posted October 14, 2005 07:06 PM              

*** what on earth is wrong with me**

'nowt wrong with you GG .. your being yourself ..

.. ok i know that probably don't answer it .. but i can't exactly get the words together to do so .. maybe some other time .. .. .. for now though .. ma'am .. transiting Saturn be sitting ( conjunct ) on your MC .. and has just past squaring thy natal Pluto .. so don't be toooooooo hard on yourself .. that not be an easy transit .. it would be a good time to think about Mc related issues .. .. .. in the very short term .. i.e . today .. you've had transiting Moon squaring Sat/Sun .. yeah it be a very short transit but can give one the blues for a couple of hours ..

posted October 14, 2005 10:17 PM              

I'm not sure what to suggest but life is naturally a series of ups and downs and the good times seem very good but the bad times seem endless.

This must be hard for you, feeling isolated as you do at the moment. Problems are always easier if there's someone to share them with... which is not always that easy if there's no-one around.

But, you have made an important discovery in realising that you shouldn't be so dependent on others for approval. Yes, approval from others is a wonderful thing but having inner strength, confidence and self-love is the most important thing of all. Being strong on the inside helps you to be strong on the outside. This is a lesson I'm learning too. I've always been very dependent on the approval of my family and friends but have got to that stage where I'm asking myself 'who am I living this life for?'.

What do you do for interests and hobbies? I'm thinking you need a lot of me-time to indulge and pamper yourself. And don't feel guilty about it. Looking after yourself and your inner child is very important.

When people aren't there for me, or I feel isolated, I have a few self-help techniques like writing down my thoughts and feelings, playing with my crystals, practising Reiki on myself, having a sumptuous bubble bath and spending ages making myself up... I'm all for a bit of self-pampering when life's stresses are getting me down.

Try finding things you can do that will help you relax and unwind.

"Bad Aspects" in a chart are a pain. I don't think there is any easy way to overcome them. Look out for your positive aspects which will help balance them and *hopefully* put them in perspective.

Challenging aspects are actually there to help us learn, like past karma carried over into this lifetime, so I guess working through the issues associated with them will bring eventual reward. I'm no expert at interpreting aspects so sorry I can't be more help here.

And, yes, you always have people on the forum to talk to so you're not completely on your own.

Take care. Love and light.

posted October 15, 2005 06:53 AM              

I have been here for hardly 10 days and I agree whole heartedly. This is the most humane forum I have seen in almost 8 years of Internet and countless Internet fights.

So Gemini Girl, I think you can write freely here. I am a neophyte in astrology but if you want to know how to feel good about yourself, I am the man, ask me anytime you feel like it.

Cheer Up now!

posted October 20, 2005 11:33 AM              

I think I understand how you feel. I've always had a really BIG problem when people are rude to me. For some reason, it's not a big deal when things like that happen HERE. I think it's because we all don't really get to see each others gestures and idiosyncrasities in their full glory, so I just chalk it up to lack of information.

But in person, or even on the phone, it bothers me. It USED to bother me to the point where it would affect me for hours or even DAYS!

It can be frustrating for a Gemini because you want to be on top of everything mentally - you want to KNOW why things are happening.

Be easy on yourself. People who are sensitive MAY AT TIMES appear to be OVERLY sensitive to others. People may even say cruel things about wearing your heart on your sleeve - or if they know it bugs you, they'll say things like "I was just kidding"...

There ARE some people out there who use a passive aggressive style, it's like they take a little bite out of you little by little. No, it's not your imagination. Those are toxic people you should ALWAYS stay away from. Get back into your own head, your own thoughts, your own creative state-of-mind and ignore.

One of the greatest books I read is called "The Highly Sensitive Person" by Elaine N. Aron, Ph.D. It's the first book I ever read which exposes so many POSITIVES to being a very sensitive person. For one, we tend to have LOADS of creativity.

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posted October 20, 2005 02:16 PM              

I can so relate to what youre going through right now. I am going through the exact same thing in my life. I have lately been let down by my closest girlfriends and we have had some stupid arguments that led to breaking all contact. This happened so suddenly, like out of nowhere, meeting out in a cafe, turning into a discussion that was nervewrecking. And so, I guess I can say I feel very dissapointed that it turned out that way. I mean, I ask myself, is it me, or is it her, or whats what, ya know.
But it had now made me realise, as I am working out this case, that as long as someone is not your true friend, then **** them. People seem to be friendly to you when they get what _they_ want and expect you to give them, if you need them to be there or maybe show a side of yourself that others aren't used to seeing, a weakness, then they run away and look down on you, it has happened to me throughout life.
Like, one time my girlfriend owed my money, she used to borrow money from me quite often, which i said was ok, no problem, but one time i asked her to give me that money back since i had no money at all at the moment. What she did, she met me in a cafe and gave me the money in an envelope and didnt even look at me and walked right out the door, and i never heard from her since?!
Its so crazy, this was a good gf, someone i confided in and confided in me, etc.
So i realise that everything we talked about, my trust in her, was worthless.
When i spoke to her and she said "aha", mhm" "I understand", she didnt really listen or care. But i thought she did, and now i must just realise, in life, when dealing with people, stop being so naive and rely on others to make me feel better.
Because when they dissapear
out of your life, then you will feel empty and worse, like you say you do now
But if you get that inner strength, you say you excersise, thats good, it gives a lot of inner strength. I recommend to you yoga and meditation too.
It's really important to get to know who you really are and what you stand for and dont let anyone try to change that in you.
Only you can make yourself happy.
But it sucks that there are so many ppl out there that might affect your life in a negative way, demanding things from you or playing on your insecurities, and that is nervewrecking for someone who doesnt have a lot of confidence. But you should keep on excersicing and do lots of yoga, it builds
you up inside in the long run