posted November 16, 2005 08:54 AM            

I am not happy.

Sometimes Astrology shouldn't be so dern all encompassing.

posted November 16, 2005 09:23 AM            

What transits say that you should be happy?

Are they stronger than Saturn Return? I know you are a Leo Rising so transiting Saturn is near or on your ASC now. Saturn is a serious (and not easy to ignore) planet; Even if everything is perfect, Saturn will still make you serious and even numb to some extent.

You should also look at your progressed and solar arc progressed angles/planets, they may make hard aspects (Transits represent outside energy, things happening outside yourself. They describe external events and your responses to them. Progressions, however, move very slowly and are a natural progression of your original chart. The events and emotions they describe are part of you, deeply ingrained in your psyche, internal, and psychological).

You have approached so-called 'astrological aduldhood'. You are changing. Something old will go for good although giving place to something new.

Deep inside you know what's happening and it makes you feel sad.

posted November 16, 2005 12:01 PM            

tSaturn's in my 12th -- I know what you mean..... Today's one of those days, I didn't get up until the morning was almost gone. Didn't Merc just back over Neptune in your 5th? And there's that universal t-square going on (moving into position anyway) with Mars/Saturn/Neptune.....see this link: http://north-node.com/articles/grand-cross-november-2005-january-2006?commented=1#c000332

Well anyway, big virtual hugs to you sweetie -- this too shall pass (ain't it annoying when people say that?!?), sometimes the best we can do is just endure these feelings.....

posted November 16, 2005 01:33 PM              

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* * * Transit wise, I should be happy happy happy * * *
*** Anyone else want to just go back to bed and let the world pass them by?***

.. well tJup to Sun can give one a case of the Layzeese ..
.. tNept to nMars can definitely sap ones energy .. it's diffusion ..
.. can feel a bit like (5) "what's the point in getting up" ..

tSat thru the 12th house be a first timer .. it aint easy ..
maybe the 'effing worst .. depends on ones' veiw i guess ..
.. would add to (5) maybe ..

the other lot are transiting your 6th .. so if the 12th is ( insert word )
.. then what be the 6th like .. more energy depletion maybe ??

the machine at this end .. sais .. Pixlz hath by transit ..
.. of the shyte ones ..

tSaturn squaring nLillith .. from the 12th house
tChiron squaring nChiron .. from the 6th house
tChiron squaring nMerc .. from the 6th house
tNept squaring MC and Mars .. from the 6th house

and .. tLillith conjunct thy Asc .. ( not so shhhh'iite .. in fact .. maybe .. the .. )

yeah .. am aware of asc/mc/house'z .. possible differences ..
anyhow u can stik the blame all on Mars skidding backwards in yer opposite sign ..
.. Fix 'Atation in the nation ..

.. project 'a beckons .. must go ..
tSaturn .. by square .. be demanding my attention as well ..
.. bit bullish in head .. stomp stomp nasty nasty .. but getting work done ..
.. or more like re-study ..

e'nzyhooooo ..

posted November 16, 2005 01:56 PM            

Yeah, The transits you mentioned are off by house...
So it's my first house for tSaturn, conjunct my natal Saturn big daddy ( oh joy)
and my fifth for tMerc and tPluto
tMoon and tMars at my tenth
tVenus is right on my Moon in the sixth.

posted November 16, 2005 01:57 PM              

Pixie that's not like you, but maybe someone hasn't been paying Undivided Attention to you lately? You need more UA-from someone Happy.

posted November 16, 2005 02:07 PM            

Last night I sat on the couch and watched TV (alone) for four hours. I don't do this type of thing.

I feel like I've been glued to the couch for the last week. No motivation. I can be self-indulgent, but this is something different.

Glad I'm not alone. Maybe it isn't just me after all...

posted November 16, 2005 02:07 PM            

I questioned everything about myself and my decisions.. but that is what Saturn does.. it makes you question the path you have taken thus far (where Pluto obliterates that Path). How close it T-Pluto to your Venus in Sag?

When Pluto tightly conjuncted my Venus I learned that I was a hell of a lot more sexual than I had given myself credit for being LOL.. I wouldn't settle for a sexless marriage and went on my way. Suffice it to say, sex because so important that I had based my last two relationships on sex and the intensity of the union. I have had several people that know me and my ex ask me what I ever saw in him and how in the hell could I have been with him. Simple.. it was about SEX.

