posted December 05, 2005 10:58 PM
Hi Mellon Colie and WELCOME ..Glad you like the idea.. I�ll tell you about the main things that jump at me from your chart. If anything I say sounds inaccurate or doesn�t suit you at all feel free to tell me. I�m only practicing.. I�m not a professional or anything and I�d like to learn more as I go.. so let me know what you found true or untrue Okies so..
You have both your sun and moon in water.. Pisces and Cancer. This makes for an extremely sensitive personality. You love most people truly and wholeheartedly and would do anything for people close to you. Feelings mean a lot to you and you�re a very deep person. You�d never hurt someone�s feelings on purpose, but that Sag ascendant might blurt out a thing or two, now and then. If you do find out you�ve hurt someone you�d do your best to rectify it.
Though you are very sensitive, you�re definitely not a doormat..with both your Mercury and Venus in Aries you have a feisty side. Men are likely to find you very attractive. You have a very nice mix of nice and sweet but also feisty and able to stand your ground when necessary (mainly in love).
Your ascendant squares your Sun by a large orb, which means that sometimes the way you come across is different to the way you actually are. Sag is an assertive sign and Pisces is a very sensitive sign..so people might think you�re a lot more assertive than you actually are. It helps a lot that Neptune conjuncts that ascendant, because that gives your Sag ascendant a Piscean quality. You probably have very nice watery/dreamy eyes and have a fairy tale quality to you. My bf has Neptune conj his Asc, he looks so dreamy sometimes, it�s very sweet.
The main problems I see in your chart are love related..one is Moon square Pluto (though the orb is large..but I think it would have an impact) and Venus/Merc opposite Pluto (I have this as well, with Venus only). Your North Node is in the same house and sign as your Pluto (though not conjunct by degree). Your South Node is in the same house and sign as your Venus/Merc.
In my personal experience this means that every time you are involved in the house and sign matters of the SN..in your case the 4th (family) and Aries (assertive, confident, rash) you feel comfortable but it drags you down considerably. You feel comfortable being at home, you feel comfortable being confident assertive, maybe a bit aggressive and self centered in your home, with family.. But in this life time what you need to concentrate on is breaking the strong ties that bind you to home and concentrating more on your career. The hardest thing for you is to work towards a career..you know you CAN do this, because Pluto is there to help, but it still seems like a drag to you..it�s uncomfortable. The other thing you may find hard to do is accepting help from other people, or being in a partnership..mainly in your career � but this is the main thing you have to get used to in this life time. You can�t count ONLY on yourself anymore..though that is what you would like to do (because your south node is in Aries)..but you need to become more open to the idea of partnership (libra)..having someone there who can help..who you can count on from time to time..and the best place for you to achieve this would be through your career (10th � which is where NN is). The more you move towards NN, however uncomfortable it may feel, the happier you will be.
There are some control issues in your love life, with the Pluto square and the opposition. You either feel the need to control or attract men who want to control you. Venus/Pluto makes people very attractive. A lot of times women might have a problem with you or get jealous unnecessarily. Men are likely to be very drawn to you. Your love life will usually feel very emotional, intense and with considerable ups and downs. It will never be boring and it won�t be smooth sailing (at least to start with).
I�ve read this about Venus/Pluto and thought it was accurate to me, so you might find it accurate as well.. Basically when you feel your partner has lost feelings for you (which might be just your imagination) you sabotage the relationship by completely severing your feelings and acting extremely cold. When you do this you convince the other person your love for them has died. You hurt them and you hurt yourself. This is due to a need for control. If you ever feel you�ve lost control over your love, you try to hold on to that control by leaving them..hurting them.. and making them grovel to get your love back. There are better ways to handle the situation and love doesn�t always need to be a life and death issue. I know this is hard.. I feel it is a life and death issue a lot of time.. and that�s pretty normal of Venus/Pluto (mainly with the opposition..it�s either ALL or NOTHING. You need to strike a balance in this..it doesn�t have to be *all*..all the time, or nothing�it can be something in between and it can be good.. sometimes this is healthier.
Your Moon squares this opposition. It squares Venus/Merc and also Pluto.. Your mum is likely to have been very authoritative and a strong influence in your life. From her you�ve learnt to be very intense and strong minded.. A lot of times you want the impossible romantically. You�re looking for an experience that transcends reality, you�re looking for someone to fulfil your moon in Cancer.. your venus/mer in Aries AND your pluto in Libra.. This is next to impossible for any guy to do and before you can really accept people as they are.. you will probably experience some hurt romantically...and disappointment. You ask for A LOT out of a relationship. Your ideas of the perfect husband.. and the perfect lover are very different. You might love someone with all your heart (cancer moon) but not be sexually attracted to them at all (aries venus). On the other hand you might be very sexually attracted to someone and not feel anything for them. This won�t always be a problem..what you need to do is understand this disconnect in yourself and where it comes from..and try to find a happy medium.. Find someone who half fulfils you emotionally and half fulfils you sexually and try to be happy with that�instead of wanting everything 100% or nothing..
Being a Pisces, you�re a very kind person. You�re most probably intuitive (specially with Neptune on your Asc and a water moon). You would prefer for things to be calm and soothing, in the end equation.. Romance, however is not going to be easy for you, in this life time.. it seems.. and it�s probably something that throws your Piscean sun of a bit. What you need to do is be as calm as possible and try to understand yourself and what it is you really want, before plunging (aries style � aries ven) into a relationship..
Apart from these problems, you�re a very well adjusted individual emotionally.. with the sun trine moon (even if not by deg). You are in tune with your own emotions and can express them artistically. Arts would be very healthy for you.. getting rid of any negative emotions through arts would help you lots. You have a lot of emotional intensity (moon in 7th/8th, mars in 8th, venus/pluto, moon/pluto) and if you can channel that into a career in arts, I think you will do very well � specially since your North Node is in the 10th (career)..and like I said before..that�s something you should concentrate on.
Hope you find this helpful!
:edit: PS. Forgot to add your Sun is square Jupiter..this isn't a negative square. It indicates a lot of optimism..so there is a very optimistic side to you..sometimes a bit too optimistic. Luck will be on your side, but you need to be a bit more realistic in certain situations..because you can't always base everything on pure luck.. Overall Jupiter will bring you confidence, good fortune and an ability to let go and enjoy life.. which is very helpful..when you have a water sun and moon (these can get depressed easily).. Jupiter cheers you up!