many things and achieve my goals.” She must still take naps? That, and when she’s asleep at night, are your only peaceful time, since you have no tag-team partner to give you a break, and you have to accept that and work around it. Do you have a babysitter that you can rely on from time to time to get out and do adult things? It’s no wonder that you are angry and resentful if you don’t get to recharge your own batteries outside your home.
What are your goals? Can you sign up for any parenting classes thru your local Family Resource Centers, or Dept of Social and Health Services, etc?
Yes Sun conjunct Mercury is an excellent aspect. Please come back if you have questions/comments.
‘Zala
PS: Have you read this thread? http://www.linda-goodman.com/ubb/Forum1/HTML/005545.html
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