Although sex is still important to me (as you will see in my post in SU) I know that when it comes time to settle into a relationship it will be based on so much more. The Saturn return taught me a huge lesson about what "friendship" and duty is all about in a relationship and that the sex is the icing on the cake.

posted November 16, 2005 02:21 PM            

TPluto is still in Sagitarius, still in my fifth, but it is out of orb with my Venus and Neptune. Which are at nine and twelve degrees.

future uncertain.. I tend to be indulgent too, but this is different.
I phoned in sick to work today. I don't even care. I need a holiday from everything, but one where I won't enjoy myself, I'll just lay there and try to shut my mind off. Finally make a decision to stick to.

posted November 16, 2005 03:57 PM              

...something happened in an enchanted land far away...

...get busy and "jot"...!!!

posted November 16, 2005 04:01 PM            

Yeah, but I get tired of saying the same things over and over. Nothing else comes out lately.

Blah

Thanks my peeps, for being supportive and inspirational.
I even want to quit the band! No joy for me.

posted November 16, 2005 04:28 PM            

Saturn's in my 12th, too.

posted November 16, 2005 09:05 PM              

***Yeah, The transits you mentioned are off by house..***
.. 'n my 'ouse be off it's transits as well .. i can tell ye .. .. when walls whisper ..
.. yeah i know .. h.d. should update data .. recheck .. or stubbornly hold on to the belief
that the long/lat time calculations are correct .. untill threatened with a rubber glove maybe ..

.. a bit o silliness : ok .. so got the lazy wrong ..
.. well Jup to Sun gotta give u a tad of the slothums ..
.. so here's a trak cut .. called 'lazy' .. would y'beleive ..
.. what a way to start the day .. than with a heartfelt organ solo ..
once one gets past the geetar action that is .. .. er .. the cut was slightly fumbled
.. fade in .. fade out .. insertion points .. 'n all that b.s.
ok Sat thru yer first H. .. get it outa your system .. go tell the keyboard player
if he don't immediatley learn these key riffs then .... .... :-)
( be a 5 meg file ) http://www.happydragon.pwp.blueyonder.co.uk/jkbx/layzzee.mp3

when i wrote the above post .. was listening to a CD .. this came on ..
made me smile (l'corn) ... imagined a wedding reception .. late number for the band ..
dancing couples a bit sloshed .. set in a ghostly hotel bar a'la "the shining" ..
.. i see the dance action as somewhat mesmerizing to this tune ...
.. an alternative way to start the day .. ...
.. slither out of bed .. with a subtle twirl 'n shimmy .. :-))
( 5 meg ) .. http://www.happydragon.pwp.blueyonder.co.uk/jkbx/ravel.ed.mp3
trak title .. 'pavane pour une enfante defunte' ..

posted November 16, 2005 11:02 PM            

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what a way to start the day .. than with a heartfelt organ solo ..

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posted November 17, 2005 12:22 PM            

Are you doing better today?? How was the heartfelt organ solo this morning?!?!?

I was thinking about your tChiron in VI almost square to nChiron in X, found an interesting take on Chiron transits by Moses Siregar:

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The following is my opinion, not Magi Astrology: When Chiron transits, you will tend to notice up to two primary things--one is easy, one is hard; both can happen under the same transit. First the hard: When a Chiron transit is hard, and you can't quite predict this based strictly on astrological guidelines, we feel thoroughly screwed by the universe, thereby receiving some tragic restimulation of a major wound; the particular quality of a Chironic wounding aspect is that it feels VERY UNFAIR. It's as if we're going along, doing everything we feel like the universe is guiding us to go, God seems on our side, and then, WHAM! God deserts you even though you thought you were being a good little boy or girl. So it really, really hurts. When this happens, there are two positive aspects of this cosmic betrayal. (1) We get a chance to feel the pain, the hurt, the humiliation, the sorrow, the yadda yadda; thereby we can consciously meet, feel, and release an ancient wound. (2) And I like this one, you can see Chiron acting as your spiritual guide, TRYING TO KEEP YOU ON YOUR PATH. You were probably going in the wrong direction. So Chiron pulls out a little tough love to keep you from straying in the wrong direction. When Chiron gives you the unfair wound, it's really important to ask yourself: What's this trying to tell me? What direction should I cease moving in? What is my spiritual guide trying to say to me?

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posted November 17, 2005 03:30 PM              

Review what it is you've been doing to gain a sense of "control" in your life, and in this world. When you reach a point where things aren't necessarily working for you anymore, time to let things go a little bit, you know? Play the part of "observer" for a while ...

I know this is an issue for strong Scorpio influences. The analogy I use is of tectonic plates building up pressure.