posted February 20, 2006 10:25 AM            

We have been broken up a lil over a year now but I never stop caring for him and I knew that he still had a great deal of feelings for me. We all know how Aqua men are and they are not comfortable with physical expressions of love and all that so this has been very hard for the both of us, not to mention we were seeing each other in the gym every week almost for the time that we had been apart, not speaking him acting like he hated me, when it was his fault that we were not together.

anyway as time went on he slowly opened up to me playing lil games to get my attention so that I would speak and it worked. We had/have a very telepathic realationship and I always knew how he was feeling and doing rather I saw him or not. Just last week I posted about how I was getting strong vibes to call him, but I did not.

Anyhow his b-day was this past Saturday and well I had decided that if I would call it would be for his b-day. I woke up Saturday morning with him on my mind and sent him a text to wish him a happy b-day. I was not sure that he was going to respond he can be so unpredicatable sometimes. Well he did respond, he was shocked and happy at the same time that I thought of him.

He tells me that he is having a party and where it is and the time. I text him back and say ok, I never confirmed that I would go. Afterwards I pondered going cause I was not up for getting my feeling hurt. I asked a couple of girlfriends do they think that I should go, they all said you better, this is your chance for closure all the way and for him to see you. I have recently started school and so I do not go to the gym so I have not seen him since November of last year..but felt him deeply in my soul in my dreams and so forth.

So I decided to go to the party and might I add very happy that I did. It was an amazing attraction between us we must have kissed and hugged I do not know how many times that night and took picutres,I just had a lovely time. I know that he wanted to tell me that he was so sorry for hurting me the way he did but did not know how, I just let it be. We danced and he stared and kept saying my name. The affection he showed to me I gave right back..

I reminded him that my B-day is this coming Saturday and he said if I had a party he would come. I laughed, he even got a lil jealous as I mingled with other guys he kept cutting his eyes over at me as I chatted with a guy that I had been knowing all my life and the guy even noticed he was like uh whats up with him. I was like don;t worry about him.

So its a lil late and I am ready to go and he walks me to my car and says It was so nice seeing you and I say it back we kiss and I get in my car.

That brought me a great deal of happiness and I am not sure where this will go I wish that we can rekindle or love relationship not immediately but slowly. But I am going to keep going on with my life and doing what I am doing..

I just wanted to share this story with you guys because, there is always a sad ending story with Aqua men here on the forum..

I often felt deeply in my soul and was once told that he was my twin soul/soul mate. I am not totally sure but I do know that until he is ready to face me and talk to me about how he hurt me this can't move anywhere. I am totally past what he did he's not and it is holding him back from us, thats just how I feel. He cannot come back to me unless he comes correct period...

posted February 26, 2006 06:41 PM              

Thanks for telling us how things are going,

"Hope is an inconstant joy built on a past memory or future promise" (my friend Ron who has been married three times)

Here's wishing you more than hope.

posted February 26, 2006 09:51 PM            

So, what did he do for you for your b-day!