posted February 11, 2006 12:57 AM            

Every time I read my reports something always stands out as a new thing I can think about.

posted February 11, 2006 01:28 PM              

I don't remember if I looked at your Chart yet. Did I?

posted February 11, 2006 05:54 PM              

I will be back to elaborate actually I really gotta go right now.

But a few things jump out at me,

Your bluntness and inability to be dishonest with yourself in particular.

Your tendency to be abused by others. In fact you may believe the best about people to a point where you become blind to the faults of those that you hold as dear to you. You are bound to have at least a couple of hurtful experiences where people have cut through your trust to do a 180 on you.

Your tendency to gravitate toward serious, more experienced women, perhaps older, of different cultures, or having more knowledge or experience than yourself. You need a stable, reliable woman in your life to get past your fears.

You are definitely shy in initiating contact with people who do not initiate it with you at first, and may wonder why some people take offense to you at all.

You were probably an exemplary child or adolescent, and your parents or the community would use you as a model child; very grounded and obedient.

If any of its true, or off, lemme know because like I said Im not an expert. If you wanna know where I came up with that lemme know. ack late bbl

Love
SG

posted February 11, 2006 06:07 PM              

Here it is :::

www.linda-goodman.com/ubb/Forum1/HTML/007387.html

posted February 11, 2006 07:12 PM              

Good manners,sophistication, politeness.. yes all the diplomatic things i person could want. Do i enjoy those traits? Only when good things happen from them being used, However they can sometimes work aginst me. The take charge/aggressive/bossy people will take advantage of me and im compeled to obey.. I really really hate that about myself, its like i cant control it and i cant defend myself aginst it.

to h!ll with virgo servitude. I know you treat me like crap but would you like your sandwich on a silver plate sir?

Thats how i feel. Im going through a very self critical/negative period.

posted February 11, 2006 07:31 PM              

I dont understand why people take offense to me, There is a great deal of confusion about myself in my life. If i treat you nice and dont bother you then why would you do that to me, Thats basically my mindset. People still do it anyway.

Ive never dated an older woman. I never dated in my teens at all, very shy. However i wasnt on the inside.. No thats a different story all together but i could never express my wants/desires/feelings. Ive only dated younger women and they seam to adore me! Still remains a mystery to me why they do. Young women drive me up a wall.

Ive never been able to lie to myself, If i know the trust then i cant. However Im left confused by many things and as such i ignore them.

Ignoring and a inability to deal with myself seam to be my lifes "theme" When people made fun of the way i dressed or talked/walked whatever the case was i tried my best to change myself so that would happen anymore. Ive changed myself so much that now im having identity crisis and lack strong legs to stand on so to speak. Theres a constant war inside my mind and soul, There so different from one another and dont relate to each other. (that may have sounded weird i know but thats the best explanation i can give )

posted February 12, 2006 11:49 AM              

Boy did I identify with your latest post. I'm a Pisces sun, Cancer rising, and I was so sensitive growing up that I would try to change myself to get away from people's negative comments. Trust me when I say it never, never pays off on a deep level. It just attracts people who would judge you if they knew your real self. It took a long time for me to get back to myself.

Now I'm happy with who I am. It still hurts when other people don't seem to "get" me. But I prefer that feeling to the far-worse feeling of losing myself to others' expectations. And of course I'm still a work in progress. Everyone is.

One thing that helped me immensely, which might help you too, was to keep a journal. Don't tell all your real-life friends about it or put your real name on it or anything. Make it just for you, so you can explore your own feelings and really figure out what they are, who you are, and put this identity crisis behind you. Mine is linked in my profile, so you can see that I speak from experience.

By first nailing down who you are and then slowly getting comfortable with expressing that to others, you'll gain their respect and find that you don't have to change at all -- and that they like *you*. The ones who don't, well, you shouldn't be trying to hang out with them anyway.