posted August 28, 2005 02:38 PM              

Second, I was struck by His poor Moon opposite iron fisted Saturn (I have this as a square and actually it's not fun but the square almost gives the "victim" a bit more sympathy...I go in my shell and pretty much stay there because I do not wish to be hurt by anyone. On the other hand this guy attracts or pursues those who don't love him in the least bit(you). The second paragraph is most telling:

Relationships can prove problematic. You find difficulty letting down your emotional drawbridge to others, and struggle to express feelings. Sometimes embryonic relationships are destroyed by your allowing previous relationship experiences to interfere, by prejudging people according to past disillusionments. Emotions are protected; and this can prevent intimacy from developing. Older partners may attract, as may those who display a maturity which you believe you lack.

Be careful of becoming dependent on others. It may be inevitable that you fall in love with someone who displays affection but not love for you. This leaves you emotionally vulnerable; and powerful but painful feelings are encountered. Such experiences could prove uncomfortable and traumatic, yet releasing emotions is the healthiest action. If a relationship develops, then you may become less defensive, and your hidden potential may unfold with a loving partner.

posted August 28, 2005 02:50 PM              

There can be a blind spot in your character that is often unrecognised, and is related to the sign and house positions of Jupiter and Neptune. Whilst you may fail to fully comprehend your own nature and what you 'should be doing', you still express yourself forcefully and with a tendency to be authoritarian. Yet you also often challenge the dictates of those in positions of authority, questioning their perceptions and rights to wield power. There is less of a social awareness and conscience here with this aspect, as most of the energy is tied up in an external uneasiness; you do not have any great trust in the good nature of others, which, whilst possibly more realistic, is also symptomatic of your own inner fragmentation and stress - you cannot relax and trust yourself either. You need to learn how to accept others as well as accepting yourself; the two are intertwined, and if you can manage this then stress will be diminished and all your relationships will improve as you correspondingly feel more at ease in your own nature.

Intimate relationships can pose difficulties until the step of personal integration and resolution is taken. Your choices of partners may be unwise, especially where those anima-animus projectsion are superimposed on the partner, apparently turning them into the ideal lover who posesses everything that you believe you desire and need. When these projections collapse, you are liable to be emotionally distraught and see that person as another one who has deceived you; in fact, it may have been your own illusions that have been self-deceptive, and so the consequences of a hurt heart should not be taken out on your partner in any emotional or physical aggression. Resorting to the Neptuneian addictions of drugs or alcohol must be avoided at such traumatic times.

posted August 28, 2005 04:08 PM              

It's easy to forgive and forget, and it's not always a good idea with some. My ex libra had this placement and I let him take me to lunch this spring, only he threatened to kill himself (and me of course) in the car. It's as if he had no regard at all for his life or mine. I only talked him out of it by pretending he was a child and I was his mother, but it took tremendous energy. I really think when he stopped his car on the interstate he could of harmed both of us.

I would never allow myself to get that close again.
Thanks for the reminder.